ivankiss

Wow look, someone gets it! And it's you, out of them all! One would think that. Can you choose breath over thought, right now? Can you do that... whenever, wherever? Exactly the same way you already do, right now. Stories are stories. Let them be stories. You are you. Be you. Be real. Nope. Just one, seemingly infinitely complex, messy and confusing thought. One. Fucking. Thought. All that's bugging you bro.

Are you? Let it sink in. You can try and lie to me, but you know very damn well you cannot lie to yourself. That voice never really goes away. It's always somewhere in the back of your mind. No matter how deeply buried and underneath how many layers... it's there. You cannot avoid this. You cannot avoid yourself. Why do you hide behind lies? Why do you fear to be real? As if... The world would end.

A LIE = A THOUGHT *deep breath*

Aww... don't get discouraged that fast. I mean no harm, seriously. I was trying to pull off some real - time wake up calls here, if anyone was to recognize the invitation - that is. But since food for thought is what this place and this world at large really values, I'll throw you all a couple of bones... In the beginning... there was Light. Consciousness. God. All there is, ever was and ever will be. And then... A word. And the word was a lie. And God bought into it. Because what else does it have to do anyways... it's freaking eternal. The lie is that there is something other than God. The lie is that there is something other than Light. The lie does not exist. By definition. That is its nature. There is only reality. Only God.

I'm an infinitely loving guy. I see an obvious clickbait, I lovingly click on it.

Or you're just playing dumb and not really paying attention? That is precisely what you do not need. DON'T THINK for like... at least... 3sec... if you can

You're lagging bruh.

Any definition is deception.

Lies.

If it came, it will go.

Facepalm with a chair.

Srsly

It's over 9000

She's hot But crazy

@Someone here It's a start. I put 20+ years of hardcore work into my life purpose, and I'm still nowhere nearly where I'd like to be. It's a life - long journey. Don't get discouraged by the lack of results in the beginning. All great things take time. Just keep going. 'The best time to plant a tree was 20 years ago. The second best time is now.'

Do what you would do regardless, no matter the outcome. This is where life - purpose / life - long mission comes into play. Do it for its own sake. Because you are absolutely in love with it and cannot imagine doing anything else. Sure, have plans and goals and all, but don't live for those. Live for what you love doing.

Judgement. You most likely judge 'others' to be less or not at all self - realized, enlightened, etc.

Noooo! I was out! I WAS OUT!!!

C'mon, let's be honest... Act.org is the real crack here

Hoping to avoid those, but yes, I get what you mean. Thanks.

It doesn't mean I do not feel heart - broken over this or any other separation that's yet to come... It doesn't mean I am closed off from any new connections... It doesn't mean I am cowardly hiding in my shell, afraid to step out, or let anyone in... It doesn't mean I am incapable of forming and nurturing long - lasting relationships. It's that I value those very deeply, and I know I can only afford a couple of truly good ones. The path that I walk does not allow me to be too close to many, it seems. At least not yet. Names of those who share a part of this journey with me are carved into my heart. Our time spent together, our shared experiences, thoughts and feelings, battles and lessons, are of the utmost significance to me. I cherish all those times deeply and honestly. And it is precisely because of this deeply rooted truth, this honesty, this authenticity... that I know I must move on. No matter how painful and devastating... I know I must cut the cords. I have no other choice. It is tragic, it is beautiful and everything in - between. I cannot lie... I feel like I need a reason to justify my ways; explain and clarify why I must go on alone... But it all comes down to this knowing inside. I just know I must go down this road. A road that I know all too well. It gets lonely, yes, it does. Don't let anyone lie to you that loneliness isn't real. It fucking is and its claws grip tightly. But it is a beast that can be tamed. It is bound to pass and disappear, sooner or later. As all else. All else... but me. Only I stay. Everything else is just passing by. I am my own. I stand alone.

Wanna hear a funny story? So, I have been dating this super hot Russian girl for the past year and a half, right... She's not 'awake' or into spirituality, personal development or anything like that. She's super smart and highly educated, but does not see past those limitations. It could be said that she's as hardcore stage orange as it gets. So yeah, our relationship was challenging - to say the least - as I'm sure you can imagine. Point is, we've been living together in the middle of nowhere all this time. She had her circle of friends (that I could not resonate less with) and I was more or less committed to hardcore isolation, working on my life purpose, etc. I rarely ever went out with her group... And then, a few days ago, out of nowhere... she comes home with this utter disbelief on her face and says to me that she met a girl who is just like me. She said she spoke about the same concepts, used similar words and phrases, described similar experiences, etc. It's as if she was listening to one of my nondual ramblings - she said. She was excited, intimidated, and more. I was surprised too - to say the least. An awakened being, somewhere here by, in the middle of nowhere? - I thought to myself. That's fucking epic. But also... who gives a shit. Never met the girl myself. Probably won't either. Don't feel at a loss.

Sounds great. We'll be in touch.

Where do you live? Of course. Yes, very well said. Of course. Had lots of and all kinds of friends, up until a few years ago when it all kind of cleared up on its own. 2-3 people remained... those are all 10-15+ yr old friendships. Strong and meaningful. But not too active. They are all spread around.

Right in the childhood! Feeling your sting down inside me, I'm not dying for it! I stand alone!