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@flowboy Good stuff, thank you. I am deeply committed to my purpose and it's definitely the number one thing in my life. I have a very strong vision and I feel like I'm on track. But it can be argued that I tend to deviate from or neglect my life purpose because of girls. It can throw me off, definitely. Good point. @NoSelfSelf Yeah, you keep hitting the nail on the head. I feel like you're precisely right about what's going on. I know I'm not standing my ground as firmly as I could. I'm trying to correct these patterns. I'm really not a fan of what's going on. Kinda makes me feel like a little bitch sometimes. I feel hooked and consequently taken advantage of. @acidgoofy I hear you. Great to see someone can relate that deeply. Will dive deeper into all this... Might hit you up via PM. Thanks!

@StarStruck Yeah, I am still not sure if this is such a big deal. Maybe I just need to fuck a lot for a bit longer. I'm sure it would exhaust itself naturally, over time. I won't have a sex drive this high forever. Maybe I should enjoy it while it lasts, in a healthy way. Choosing a suitable partner is another thing though. That aspect definitely requires work.

@acidgoofy I see. Thanks. I figured taking a break is not going to do the trick, yeah. And I don't really know how to go about unpacking and resolving this. I'm already doing a lot of inner work and healing, pretty much non stop for the past few years. Maybe this will sort itself out naturally. Or maybe I'll have to focus on it directly. I don't know... What I'm pretty sure about is that this has to do something with worthiness, neglect and abandonment wounds from childhood, not being loved enough as a child, not receiving enough attention, etc. I noticed that sex is often a way for me to connect to feeling and let go of myself, in a sense. Get out of my head.

@NoSelfSelf Well, kind of yeah, but not really. I'd say I had two girlfriends up until this point, that were disrespectful towards me. The rest of them (and there were plenty) were perfectly fine. My most recent ex was hell. This current one is not an angel either. She keeps saying sex with me is the best she ever had, and I know she's not bullshitting. She's attracted to me and wants me. It's obvious. But I still feel like she's the one 'in charge' of it, and maybe she's kind of starting to weaponize sex too. She sees that it's my weak spot, I imagine. I keep setting strong boundaries and I am very clear about stuff that I will not tolerate. But she does not seem to give too much fuck. So I guess I either walk away, or keep negotiating with her.

@acidgoofy I am familiar with Gabor Mate. I'd say I understand addiction in general pretty good. It's just that I haven't done much of anything about this one in particular. Besides that 5 months break. Something needs to click a bit deeper... @NoSelfSelf Ouch... Hit the nail on the head with that one. Thanks. I'm disrespecting myself first, by staying in these kinds of dynamics. I'm aware of that. It just seemed kind of worth it. Of course I draw the line somewhere, I don't let women completely walk all over me. I give plenty of chances, probably more than I should... but this is obviously not healthy for me. I am spitting in my own face, in a sense.

@Devin Yeah, I definitely keep lowering my standards, just so I could have sex. I could be dating much higher quality women. But I usually settle for less, if we're having plenty of sex. Definitely something I could work on.

I see a lot of people twisting and mixing up this. It's a misunderstanding and a misinterpretation of 'the mirror teaching'. I am not you. You are not me. That's not what the mirror is. You are you. I am I. We are one, but not the same. What you see in me has nothing to do with you. It does not point towards unresolved stuff in you, or anything like that. It's just how I am. It's just how you are. You might dislike me, hate me, think that I'm an idiot or whatever else. It does not make us less one or whole. You might love me, admire me, think that I'm awesome and smart. It does not make us more one or whole. 'The mirror' is literally just consciousness. If you take a look at anything and see consciousness, the mirror is doing its job. But if you see a character in front of you and say that they're you, you are hallucinating. There is no 'you' or 'I' in consciousness. Consciousness has no identity. It just is (conscious). You might be a rapist or a murderer... It has nothing to do with me. It couldn't be further away from who I am. Yet we are one. To twist the teaching would be to say that I am the rapist and the murderer, just because I see one in front of me. Or to think that the reason why I see one is because there is something unresolved within me. That's just nonsense. It feels off for a reason. Because it's just not true. It's delusion and can potentially cause harm to you and others. Be careful. One. Not the same. Big difference.

Much love and respect.

@ShardMare I meant, you can use your suffering to create great art, if you are an artist.

Great art, if you're an artist.

4:20 No coincidence.

I said all I meant to say. All I said I meant. @A_v_E I thought you were more woke than this. Oh well... At least you're still sexy.

No, this is mostly just arrogance and frustration speaking. Nothing too loving, kind or compassionate about it. I'm aware of that. But it's what was relevant for me at that moment. Also, that doesn't mean the message is not valid; Just because everything is one, doesn't mean everything is the same, doesn't mean there is no difference or diversity and doesn't mean you're less enlightened or conscious if you can tell an apple from a cucumber.

