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It's simple. Are there two or more? It's relative. Is there only one? It's absolute.

Just admit it. Admit it to yourself, admit it to everyone else. Accept it. Own it. You are selfish and you cannot go around it. It all comes back to you. It's always about you. Everything is. All the time. Even when you make it seem as if it's about something or someone else, it's still about you. Especially then. If you look deep enough and you're honest enough, you'll realize it's all about you. You might wish only the best for others, you might care deeply for them, you might want to help them or guide them... but don't you fool yourself thinking that's a completely selfless act. Thinking you're not involved in any way. Thinking you're doing this solely for them. They are helping you as much as you're helping them. They're helping you to fulfill your desire of helping others, they're giving you an opportunity to step into that role of a hero, a saviour, that you most like really wanna play, underneath it all. You like the position that puts you in, don't you? It's incredibly selfish. You know it is. And that's just one example of course. You think Jesus wasn't selfish when he sacrificed himself? You think allowing yourself to be nailed to the cross is a completely selfless act? You think there was no doubt running through Jesus's mind when he was bleeding out on that cross? Jesus didn't say: "Thank God there's no self here!Thank god it's all just an illusion!" Lol. No. Jesus said "Father, why have you forsaken me?" He was in agony. Believe me there was a self intact, very much so. A self with an agenda. With values, beliefs, ideas and all that jazz. You think Buddha was completely selfless while jerking off under that tree? You think Leo is completely selfless and he loves you so much and cares about your awakening? You think any of this has to do with anyone else but Leo? Haha. Fool. No one gives a fuck. Not even God. Not even you. You don't really give a fuck. No matter how hard you try to convince yourself and everyone else... you simply don't care about anything else but yourself. And yes, it is all The Self. It is all You. But let's not kid anyone... that's not where you are at. You do not really care about The Big Self. You only care about your limited little self, your precious imaginary identity that you guard so well, your name, your pride. Even if, especially if it's an identity painted with spiritual colours. It's ok. It might really seem as if you're completely alone, and yes, you are, but trust me, you're also not. Every other petty little self cares only about itself. Nothing special about you there. The moment you admit that, you become significantly less full of shit. Ironically, you become kinder and more generous. Because now you're not lying to yourself anymore. You're not lying to yourself that it's about anyone else but you. How's that for an awakening?

I'm raising my third eye brow

A rock is no more or less conscious(ness) than you are. It is all conscious(ness). There is no such thing as 'inanimate objects' or 'living, sentient beings'... It's all just one thing. Not dead, not alive. Just conscious. But yeah, I'd choose being a rock over an ordinary little human, any time. ...A rockstar, that is

I feel you. Here's a fun way to look at it: God is dumbing itself down and pretending to be a bunch of ignorant fools around you, only to test you, to challenge you, to bring out the best out of you. You can either give in and become dumb yourself, or you can transcend the entire thing. Yourself included.

Maybe give up the belief in there being 'a paradigm' ? I am assuming that you are getting lost in your senses. Perception. And that might be 'in your way'. It is easy to confuse your vision - for example - for that which is observing. The observer is prior to anything you perceive. Any form, colour, sound, smell, etc. It is prior to your 'human senses'. I suggest you drop the belief in paradigms and human senses and try to go beyond perception. Beyond mirroring, beyond reflection. Being. Isness. Consciousness, without being conscious of any 'thing'. From there you can go anywhere really.

If you care, you care because of your values, your ethics and morals, your beliefs, etc. And that's the part that's selfish. It's sneaky and it goes unnoticed, but it's there. If you had other values, beliefs, etc, you would be selfish in some other way. Your intentions might be good. I'm not questioning that. I'm just saying you're doing it all for yourself, even if it might seem as if it's for others. You just don't understand yourself enough yet to see this clearly. And I'm not even going into "there is no other" territory. I'm just saying, very often we try to help ourselves through others. By seemingly helping them. Often we want to achieve great change, somewhere out there, when really, what we want and need is a change within ourselves. I'm also not pulling the "you're projecting your issues onto the world" card, but yes, yes you are. Big time.

