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@Kuba Powiertowski Too humbling. Thank you both @Saupahar Imagine a chair waking up out of chair ego.. imagine it saying 'fuck this shit, I'm God!' and just walking away. We would all fall on our asses... That would be hilarious.

You are not forced to become unconditionally loving. You are loved unconditionally. You most certainly should not make yourself love a rapist or a murderer or anything else. That's not your job. You will not be less awake because of that. Oneness is absolutely loving and all encompassing. And that includes you feeling the way you do about certain things.

@Razard86 I hear you, no need to yell in my face Also, did you just say 'google it' ?? Dude, chill down, I know it might seem as if you've discovered fire, but it's just a phase. You'll grow out of it. Absolute solipsism... more like absolute belief... or absolute delusion lol.

It's just a funny way of putting it... 'Absolute Solipsism'... Sounds kinda lame lol. But also, it's misleading and potentially dangerous for seekers, as most spiritual pointers and guidelines - turns out. It's all work of 'the ego' - very much so. That's why it can fuck you up badly.

I wanna join the gang too!

Here's another attempt to eliminate all that spiritual woo woo nonsense and get straight to 'the point': You are consciousness. Better yet, there is consciousness. Before, or prior, to anything else. Prior to any thought, prior to any feeling or sensation, prior to any belief, prior to perception, prior to experience. Prior to everything there is consciousness. The true nature. Actuality. The Absolute. And saying 'prior' is not exactly accurate, because it all exists simultaneously. Nevertheless, consciousness is the very source of it all. There is nothing beyond or outside of it. It is everything and nothing at once. Of course, entertaining these thoughts or even attaining an understanding of it all, does not equal being directly conscious of 'it'. Of Source, of The Absolute... You become 'more conscious' by recognizing yourself as consciousness before all else and then practice staying in that light. Not letting yourself getting lost in thoughts, emotions and experiences... but staying 'above it all'. Holding space for it all to unfold - so to speak. You 'expand' or 'maximize' awareness by first becoming aware that you are aware. That you are conscious(ness). And then you stay there. You concentrate (on) awareness. Until awareness is all there is and 'all else' is seen as merely an extension of that awareness. There are various methods, practices and techniques to 'get there', of course. What ways and methods you choose is up to you. There is only one true path in life; the road that leads to One, leads to all. Simple as that.

The blue ones, with yellow stripes and green leaves. Not to be confused with the ones with pink stripes... Those are poisonous and can easily cost you your life.

Ever feel this way? It's been quite a few years now since I went down this rabbit hole, and it wasn't a walk in a park. There is just so much work to do... I've been putting myself under a microscope for too long. Dissecting and studying myself, breaking and dissolving things, reverse engineering, etc... My mind is constantly analysing itself in the background, trying to recognize certain patterns, alter or replace them... I over analyse my surroundings too. It can get quite exhausting. I won't go into Self - realization here, since it's not the right sub, but combine that with personal development and there is really nothing but The Self left to be interested in. You are building yourself up but also, simultaneously you're transcending yourself. It's a weird spot to be in. It's fun, scary and everything in between. Anyways, my concern is, that my head is kind of too far up my own ass. I am so hyper focused on myself and my journey, that I can barely think of anything 'outside of myself' - if you will. It's tricky to talk about it, because, again, Self - realization, and there is nothing but the Self... but I think some of you get what I mean here. I don't want to turn into a narcissistic piece of shit lol.

Cleaver got me this far, then tricky got me in I am what I'm after, I don't need another friend

I don't know you. I don't know your past. Don't know your destiny. But I do know what you represent in my life. I know why you are here. It's no accident. Please, carry on. Do what you're here to do. Do what you must do. What you're bound to do. Finish what you started. I will play my part. I have no other choice. I'm done trying to avoid the pain. It's inevitable. I foresee the dark ahead, if I stay...

I see where you're coming from, but it's not fully true. It does not necessarily indicate weakness. It can be done out of respect, wisdom and love. And that requires strength. When you truly wake up, it is perfectly clear that there is the will of God and that's what you're serving. Even though it's all One, or 'you'. It might seem like a duality, but it's really not. It's Oneness. You want to do one thing, your boss orders you to do another. You really wanna go somewhere and do something, but then nasty weather ruins your plans. You wanna have a blissful trip on LSD but things accidentally go sideways and you end up being thought a difficult lesson. Point is, you must know when to surrender. You cannot have absolute control of everything all the time. Even though you do. Lol.

Submitting to "another's will". Another's lead. Or if you wanna go deeper - God's will. Or even, Your Will (just not lower case "your" will) You serve The One and nothing but the One. And The One serves you. It might be disguised as "another" or it might not. Point is, you must know how to serve the Will of God, even though it is all Your Will, ultimately. You will be put in situations where you will have to "put yourself aside". Even though, in actuality, there is no such thing as sacrificing yourself, or putting yourself aside. Very cleaver game this is.

