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@Javfly33 Cool man, you do your thing. I just like pointing out here and there in these solipsism threads how dangerous it can actually be. I would not agree that Oneness or unity or God equals Solipsism. I get where it's coming from, but it's just not the end all be all - in my opinion.

Definitely. I was pointing towards the feminine aspect of one's being. Not necessarily women. It's sketchy and cultsy to 'normies', I'm sure. Especially when they see you saying you're God. It's way too out there... I learned to keep this 'work' to myself, mostly. For a reason.

Well, because if you go too deep into insanity you might get trapped there. 'Solipsism' is the perfect way to lose your mind. And not in a good way. I dipped my toes in it - wasn't fun. One thing to fantasize about it and another to actually live it. Once you truly start living solipsism, things can quickly get seriously dangerous. I'd argue that it can fuck up one's psychology severely.

It's a bit sad, but I'm not surprised. This is not exactly a healthy environment. Lots of dick measuring and so on... Of course the feminine is repulsed by all that. I don't really like to think of myself as part of this community. I'm not too proud of it. But it's still useful/helpful to be here.

Some truth to it, sure, but it's also a dangerous territory. Be careful not to harm yourself or others.

Stuck in self pity Anger filling the void Rapid expansion of the sinful city The darkness being my call Strangers walking in my home Sounds of you not there Never seen the night so dark I lack the will to care All alone in city lights Where you absorb the echo

Watch your eager tongue Attack me from behind

I have heard your words, and I am unchanged

Bashar is my favorite alien

It is an addiction, indeed. I'm not saying you should leave, but taking a break from this place every now and then is good. I took a break of few months, 2 or 3 times, and I'm glad I did.

What pain will it take To satisfy Your sick appetite Go in for the kill Always in sight, prey The time always right, feast Feed on the pain, taste Sorrow made flesh sweet Live how you want Just don't feed on me If you doubt what I say I will make you believe Shallow are words From those who starve For a dream not their own to Slash and scar Big words, small mind Behind the pain you will find a scavenger of human sorrow

Just to be heard I lose my voice

To run along the freeway To weigh one's heart against the oncoming dark

How long Is the pattern going to speak for you How far can your voice reach Your song below the night

Much love and respect to you all.

A few days of mostly peace and joy behind us. Maybe some boredom and frustration too. But overall, it's quiet and pleasant. Can't complain. Good times like this can lure me into fantasizing about all kinds of possibilities. All kinds of scenarios and scripts. All kinds of stories. It makes me wanna envision my future with you in it. A life that we co-create. I am cautious. Even though I'm entertaining all these ideas, I never really buy into them. I'm not getting attached to any outcome here. It is that way for a reason and it is going to stay that way.

My girlfriend of 6 months is a complete flirt. She's trying to handle her shit, now that we're together, but still, it's obvious that she doesn't know how to draw clear boundaries and tell guys to fuck off. She's hot and she's oozing with sex appeal. Super charismatic and kind of overly friendly. So of course guys are hitting on her from left and right. She apears to be quite open and available. I'm not too worried about her actually fucking someone behind my back... But what I am worried about is her entertaining these dudes who are hitting on her and not letting them know clearly that she's not interested. She usually giggles, tries to laugh it off, etc. It's like a defense mechanism. I don't like that. She should know how to handle these situations better, when I'm not around. Just today, for example l, I am working and she's going to a birthday party without me. I know there's going to be plenty of drunk guys trying to hit on her there... It's not pleasant to think about. I hope she can handle her shit. What is your experience with this? Guys - how did your girlfriend handle this kind of stuff while you were together? And girls - how do you go about setting clear boundaries when a guy is super persistent but you're not available or interested? How do you police your shit?

Dark skies were beating me down with shadows of deceit slashing at trust till it forever bleeds with doubt, with pain, with trust is pain When you taste the truth you will see like others before me, to you I am past, a story to tell Tell it

Holding on to pain, it may seem to some The easy way, to say o.k. Twist your knife a little deeper Enforce the words no more, be free Alone you might just find serenity To forgive is to suffer

Once or twice is kind Three or four is blind

In observation, I analyze All the aspects of humanity that I despise I am the voyager I have tasted pleasures of the flesh And drunk the pleasures of the mind To reach the point I've attained Clear focused and defined

I'd say she does. She's not going out alone, doesn't do drugs anymore, etc. She's spending most of her free time with me. It took a lot of talking and some arguing, but I think she's sticking to our agreements. I just doubt she's truly changed. I think she's just trying to be on her best behaviour to give me the impression that she's a good girlfriend. Again, not trusting her fully and not taking her too seriously. It's too risky. Might end up burning myself bad. Better keep some distance.

Lol. Well, that's kind of what I'm trying to figure out. Can I trust her or not? Of course she gave me all the 'you're the best I ever had, you fuck me like no one else, I cannot even think of being with someone else', etc... but is it all just bullshit or is it for real? That's what I'm unsure of.

@StarStruck I understand that. It's not like I could not easily have a side chick. Or several. It's just that I don't like playing these kinds of nasty games. I want to know where we stand. And she's kinda shady...

@Leo Gura No, I think that talking too much and setting up too many rules would have a counter effect. She's just that kind of a girl, and as long as I choose to be with her, I have to learn to be immune to it. Maybe a nice balance between #1 and #2 is the way.