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Date cancelled due to horrible weather conditions. The rain is pouring like crazy. Gusts of wind are reaching well above 100km per hr. It's nearly impossible to go outside. Goddamnit. I just really have no luck these days regarding sex. Looks like God has other plans with me. Oh well... On a side note tho; a smoking hot milf(31) just opened me up on tinder. But... she's 70km away. Won't happen anytime soon, if ever.

@RickyFitts It's very tempting, trust me. But it's too good to be shared prematurely My preciousss!

@RickyFitts A week?! You think a true masterpiece can be born within a few days?! Try at least a month or two haha! Jk. Main reason is; this little laptop that I bought is not capable of handling such a massive project. I'm only writing now. Recording sessions will begin once I buy a more serious computer.

I did it. I fucking did it. I captured God in one single riff. Thank you so much for this gift. I feel blessed.

@Applegarden8 patience, my friend, patience

@Igor82 Hey man! Thanks for that comment, appreciate it. Yes, the question has been answered quite a few times, from quite a few different points of views. Keep reading, the picture gets much clearer

Soft-closed the date for Thursday. We're both kinda packed, busy and all over the place, so it will be a bit tricky to pull off... but I think it's doable. It's a 45min drive from where I'm at right now. Going back to my place is not an option... so I'll either have to rent a hotel room there, or... do it in the car lol. Maybe she has a better solution... will see.

Depositing a smaller amount into my account tomorrow. Adding to it later, when I earn a bit more money. Back in the game. Fuck yes. Might skip this week though. I don't want to rush into a trade like a savage.

Got a computer. It's not the most powerful ever, but it will do the trick for now. It's a very temporary solution. First writing session after the break tonight! So very excited!

On a side-note; I definitely must start practicing yoga on a daily basis. My body is kinda holding me back from anchoring higher consciousness throughout the day. Sitting in my chair and meditating is one thing, and being active and getting shit done is another. I want to close the gap. Breathing a lot through my spine. Opening the chest/ribcage. Shoulders and neck must be aligned a bit, too. My legs though, are pretty much a disaster lol. Hitting the gym too, any day now.

Bought a cute, little laptop today. It's going to be great for this WR1 phase. I'm so very happy that I can get back to writing music. It's not powerful enough for recording massive projects, so that's going to be a bit further down the line, when I enter WR2 or 3 and buy a stronger computer. Tonight is my very first writing session after this pause. I'm also making a deposit into my trading account tomorrow. It's a smaller amount than I initially wanted, but it's going to be enough to get things going. Exciting!

Ime; you can dumb yourself down, like, a lot. It's fun. And it can be very liberating. Can you 'undo awakening' ? Well, in a sense, that's precisely what happens once you merge with God. There is no awakening in The Absolute sense.

It is not preferable, at all. God loves nothing more than to dream. God is the biggest dreamer ever. An infinite dreamer. The 'goal' is, again, from a limited point of view, and whilst on the path: to remember you're God, dreaming this whole thing up. Then; you can dream on forever, create and live out any dream, consciously or semi-consciously. However you want, really. You can also decide and choose to forget about being God, again. Apparently, it's the game God enjoys playing the most. The work all of us are doing, and have no clue about it, is actually occurring backwards. Quite literally.

Yes. So much yes. Yet I rarely see anyone ever mentioning it on the path. Also; faith, passion, commitment, dedication, perseverance, trust. There is no awakening without those. And there is also an awakening out of those. In my eyes; awakening is a natural occurrence. One does not need to do anything in order to awaken. One cannot do anything to stop it, either. 'The problem' is, that a lot of us would love to run, when really, we're at the stage where we're yet to learn how to crawl. It is terrifying from a limited point of view. In The Absolute sense, there are no points of views, no terror and no beauty, either.

I've accumulated a significant amount of money, much sooner than I thought I would. Feeling great. But I must sort my priorities out now. I can do a lot of things, but not all things at once. I can either invest into my trading account right away, or I can buy a new computer and start making music. I could also move to a nicer/bigger apartment or get a new car. Hmm. I must sit with it a bit more. What I don't want to do, is spend the money on meaningless things. Stuff like expensive food, drinks, partying or girls. I must play it smart now. The next train leaves within 30+ days. Waiting a bit longer would not be a disaster, but it's unnecessary - I think. I can make a big step forward right away.