You have to be cleaver and courageous enough to take control and lead, but also humble and compassionate enough to submit and serve - when that's what's needed. Life requires you to play both roles. You must be conscious and intelligent enough to know how and when to play which role. My two cents @NoSelfSelf

Do you run away from it? Do you cope with it somehow? Do you channel it? Do you integrate it? What do you do with it? Are you ignoring it? Pretending that it doesn't exist, until one day it takes control and riuns your life? Do you acknowledge, understand and respect its place in the universe? Its place in you? Are you mature enough to handle the darkness in you? Are you wise enough to know how to transform it? How do you handle the darkness, when it arises? ...Me? I like brutal death metal

Fear is never gone from your soul That saw humiliation Being prey to the blackest of demons Paralyzed you fail Fallen beneath The mark of dignity You fail A demon passed on from one To the next infiltrates A mind innocent and pure Planting the seed to possess Another soul that is doomed to fail Only ash remains

Correct answer. Everyone else, thank you for your participation.

- "If we fail it's going to be because of our stubbornness." - "Because of our differences..." - "No. Our differences could be a great thing, if we were open - minded and courageous enough. We're just too proud and too stubborn. Too afraid."

Another death, another rebirth. It was close this time. I know we nearly parted ways for good. But the attraction is still too strong. It's clearly not the smartest idea to persist, but neither one of us seems to be ready to let go. I want you and nothing but you, and simultaneously, I want nothing to do with you, ever again. Sometimes I fantasize about completely forgetting about you, and it makes me feel better. It's just the truth. I'm so grateful you're here, keeping me company, giving me pleasure, joy and love... And I also wish you never crossed my path.

Thanks guys. I see it as a temporary thing. A phase. I know I must go through this, and hopefully things will balance each other out somewhere down the line. I'd say it's just about that. Balance. It's good to have a strong sense of self and be deeply committed to your journey, but it's not good to completely disconnect from the rest of the world, or worse, walk all over everyone to get what you want. Some of the highest and purest realizations can get in your head and completely screw you up, if you're not cautious and mature enough.

@Kuba Powiertowski Love those quotes, thanks. All the best. @Moksha Beautifully put. Thank you.

How do you know you're doing the work the right way? Well, it sucks ass. It hurts as hell. That's how. It sucks, it's painful and crazy, but it's also the best thing that could have ever happened to you. It's beyond your wildest imagination. It's rewarding beyond words. It's more than you could have ever asked for. It's ineffable. But it's also the most challenging thing you've ever done. It's so complex. So deep. All-encompassing. It demands absolute commitment. In fact, you have no other choice. You must go down this path. You chose it and it chose you. It cannot be stopped. And you cannot take a break. It's forever ongoing. It is as personal as it gets and simultaneously has nothing to do with you as a person, at all. It's all about you and not about you at all. You are carrying the weight of the world on your shoulders, and you are doing it for yourself and for everyone else, too. You will suffer. Rocks will be thrown at you. People will spit in your face in stab you in the back. You will be hurt, betrayed and utterly devastated. You will be brought down to your knees, repeatedly. What you love will be taken away from you, with no warning. You will feel the pain of loss and failure. In your darkest hour, when you need someone the most, there will be no one around. Not a single soul. You are walking this path all alone. It is literally the highest calling. And it's not going to be a walk in a park. Nothing will hurt as much as witnessing your own death. Watching yourself holding on for dear life, terrified of letting go and forever dissolving into nothingness. You will try to save yourself. Even though it is that very same self that blinded you and kept you away from The Truth... you will want to be by its side while its dying. It is the biggest heartbreak in existence. And it is inevitable. 'Gripping to the last touch of your hand I grow to loathe...' You will be broken over and over again, until nothing but the Truth remains. Humbled over and over again. Reduced to nothing. And then elevated again. If you think you're going to avoid pain and suffering... you have no idea what you're up for. At some point, you will learn how to transform the darkness. You will master your being. The universe. Yourself. But nothing will ever be excluded. Nothing will ever seize to exist. Everything always is. Forever. It's up to you to handle and balance it all. And that is a long journey. It won't happen over night. Even after realizing the highest Truth there is, it will take a long time before you adjust and learn how to walk that Truth. How to be it, in every moment of this life. No, there is no time and no journey, and yes, time is one of your best friends and you absolutely must go through numerous processes in order to ground this realization into reality. There will be a lot of undoing. A lot of unlearning. Unpacking and dismantling. Dissolving and disintegrating. It goes both ways. And you must know how to play both sides, so to speak. You have to know how to handle both erosion and rebirth. You have to know when and how to take control and when and how to surrender. Only one of us has to do it right. And it can only be you. No one else can do it for you. You are the way.

@Squeekytoy ❤ @Water by the River Very cool input, many thanks. Oh how many times have I wished for a mentor haha! And in a sense, I do have 'guides' who showed up here and there and pointed towards the right direction. Leo is one of them, I'd say. But at some point it seems as if it must be so that all guides, masters and mentors disappear and you're left all alone. You must learn how to guide yourself. I do believe that methods and techniques can work, but I'm also strongly against anything that's promoted as a 'one size fits all'. I think each and every one of us has a completely unique journey. Certainly there are some similarities and certain guidelines and maps can come in handy, but ultimately I think the most direct way is your way. Life is already doing everything to wake you up. If you tune into that and follow it, it will show you all the how's and when's, right on time. Will check the vid, thanks again. All the best.

Angels on the sideline Baffled and confused Father blessed them all with reason And this is what they choose

I'm just pretending to be humble. Yeah... the 'me too' phenomenon. Yeah, and 'the mind' can unknowingly take those words and build beliefs in the background, so to speak, that later on end up fucking you up. If you are God, you don't have to believe that you are God in order to be God. Belief is always in the way of 'the Absolute'. No matter what belief it is.