ivankiss

My chakras are all sparkly and aligned. I am just one kundalini awakening away from enlightenment level 9000.

This will be hilariously epic. I promise. I just need a short little power nap.

Coffee shop was yes.

@Applegarden8 Gives me strong Humanity's last breath vibes. I'd love to do something super nasty and heavy... Lemme settle in and shit first... Just checked into a hotel.

If I wasn't this enlightened, my neck and my back would be killing me right now.

Brussels. Almost there.

@Applegarden8 Heavy ass balls on that track brother! Love it! That collab definitely must go down at some point. @Yimpa ❤️

Pre - save on Spotify here: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/ivankiss/naked-and-transparent

Apparently, I also released an EP today, titled "Naked And Transparent". Soon available in all stores.

This is the new chapter. This is the new page. Time has come.

I have all the time I need to reflect on my relationship that just ended and deal with my broken heart.

It's a casual 15 hour drive. Because flying with instruments is too expensive.

Even just thinking of going to one makes me sick to my stomach. It's just a fucking awful place to be. Full of awful people. Usually blasting some of the world's shittiest music. And yes, I've been to plenty of all kinds of clubs and did all kinds of things, in my teens/20s. Had all kinds of fun and not fun. But fuck, right now, as I'm about to hit 30, it's the last thing I wanna do. Fuck that. No thanks. And I cannot help it, but if you're a party chick or a club guy... and you're not 19... I'm sorry, but I think less of you as a human being. And that's being polite.

Haha! This just became super obvious to me. Have you seen this? Have you experienced this? It's everywhere. No one truly wants to help nobody. Cuz that would make us all equal, eventually. And there's no fat juicy profit there. God damnit. The game is so rigged it's not even funny anymore. Tell you what though... feels so fucking good to peel off these remaining layers of illusion. Life is so much brighter without foolishly believing that people have your best interest in mind.

I wanna hear it all. Why do you think it's absolutely horrible and disgusting? Why do you think it's perfectly fine and chill? Where do you stand on this? Does gender matter? Does it play a significant role? Is it less cool if a dude jerks off into a camera? Is it more nasty if a chick eats some dude's shit for money or some holidays in Dubai? Is it cool to flirt with your manager to get promoted? How about sucking his dick? Where do you draw the line? Do you, at all?

Not a question, deliberately, on purpose.

@thurT You are very right. Big Matt Kahn fan, did not yet see the last few videos. Thank you.

Of course. Everyone is free to harm themselves or others. But must they?

An I walks into no bar, full of nobodies...

What if it's harming the one providing 'entertainment'? Knowingly or unknowingly.

@matoriii Confusion lives in thinking only. Take a breather, do simple joyful things. Things you love. Take care of your wellbeing, everything else will fall right into place.

Life is not a walk in a park. If you think it is, there's not much for us to talk about. You are simply way too blind, numbed out and in denial. Truth is... if you dare to stand for something in this crazy world, if you have a path, if you are walking your talk and staying true to yourself... you're going to be crossed. Tempted. Challenged. Betrayed. Fooled. Played. Hurt. All that jazz. It's inevitable. Unavoidable. Life is a game too complex and intricate and advanced for you to not get burned. It is anything but harmless. Anything but danger - free. It can get quite hostile and ruthless. Life devours itself to keep life going... it's usually not a pretty sight. The more you are blind and numb to this... the more you try to distract yourself from feeling everything that wants to be felt... the more defected and limited of a human being you become. Emotions are an important aspect of being. Incredibly important. And it should be quite obvious that at large, today in our modern society, thought is God. We are quite literally obsessed with thinking. We value ideas so fucking much, and we run away from feeling anything slightly uncomfortable. Society at large is at a stage of infancy on the scale of emotional intelligence. Most people are emotionally retarded. And that's not coming just from the accumulation of my personal frustrations and disappointments... it's just how it is. With or without me in the picture. You must dare to feel. Everything that arises within being. A step beyond that is understanding the emotion, knowing how to transform and/or channel it, create something out of it, use it as fuel, etc. The deeper you know emotion in all of its endless forms and colours, the more you know yourself. You become whole. You do not walk around half - crippled, completely cut off from half of your being. You let it all be and do its thing. You understand the intelligence behind it all. Just because you can ignore a feeling or distract yourself from it... it doesn't mean it seizes to exist. It will keep coming back, knocking on your door. And if you ignore it long enough, it's going to become this huge ball of raw nastiness and it's going to eat you from the inside out. Have balls. That's the first step. Have the balls to feel, in this dark, cold world that has renounced and forgotten its own humanity. You are not weak if you dare to let out a tear, or put on a smile... You are weak if you numb yourself out and hide in your head, like all the other neurotic monkeys. The world would be unrecognizable if feeling was of an equal importance as thinking. If both thought and feeling were fully understood and utilized. In fact, all the terror and all the atrocities happen because some people are emotionally retarded. Mentally too, don't get me wrong... But that's not the topic here. Be honest with yourself, if you can. For some people honesty is a luxary. Or a completely alien thing, even. You see how that can be a problem... there is no truth without honesty. You literally cannot be your true self if you are incapable of being honest. And you most likely can't feel much of anything, either. There's levels to emotional numbness and dumbness... where do you consider yourself to be at?

Can you say that you truly, honestly love something, someone? Is love known or is it foreign? Do you have access to it, right this moment?

How do you know that?