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The Breath Of Fire Love that shit. Other than that, just experiment. Play around with your breath. Hold it. Give it up. Experiment with different rates and depths. You'd be surprised how far breathing can take you.

Blasphemy!

@Someone here Yes. I do not agree it is about realizing that you don't know anything, etc. That is only a facet of awakening - if anything.

Both play their role. One should not be put above the other, imo. Use the mind for what it's meant to do and intuition for what it's meant to do. You wouldn't say: 'listening to an audio book is a faster way of processing information than reading words in a book, so I don't really need my sight, just my hearing.' It's just about learning to utilize things properly. And intuition is still kind of a mysterious thing to us, so we have to be careful and patient. I would say it is a form of a higher intelligence, yes, but is easily confused with other voices that are speaking to you. If you still carry a lot of baggage with you, chances are you won't hear your intuition very clearly, or at all. It becomes clearer and louder after you've already done some significant work on yourself.

Yeah, no... I may not know what it is, but I know what it isn't

Why are smart people so damn stupid? I hung out with hardcore intellectuals a few times in my life, and they are super annoying. Surprisingly close-minded and stubborn AF. Like stupid stubborn. Beyond rationality. I thought about it being just me, but I highly doubt it. I think I'm not the only one who noticed this and is repulsed by it. My guess is that they're perhaps more cognitively developed, but are completely disconnected from feeling and severely lack emotional intelligence/maturity. They are usually very good at learning, they're great scholars, etc. But they're shit in their relationships - for example, have no strong ethical and moral values, no integrity, compassion, kindness, lack authenticity, etc... All they're good at is gobbling up information and then throwing it back up in somebody's face and arguing about those ideas with whomever opposes them. They usually have no original thoughts and opinions, instead they're quoting things they read or heard somewhere. 'Evidence' and 'research' and 'facts' are their favourite words. Even though it's all bullshit. They spent zero time verifying these truths for themselves. They simply adopted it all, blindly. They have no sense of a personal, let alone universal truth. And more often than not, no purpose either. And what's even worse: no interest in any of that. I am generalizing here, of course. I'm sure there are many exceptions. But generally, these are my observations/experience. To be honest, I could read a book or two more. I could memorize a thing or two about that country, or that politician, that war, that leader or whatever. I do feel like I'm lacking a bit in that area, and that might be why I'm that much more triggered by this kind of folks. But I'd say that's not the only reason why. 'Smart people' are just stupid. Change my mind.

@Revolutionary Think Good point, thank you. Apologies to anyone who found themselves in my words and felt insulted. I am a bit triggered and I do hold a grudge or two, but my intention is not to harm anybody. I just felt like expressing a thought or two, in a more heated manner. Sometimes that's alright too.

Ime, most women love it. But yes, you should keep it nice and neat. I have a lot of chest hair and I definitely need to maintain things, otherwise it kind of becomes distasteful. I look super weird with no chest hair though. So I'd say if you have it and it looks good on you, wear it with pride. Just keep it nice and tamed.

Leo started it... With his "nobody is as awake as me" statements. Even if that was true, the wokeness in you would never say it out loud. Something else would though. And that we all have in common. Unworthiness.

Sometimes, definitely, yes. Not this time though. I don't think I'm being all that woke in this thread.

I dance alone

To be honest, there's not many people that I genuinely like these days, so no surprise I don't vibe with intellectuals eithers. Is there something truly off in the background or is it all perfectly fine..? I don't know. I just don't like being around them. I cannot be truly impressed by anything they have to say or show. I am impressed by innovation, creativity, originality, etc. I do not need a human encyclopaedia as a friend. I have google for that. I value friendships that emphasize other things. Perhaps that is why my friends are so few. Point is, if you pride yourself to be an intellectual or a smart individual (as smart people usually do) - you need to know that you're not that big of a deal. You read some stuff, you studied some stuff and now what? Nothing. You built nothing. You created nothing. You set no change in motion. You have no idea who or what you are and what the fuck you want to do with yourself. So you keep studying bullshit. Building your entire identity around words that others put in your mouth. It's how you attempt to prove your worth. And perhaps that's ok too. It's not like I don't have my ways of trying to feel worthy of life. We all do it. We all feel like we have to do god knows what to earn the love that we crave. It's not even that you "know a lot of stuff" that pisses me off.. It's that you think that you're smarter and better than everyone else. 9 out of 10 times. You all know this individual, I'm sure. You can tell they're trying so damn hard to be the smartest one in the room. Usually they're the loudest one too. Wait a minute... That's it guys! I think I cracked i! Them trying so damn hard to prove that they're smart is what's making them appear so stupid and annoying. Of course! I am so damn intelligent!

Suffer through it. That's kind of the whole point of it. Feel the cravings, the frustration, the desperation... Experience it all fully. The cycle is usually broken unexpectedly, by an individual you cannot say 'no' to. The attraction is just that strong. You should not be looking to end your period of 'celibacy'. Let it happen on its own. Let what you need come to you. Last time I took a break it wasn't a walk in a park... but wow the benefits.

