ivankiss

You might think these are just some random old lyrics and some outdated music, but oh no, it's so much more than that. These are light frequencies; timeless codes that activate your pineal gland and guide you through specific awakenings at a specific, predetermined point on your journey. Bro. I placed it all carefully, deliberately and on purpose, just for you.

Inexhaustible The strength of fire Is running through me Spine like beam of light What mortal could ever Break this force Unconstrained I see at last My backbone straighten Thy serpent made of bones Finally rise up From the ground awaken Beat your feet On the ground now, go!

Indestructible On this rock I lie But I'm alive for good And I just free myself now From all what was wrong Break the unbreakable All the stars Fearlessly bright They call me out there Order me to face the wind My structure's alive, My body's on the way Don't bow down Before the walls Of fear and madness They try to counter me And strike me down To the ground again

What Buddhist crap.

The cosmic joke of course being, that there is no me or you in actuality. And no cosmic joke either! It's hilarious!

I know you better than you think, btw. From 'OMG WHO IS THAT GUY' to 'DUDE PLEASE STOP' ... I've read all your unspoken thoughts. I know how you all breathe.

I look back at these 7-8 months, and I almost cannot belive I survived all that shit. But actually, deep down I always knew I had it in me. And that brings a smile to my face. Please forgive me for not letting you see the whole picture yet. It would work against me now. But it's coming, be sure of it. All the juicy details of this story will be out there, sooner or later. It will all make perfect sense... However, I still must warn you. You might have some difficulty with picking up your jaw from the floor. Or your panties.

Still on top of things. Both my mom and my ex reached out right before my big level up, no surprise, of course. Handled it well. Working for the new company now. It's definitely better. A few minor changes I have to adjust to. Old habits must die. Basically, yes, working less for more money. But I have to be smarter and faster than before. All is well.

Jk I'm giving my best to find something to complain about and I can't. A little bit of loneliness kicking in these days maybe. I'm going deeper into solitude. But it's all good. Everything is as it should be.

It's peaceful and it's working. Of course it's boring.

I won't lie. This seems to be far less thrilling if I'm not fueled by anger.

At least 13 reasons to celebrate right now, but I'm saving myself for the real deal.

Every single time I had the opportunity to party here, I said no. Tonight is not an exception.

You are the self-made liberator You are the heart-wave generator From death into the new The I, I see in you You are the light accelerator Brother this is your dominion When will you embrace and love your kingdom?

You are the owner-operator You are the designated driver The captain and the crew The I, I see in you This is your world and you its master Brother this is your dominion When will you embrace and love your kingdom?

Oh and btw, thank you so very fucking much, from the bottom of my heart.

Everything is in place, I have 3 more off days ahead of me. Must make the most out of this.

I was away intentionally and on purpose for not 3, but 4 days. Just in case. Needed an extra day to integrate everything.

You are not bigger than anything, nothing is bigger than you.

I have every right and all the reasons to be proud of myself. And I won't lie, it feels fucking good. But that's not where this ends. A wounded ego is not a joke. Yet it is more often than not met with only more ridicule and hate. The guts turn upside down and the entire nervous system gets fucked. Healing is long and painful. But after standing back up on your feet, reclaiming your power and celebrating your victory... You must find space for forgiveness, humility, compassion... That is what brings you back to the center of your being.

From. Fucking. Nothing.

A little birdie just landed on my shoulder and told me that I'm about to receive a giant gift by the end of this week. Must humble myself a bit and stay in an open, receptive state and not fuck this up. Because it's truly a blessing.

For my grand finale, as a symbol of my victory, I am planning a short but glorious little concert, in the heart of Amsterdam, more precisely in Rijksmuseum. Don't worry, it will be documented. But shhh. This is our little secret. You know nothing.

Btw, I am simultaneously working on two, not one, but two breath takingly beautiful original pieces. While also learning Lacrimosa by Mozart. I'll throw you a short audio soon. I promise.

Polish friend insists on me coming back to the hostel. Says the Slovenian girl was asking about me, wants to see me. But I feel like it's more about him. Italian girl texted, we both couldn't make it yesterday, but it's all nice and cool. We will meet at some point for sure. If nothing else, I at least want to collaborate with her professionally. She's a great photographer. Like, really great. Kind of hit the pause on our conversation with my ex yesterday. I don't want this to become a standard now. We can't be in touch all the time. It would not have a positive affect on me. It would make me too soft. And that's just to name a few that are pulling on my strings right now. But don't worry, I'm not too bothered. I am at peace, I am in love. I am on point.