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So I thought this was a cool idea... It would be an awesome way to connect with members, and maybe even learn a thing or two. I hope it's not against any guidelines. I know there are plenty of incredible musicians on here. So please, pick up your instrument of choice and give us some of that juice! There are no real rules. Play whatever you feel like playing. A favorite song of yours, a favorite part, or even an original. Or if you wanna just show off your skills - that's cool too. Improvisations are most desired though. Here's mine. The only rule is... please use the link above for recordings, only. No links to youtube videos, or soundcloud, or anything like that. Everything must be recorded fresh and raw, now - using that link. Members that I personally would like to hear play/sing, as I know they all rock hard: @lxlichael @Nahm @Applegarden @modmyth Rock on!

@aurum Certainly. Thanks for your input. However, I was trying to point to something more than just vocal registers or range. Something that's behind the voice - if you will - that gives it a certain quality/sound. It is possible to sing in the chest register, and sound quite tender and feminine - for example. The Voice of God, ime, is full body, or better yet, out of body singing. No breath singing. It is full activation of and full awareness over vocal folds. It feels like there is no singing and no singer, either. Not sure if I'm explaining it well, but there you go haha.

It has never been an issue for me. In fact; talking about feelings is one of the things I enjoy the most. More often than not, all else seems like a distraction, when conversing with someone. Having a good friend to whom you can talk to openly can be great. But even that has its limitations. The way I've accumulated emotional maturity is by devoting my life to music. I grew so much just by listening. And I learned how to express myself, quite accurately, by playing. Sometimes a melody can tell more than a thousand words.

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@SamC Similar thoughts crossed my mind too, but I'm not an expert on the bible, so I'm not sure if there is a direct link. But I get what you mean. Very cool. Thanks! @Nahm Me too Might happen. ?

This is pretty cool:

@soos_mite_ah Lana is great, yes. Here's one of my favorite female singers.

Just discovered tons of incredible ideas and even entire songs that I have completely dismissed and forgotten about. I cannot believe how good this stuff is. And I also cannot believe what a judgemental piece of shit I am so often towards myself. I seriously need to give myself a break. I'm being way too harsh. Perfectionism is one thing, and being an inconsiderate dick is another. Yet I still cannot deny that all of that got me to where I'm at currently. And where I'm at, is fucking nice. Still quite some work left to do, but man, I made it far in all these years. I've been preparing for this my whole life. I basically have two projects in mind. One is what I'm currently working on. 8string, polyrhythms, syncopations, and whatnot. And the other one is far more simple, meditative and ethereal. I aim to release a single for that other project soon after I drop this first track. So. Much. Goodness.

Important post in the 'consciousness' section:

@BipolarGrowth Pretty good, but quite far from what I'd call 'The Voice of God'. This is it. The full spectrum.

Big breakthrough, indeed. I am so much closer to actualizing certain ideas. And I already have, quite a few. I'm getting real good at this manifestation biz. And super fast, too. I still consider myself to be in WR1 phase, but I'm approaching WR2 rapidly. In fact; I could've already made the jump, but it would not be as smooth as if I was to give things a bit more time to unfold on their own. I really don't want to rush. Or force anything. I'm working significantly less these days, at that dead-end job. Still there is no shortage of money. I usually get paid the same day, or week, so that's great. I got what was necessary and still managed to save up some. I don't go out, besides for a walk. It's noticable. I don't spend on meaningless stuff. Regarding trading; I'm still far from where I want to be, but I'm moving forward steadily. Big changes are happening mostly behind the scenes. Psychologically. And that's very important. More than half of the equation. I made real good friends with solitude. I'm starting to love and enjoy it on a much deeper level now. I see all the gifts it has to offer. The power it holds. The less I notice anything outside of me, the more I'm being noticed. Sensing eyes on me, pretty much non-stop. Music... First single is coming together beautifully. I could not be happier with my musical endeavors. I'm back in it, fully. Imagination is set free. Writing is easy and filled with joy and passion. So much more wisdom and intelligence behind every melody, every rhythm. I decided to start focusing on my vocals a bit more now. I want to get my voice all nice and ready for recording sessions. I've been neglecting it to some extent lately. To be honest; I was never truly consistent with any practice or exercise. So that's a must now. If everything goes as planned, next week I should be renting a place/studio, where I'd be able to practice without any disturbance, and later on start recording. Being too loud where I currently live is not an option. It just does not feel right. I cannot let go fully. Body is healing, being aligned. Gaining weight nice and steady. Still not hitting the gym though. Maybe it will not be necessary, at all. It seems as if the breath has taken over, and plays quite a few roles now. My desired body shape is just behind the corner. Significant changes regarding styling, too. I bought quite a few fancy pieces of clothing. Italy is just naturally inviting of self-expression, style and all that biz. All in all, feeling great. Very, very excited and motivated. And simultaneously, calm and at peace. Clear-headed. Focused. There is no lack of faith anymore.