Just to be clear... I am not trying to promote assholness, chaos and mayhem. I'm not saying you should go and step over everyone and everything to fulfil your selfish agendas. No. Be respectful. Be decent. Don't get nasty unless there is no other way out. Just don't bullshit yourself. Don't lie to yourself about your motives. That's the message.

You can take bits and pieces from literally anyone you come across and build your own unique thing. Tate is no exception. There is definitely something you can pick up from him. But there's also a lot of bullshit you could end up eating. Same goes for Leo or Jesus Christ. Especially Jesus. Be careful which ideas you adopt and let yourself be driven by . You might fuck yourself up.

No matter what you're seeking, you're always just looking for yourself. Pretty obvious and straightforward, still, I like to play the game. To this day I still chase my own tail, no shame in that lol.

Heavily distorted, albeit legit insight. True, but not the entire Truth. Be careful. You are on dangerous territory.

I was joking And yes, agreed.

I cannot disagree. Well put together. Obviously, this place is heaven for some and hell for others. I kinda like playing with fire, from time to time, so here we are. If I don't take things too seriously it's all fun and cool. I just do my thing and laugh at the foolishness around me. But if I take things to heart and actually start caring about where all this is headed... well, then I wanna warn everybody that they're going to end up burning themselves bad and suggest they turn around while it's not too late. I do think Leo has had mystical experiences and awakenings and all that. Those are most likely legit. But the way he's packaging it all and advertising it is twisted. He's behaviour on the forum is questionable too. Not very worthy of admiration, in my eyes. Who knows, maybe Leo is doing some kind of a backwards teaching type of thing. Negative motivation, inverse inspiration or whatever. Where he does and becomes exactly that which you should not. Where he shows you exactly how it looks like if you fall into some of the nastiest traps on this path. Where he shows you precisely what awakening is not. Where he shows you how to put yourself back to sleep, thinking you're wide awake. Maybe that's what's going on. Maybe it's actually all a very well thought out act. Maybe it's all genuinely stupid. Or maybe I'm the one who's not awake enough to comprehend these super advanced hyper woke teachings. Those who subscribe to them are doing a great job at convincing me that they are idiots. If that's intentional, deliberate and on purpose... good job. You fooled me. Maybe you are all indeed enlightened alien masters and I'm simply confusing your brilliance for stupidity. If so, apologies, my bad. If this is the highest example, the purest frequency, the end all be all... well then I have a long, long way to go.

Absolutely. Part of the reason why I don't actually wanna heal lol.

No. It's not possible. Not because you're a guy, or not attractive enough or whatever, but because unconditional love exists only as singularity. If there are two that are in a relationship, there are inevitably going to be terms and conditions. Expectations. Standards. Values. Etc. That is far from "unconditional". Which doesn't mean that "romantic love" cannot be pure, beautiful and strong... But true, unconditional love knows no other. No relation between this and that. It is one. It is whole.

From what I've heard and read so far, upgrading to a crystalline light body is the very next step in human evolution. Supposedly, we are slowly but surely moving from a carbon based species to silicon based species. The atomic structure of our human being is becoming crystalline. It is chancing our very DNA structure. By being a vessel that's capable of hosting this "crystalline consciousness", the light of that divinity changes you from the inside out. At least from what I understand so far. New age woo woo nonsense? Maybe. Entirely possible. But it all strikes a bit different if you experienced shit like I did. Same thing as with seeing a ghost, or being abducted by aliens or whatever. Until it happens to you, it's all just airy fairy bullshit. I am absolutely sure there is something to this. I am also sure that my "experiences" are valid. True and real. But is it all as the internet says it is? Does google really know what "crystalline consciousness" is? Well, that I am a bit sceptical about. Quite a bit, actually. It could be said that I'm not taking it seriously at all. It's more entertaining than anything else. It's far from what I would consider to be juicy, mind - blowing, life - changing information. Not that anybody really cares, but there... That's what I've got so far on the matter.