@A_v_E Ivan did not create shit. Ivan is created, as all you are; here to labour and to wail with the damned.

@A_v_E You never lie only use a different form of truth

@A_v_E Perceiving differences and making distinctions is not in the way of your precious enlightenment. Of course perception can be dissolved and then distinction is impossible to be made. But that's not where you sneaky little bastards are, right this moment. If you were there, you could not blink, think or talk, let alone type nonsense on this forum. That's my main issue with what you all are blabbering. It's not that I'm denying your point altogether. I'm simply saying you are pointing towards nothing, some 'experience' that you had once or twice on psychedelics or whatever else. You are not there right this moment. And since right this moment is all there ever is, what you're essentially doing is living a lie, even though you are pointing towards 'the highest truth'. You know... the whole 'there is a difference between speaking of truth and living it' thing. A difference between knowing the path and walking it. Walk your talk. Know where you are. Stand in that Truth. It might not be 'the highest truth' but it's still true, right now. Truth is not an idea. No matter how fancy and shiny. You have to develop a sense for truth and do your best to stay aligned with it. Constantly correcting yourself and re-aligning. It's an ongoing thing. Always now. And it can look like anything. Very delicate. I don't surf, but I imagine it's pretty much like that.

STOP YELLING AT ME!!!

@A_v_E How gracious of you So you're telling me that you cannot tell the difference between your face and your neighbor's ass? Is that what enlightenment is? Is that how conscious af you all are? C'mon.

Hey Leo. This is kind of spontaneous and I have a feeling it's going to be good. Not a hardcore follower, but I have been around here for some time and I consumed quite enough of your content on YouTube. While I do have my disagreements with some of your ideas and ways, I want to make it clear that I am very grateful for your contribution to this world. You helped me and so many others, in so many ways. The work you've done is truly mind-blowing. I enjoyed listening to you Leo these past few years. I enjoyed it, most of the time. I could never really put my finger on what was putting me off. It wasn't the information you were sharing. It was something beneath that. As if there was a disconnection between what was being said and what was being demonstrated - if you know what I mean. It seemed like you were not really rooted in that which you were talking about. As if you were out of alignment with it. But today it kind of came to me in a simpler form. In a more down to earth way - if you will. It's just your attitude. That's what's bugging me. While watching you and listening to you, I often feel like you are assuming that I am dumb. You are assuming that I cannot possibly comprehend what you are sharing with me. It almost feels like you are trying to convince me that what you're saying is true. Or even, convince yourself. Simply put, it seems as if you assume your audience to be kind of stupid. It's like you are talking down to them. It's like you are assuming yourself to be in a higher position, by default. You do not demonstrate enough humility or compassion. And I'm not talking about the words you're speaking. I'm talking about your general state of being - for lack of better words. What are you rooted in when you are talking about Love, Truth, God, etc.? It's often not Love. It's arrogance, frustration, anger, cynicism, desperation, pain, confusion, fear, etc. You can get quite neurotic, too. Yes, all that is Love, of course. But also, no, it isn't, really. You know what I mean. I understand why this is. I understand that you have your own journey and your own shit to deal with, so of course you cannot be all Love n Light all the time. That's not what I'm trying to say. I just think that you could be more relaxed with your approach. Not so tense and aggressive. I think you could speak to your audience in a more mature way. Not like they're these slacker students who failed a bunch of classes. If you were to speak to that camera as if you were truly and actually speaking to God, or yourself, your tone of voice, your attitude, your state of being, would be quite different. Not saying you should do that, just pointing it out as an interesting thought. Sometimes I want to share some of your content with people who are not really into all this stuff. Or maybe they are a little bit, but are coming from different backgrounds. And what I noticed is that what puts them off, is indeed your attitude. The way you're presenting the information. Not the information itself. It's not just what you say. It's how you say it, too. Give it a thought. Much love and respect.

@Arthogaan You (and others) assume that I did not have these realizations. When in fact I've been there already and took a few more steps beyond. What I'm telling you is that there is a very good reason why I'm making this distinction. And I'm also saying you're all full of shit because you're far from standing in that Truth that you're speaking of. None of you is actually as conscious as you're claiming to be. Hence you are all just living a lie. Not Truth. It doesn't matter how big or how accurate the words are that you're using. If you're not standing in that Truth it's just bullshit.

You guys are so full of shit

@Leo Gura I don't doubt that. That's why you should know how dangerous this can become if things get twisted and misinterpreted.

@Someone here Dude, you had sex like.. twice in your life? You have a long way to go. @Nilsi Bullshit. Nothing advanced or developed about being polyamorous. It's dysfunctional by default. It's for people who cannot form real, authentic, loving connections. It's a degeneration in one's evolution, not progression or advancement.

@Leo Gura You might just lead yourself and your followers into insanity this way. We are One. Not the same. Absolutely one. Relatively quiet different.

@Vibes Indeed.