@Applegarden8 For sure. Send it my way once it's done!

I also really, really want (and need) an 8string classical guitar now. It would be a perfect addition to my sound. I've got my eyes set on this beauty in particular. Just look at how gorgeous it is!

Tuned the whole thing down half step. It flows and resonates much nicer now, since the tempo is quite slow: 84bpm. My tuning is: F A# D# G# C# F# A# D# It's just a bit darker and heavier. Perfect! So far, I've got 3.21 minutes of material. Rock solid structure. I doubt I will be making any major changes to it. Just work on details and spark a bit more. The instruments are the following: Classical/acoustic guitar, 8string overdrive guitar, lead, bass, percussion, church organ and a piano. I will be adding in some strings and trumpets towards the end, for the climax of the track. Maybe some choirs as well. I imagine the song will be 6 to 7 minutes long. Man... it's just so damn good. I fucking love this feel. When things truly click, you don't just get exactly what you wanted... you get much, much more. It's almost too good to take in. Or take any credit for it. And that applies to all other areas of life, too - ime. It's just how creation works. God is gracious.

Entered a trade yesterday, sometimes late at night. Woke up to my TP being hit. A fairly nice profit. Cca 3% growth. I got this!

That clicked deep. Thanks! Affirmative. Kinda get this point too, but idk, maybe I expressed myself poorly. Maybe 'making peace' with it is not what I truly want. I am familiar with it, yes. Not super-duper into Abraham's teachings, but I watched quite a few videos, quite a few times. Resonance is high. And yes, they're coming at it from a different angle - more from a point of creation/manifestation, instead of deconstruction/disintegration. They don't really explain 'the mechanics' of it. But I'm sure it's the same thing. The same Vortex I speak of here. I'm just doing the work backwards. Not forward.

Anyone has any knowledge on this? What is this swirling white stuff? And why was my experience with it so painful? It felt like being shredded to pieces. I was sucked into the centre, like it was a black whole or something. Except that it was white. Everything was white. In fact, the closest I can come to describing it, is that it was just like white noise. I know it's Light. And it's prior to any appearance, form, colour, sound, etc. In a sense; the way I was able to experience it, was in reverse. It was just so fucked up and twisted. Even just thinking of it makes me tremble a bit. I want to make peace with it. Help if ya can.

Fuck. It's Creation. And what I was experiencing, was it being undone. It's death. But not the death of I. Death of Reality as a whole. Fuck. Me.

Holy motherfuck fuck. Magic is happening tonight. The stuff that's coming through is breath-taking.

Sensation, perception, thought. That's it. That's all there is. How can something this simple be so tricky and so complicated? Because thinking makes it seem so. Only in thought can you try to outsmart yourself. Only in thought can you seek something other than what's already the case. Only in thought can you conclude there is something more to this. Thought is of Truth, but not the entire Truth. There are no 5 senses. There is one. There are no billions of perspectives. There is one. And the thought of many. Look at your hand. There is no hand. There is nothing. And the thought of a hand. Touch the wall. There is no wall. There is only sensation. And the thought of you touching the wall. Don't try to stop thinking. Just shift your focus on feeling. Whenever you find yourself lost or stuck, just breathe. Breathe until nothing but The Breath remains. Ground yourself in feeling. Find that one thing you absolutely love and enjoy, and get lost in it. And if you're going to think, think creatively, with passion burning in your heart. You are not bigger than Truth. Truth is not bigger than You.

It is possible dissolve perception completely. Then, there is no difference between thought, sensation, or anything else for that matter. It's all just different facets of Light. Consciousness.

@Nahm No idea.

There is not much to be said these days, because there is a lot that is being done. I'm basically living out everything I've scripted. Incredible. Next week is going to be a huge breakthrough. God winked on me and pointed in a very specific direction earlier during meditation. Big transformation ahead. I am very inspired and motivated.

What's the difference between a pizza and a musician? A pizza can feed a family of four. </3 Haha! That's enough of dickin' around. Time to write some music.