There is not much information out there on this. At least I wasn't able to find anything substantial. During one of my most intense awakenings I 'experienced' something called 'crystalline consciousness'. Being 100% awake in that moment, of course I immediately knew what it was all about. But speaking from my current limited state of mind and awareness, I cannot say I know too much about it. I cannot really say it was an experience either. Because there was no time, no space, no thoughts, no feelings, etc. And you need all those in order to have an experience. It was just pure crystalline consciousness. Imagine all of reality being frozen in time. Imagine NOW being an infinite crystal. Every single possibility is already manifested, parallel to one-another. And it all just stands still. Illuminated but not animated. Form and formlessness are one and the same. That is one of the pointers I have. But there is so much more to it. I just cannot really find the words, in this moment. It's so out there it's really hard to talk about it. Curious if anyone here has any knowledge on this. Maybe @Leo Gura can say a thing or two, since he's very experienced with psychedelics. Pure, absolute, divine crystalline consciousness. What is it? And why is it so super rare to experience?

@Leo Gura Yes! I feel like we're getting closer to it now. 'Forms' or maybe 'densities' of consciousness. Crystalline is one of them. That liquid lucidity thing Nahm mentioned is another. All of this happens long after your typical little enlightenment or whatever. The mind is long forgotten - so to speak. Identity? Haha. Please. It's a joke. There is none of that in pure consciousness. There is just infinitely free and intelligent consciousness and it can become all sorts of weird shit. Non physical, non material shit.

It starts by you remembering the future, as funny as it sounds. In real time, as everything is unfolding. You simply are aware of everything that's about to happen. It's the strangest thing. So hard to explain. Instead of experiencing the unfolding of the present moment, something switches and you are remembering what's unfolding, in real time. Fully, in your direct conscious experience. Not in your silly little thoughts, of course. And then it gets even crazier. Even more sci fi. Sowly but surely everything freezes in time. Quite literally. It's just like pressing pause on all of reality. Nothing is dead or alive. It just is. Frozen, still, illuminated and conscious, but not animated. There is literally no movement whatsoever. No sound, nothing... At some point I made peace with never reaching an understanding of what went down during that intense awakening... But I just keep coming back to it. It's so freaking fascinating. It's literally unbelievable.

@cetus Hmm... I'm not sure we're talking about the same 'thing'. I mean, yes to everything you said, I'm just not sure that's 'it'. Here's what Nahm had to say about my experience, a few years ago: 'Crystalline always comes to mind descriptively, also liquid lucidity. I don’t have knowledge on it, but it’s nice to relate. It’s insanely awesome that there is self awareness, and still a pure undeluded untouchable mystery. It feels ultra rare to experience, and yet is home. It feels sacred, yet it is the lowest common denominator.' I resonate with these words, yet I am not sure I'm fully grasping what's being said.

"To do" or "not do" are in actuality just thoughts. A duality that exists only if you think about it, or believe in it. What one would consider "doing" is actually just feeling and perceiving. And beyond: simply being (conscious). Within stillness I move...

Anything you turn into a belief becomes a limitation. And that's what all 'isms' are. Beliefs. Believing you're awake and actually being awake are two completely different things.

You can't be so goddamn awake that you think raping babies is fine, but being kind and respectful is just human bullshit and limitations. Because that's the mentality I see some of you starting to subscribe to here. It's so stupid it's painful to watch. This has been a sinking ship for a while now - if you ask me. I don't see it getting any better. If I am allowed to stay, I will do so strictly for my own benefits. My own development. I will probably oppose most of what's being said here. I simply cannot agree with these ideas. I cannot not see the hell they lead to, if you indeed subscribe to them. Feel free to walk into the fire without me. I'm walking the other way, don't mind me. Just letting you know that you're gonna burn. Yes all is nothing and there is no right and wrong and it's all just human bullshit and so on. And no, some lines should not be crossed. You cannot be too awake to make common sense. Too awake to show any kind of decency. Coherence. You cannot be so awake that you go completely retarded. If you think you can, it's already too late for you and I suggest you seek help. Seriously. Stop making a mockery out of awakening, consciousness, Truth and all this work. You are swimming in shit thinking it's gold. And as long as you follow "a leader", shit is most likely what you're gonna end up in.

An energy born in dissonance Long before first ever star

There are no D's, lol. No 3D, no 7D, no 23D. It's all very much D-less. Infinitely so.