That's very cool. Thanks for your input. Coming back to being tho, I like to say: 'If you see it, you ain't it.' I agree, though I would not call it ego, really. Duality goes way beyond ego, in my experience. One can be quite selfless, or egoless, yet there are still 'things' to be dissolved in order to completely merge with Being, or God. In a sense; perception is directly contradicting Being. I also disagree with the whole 'just keep letting go of thought' campaign. Yes, it is very useful and necessary at some point of the journey, but ultimately, one cannot let go of anything. There is nothing to be let go of. God cannot let go of itself. To me; that is an attempt to escape. To check out. It is one side of the coin. The 'no' of it all. As opposed to the 'yes'. It is not the whole coin. Being is all-encompassing. It does not exclude a single thing. Most souls on this journey have no idea what they're doing. Especially when it comes to disintegrating the self. All they do is follow. Instead of creating their own path and staying true to their hearts.

Heck yes! She's down for 'grabbing a drink'. It's happening, no question about it. Now we just must figure out when, where and how. My God. She's even hotter now. Like, much hotter. I am already fucking her brains out in my mind. Might jerk off to that before bed. So excited!

Awyeah brother! Reached out to an old fuck buddy from these regions... She and I have a very special, very exciting and quite long story. It was definitely some top notch sex back in the day. Haven't seen her 4+ years. Texting now. She seems very excited to hear from me, hopefully we meet soon!

Me too! I barely know a few songs, the man has released tons of material. Never sat down to truly explore his entire discography. But what I heard so far is absolutely genius.

@cjoseph90 Thanks! MB is short for Maribor. It's a beautiful, small city in Slovenia.

I am incapable of articulating things correctly right now, sorry. My mind is kinda exhausted. Might create a thread on its own on thought only, when I refresh. Try finding the borderline between thought and sensation in direct experience. Try becoming conscious how thought comes into being. Become conscious of all the facets of Light (God) and how they all melt into one another. It was a typo, sorry. Was in a rush. I meant to say there are cool songs written about what I seem to be going through. Here's some for ya: We've all been blinded Subjects to visual misinformation A systematic denial of the crystalline To see the fine grain, to read the hidden words The context of parallel truth Devoid of fragmentation Our light-induced image of truth Filtered blank of its substance As our eyes won't adhere to intuitive lines Everything examined, separated, one thing at a time The harder we stare The more complete the disintegration Dissolution A spinning antidream unthought -Exceeding the obsolete reality Overheated inner shape-generator - Blowing every cerebral fuse Insanity filtered and systematized -Feeding the tools of mind abuse Mind-signal transmission peaked, distorted, bent, unrestrained Neuroreceivers shortcircuit. System parameters over-gained Nervethreads decoding the stream of the Reality-inverting revolution The patterned untruth of non-dream: The closed eye visual delusion A frantic cellular race down the switchbacks of mind -Throttling the existence-engine. A propulsion beyond all limit lines Self unfolds like a disintegrating dream. All Revealed but the sinister cause My lying eyes come apart at the seams. Still how could I ever regret the loss The self transformed into wave lengths -Reverberating this unyielding dream A twirling visual overload - Explosions of terror and beauty Colors of fear and pain within clash into unanything A spectra-organic frenzy setting fire to the Neuro-highways of mind Revolving me away from time. A soul now rendered Unassigned The blood boils - it knows My thoughts burn as minds liquify, vaporize Reality scorched by this fixed state All beginnings slain by ends I seep down into the black to breathe

I don't know how to put into words yet. But there are some very cool so gs writing about it. There is so much more to thought then I once thought

Precisely. We may use the same words but they mean something completely different to each and every one of us. I was not saying that, but yes, it is possible to choose death consciously. You can also slip, unwillingly, into something I like to call 'infinite death'. Watch it. Just because you don't know something it does not mean no one does. Knowing and not knowing go hand in hand.

@Jakuchu I never said I was beyond enlightenment. Clearly I took a very humbled position in my original post. I said being is beyond realization/enlightenment. Confidence may come off as arrogance. It's just how you perceive me, and that's fine too. Wish you all the best. @Terell Kirby Yup. A very important distinction.

Now you're just being a cleaver little devil. If you don't like the message, skip it, read something else.