I do not necessarily believe in there being this thing called 'ego', but let's say there is some reality to it... what if it was never in your way? What if it's supposed to be where it is, as it is, doing what it's doing best? What if I told you that it is absolutely necessary for you to have 'an ego' in order to come to know yourself? To relate to yourself and/or others? 'Ego' is like an extension. A tool that enables you to interact with reality. With yourself. It is as it is by God's design. Born out of the same infinitely intelligent source - as all else. I know many people have many definitions about what ego is or isn't, is it real or an illusion, etc. As said, I don't really believe in it. I don't necessarily believe in personalities, either. In my conscious experience, there is only thought, feeling and perception. There is a thought of an ego... or you. There is a sensation of there being a you (usually located in the abdominal area), there can be a perception of a you or an I... But in actuality, there is no ego. No self. HOWEVER. You absolutely need 'an ego' in order to function in this reality. If someone tells you they don't have one - they're full of shit and indeed have an enormous ego. If you like, you can look at ego in this instance as a cocktail of thoughts, feelings and perceptions. And you cannot function without those. You wouldn't be able to tell left from right, stand up straight and walk, you wouldn't understand language, nothing... You would simply not be there. I know this and can claim it with such confidence because I went beyond, numerous times. I killed myself a few times - if you wanna put it that way. I know what's beyond, because I wasn't there - if that makes any sense to you. I disappeared and then I reappeared. That's how I know the unknowable. So... what if you could use this tool called 'ego' to create amazing things? What if you could perfect it and sharpen it? Make it so that it's a perfect reflection of God? Make it so that it's as close to God in its nature as possible? What if you were to make it barely noticable? As if it's not even there? As if there is no tool... just God doing its magic? Think about it.... You were not sent here from Heaven to get rid of a bunch of garbage - including your ego. You are here to experience yourself. To transform. To forever keep expanding into yourself. What's meant to go will fall off on its own... No need to forcefully cut out anything. Learn how to use the tool before you begin to demonize it and try to banish it out of town. Utilize it. Make the best out of it. Make it nice and shiny, true and unique. Love the shit out of it. Don't be afraid to be you. You won't lose your enlightened mints if you respond to your birth name or something... It's ok to be you.

@SOUL I see you're a step ahead of me

@SOUL Yes, I like how that sounds. Kinda sci-fi, but not untrue.

Here's the simplest way I can put it - just so that those reading understand what ego is in my eyes: Ego is that which makes it seem as if there are two (or many) instead of One.

Ego is that which preaches about God. Ego is that which helps others and guides them towards the Light. Ego is not just that corrupt politician or that neurotic guru or whatever else. It's not all dark and unconscious. 'A transformed ego' is of service to Oneness. It knows its place. It does not try hard to be anything more than it is. It is humble and grounded. It does not try to play God. Even though it understands it is ultimately (of) God. Not separate, but One.

@Breakingthewall I see your point, and I do agree with some of what you said, but not entirely. It almost comes of as some sort of a conspiracy theory. Our definitions of 'an ego' differ, yes... What I'm basically saying is that you need ego in order to know God. God needs ego to know God. Also, any social interaction would be impossible without it. It cannot be fully dissolved. That's fantasy. You can transcend it completely and become nothing - so to spea - but as long as you want to walk this earth and accomplish things here, you will end up coming back to ego. Adjusting, improving, stabilizing, etc.

@gettoefl Ego development, yes. @thierry Nice, thanks. @Breakingthewall I find that to be only one side of the coin. It's incomplete. Not the whole truth.

You know, at some point while reading your posts I thought to myself "maybe this guy actually has some wisdom to offer, it's just a bit distorted..." but no. Now I'm pretty sure it's all just mostly bullshit and delusion. I cannot take you seriously, sorry. Best if we ignore each other.

Some of the highest realizations you can possibly have can do more harm than good to you and others, if you're not cautious. You must integrate the realization, let it sink in, and then eventually let it go. If you cling to it, it will become nasty. Most of you are lost in beliefs and ideas, thinking that you have figured it all out. You are trapped and don't even know it. I can tell because I freed myself from these traps numerous times. I still have to do it, from time to time. If you are on this path, you are going to fall into these traps, sooner or later. It's inevitable. You are all so busy defending your ideas, that you fail to see that they are just that. Ideas. Or, thoughts - if you will. No matter how 'high' they might seem. Because guess what..? I am God - is a thought I am not God - is also a thought You are everything - is a thought You are all alone - is a thought All is one - is a thought And so on... Whatever you say here or elsewhere, is a thought. An idea. It's not actuality. Actuality is unspeakable. Not doable. It cannot be felt or seen. That would imply duality, which is not Truth. Truth only is. It is being. It is breathing. It is pure presence. Not the idea of all those, but actuality. All of those fancy realizations can ruin your life very fast if you're not mature enough to handle them. You could easily end up in a mental institution, hurt someone, or try to jump of a balcony to prove to everyone that you are God and you cannot die - like I tried to do once while high on psychedelics, in the early stages of my awakening lol. But even if you don't go that far, you might end up just becoming a shit person. Acting all enlightened and whatnot and then turning into a six year old and throwing a tantrum when someone triggers you a little bit. All because you believe you are God, or a hyper conscious alien squirrel, a wizard, a unicorn, or whatever else that's stuck in your head. Let all that go. Be what you claim you've realized yourself to be and stop screaming about it in everyone's face. What if I told you that you can just simply be, without having to think about or believe in who or what you are? (don't) think about it... You might just awaken.

Funny... Whatever I ask it is answered right away.

@Moksha Very poetic. Love it, thanks. @Razard86 Yes, that's pretty much the kind of thought processing that I'm trying to point towards. Thank you for demonstrating. I think thinking in similar ways can be dangerous. For yourself and others. It does not necessarily have to be, but the chances are high. Hence this thread. Take it as a friendly warning - if you will. What I'm saying here is not really fear-based. It's just about caution and awareness. Seriousness. The right kind of approach and mindset - when it comes to doing this work. Besides, fear is not necessarily a bad thing. It serves a purpose. It often stops you from doing stupid shit. It saved your life, more times than you know it. Don't be too quick to deny your humanity, just because you've had an insight or two. It could bite you in the ass, in ways you now cannot foresee. @Javfly33 Thanks man. I see value in this place. Hopefully we all level up eventually and new cool, highly conscious folks join us too.

@Water by the River Like how you put that. Thank you.