ivankiss

Of course I'm aiming for the absolute top now. What you think I'm gonna let all that pain and suffering be for nothing? Oh no. I'm not settling for anything less than what I know I deserve. The top.

If I don't become rich and famous this summer, I'm buying you all a drink. Wait... no, the other way around.

At the end of the day, it's all fantasy, all delusion. Nothing has ever happened, at all.

In spite of all this pain you've caused, you must know that you were special. Important. Wanted and needed. Appreciated. Admired. Loved. A lot of fucked up shit went down, and some of it is really hard to forgive, but your beauty and your light did not go unnoticed. I know you deeper than you think.

In case you are new here... I do nothing by the books.

Jk I'm not pissed.

When my name becomes tomorrow's news On top of the mountain I cannot be moved I scale the summit like an unstoppable force With iron wings I will prove my worth to you all I will be dancing on your grave You won't be laughing when I'm Soaring through the sky Free from your burden Say your last goodbyes I won't be back again

Flesh is all you offer.

Most are naked before I even undress them.

I faced God, I faced the devil, I faced death, I faced infinite love. I double dare you to look into my eyes.

It's good to know that most attack from behind. Cowards.

Apparently, every now and then, someone has to yell at you, for no reason at all, or worse, a stupid reason. It's ok. It's just something you'll have to learn to live with. Fuck those idiots.

Jk change is illusion.

Sometimes I can change the weather at will too.

Heh. I dreamed this city up. I designed it all from scratch, I kid you not. Years and years of careful orchestration in my mind. I am this place.

I'm still asleep. Still not alive.

We are so alike yet so fucking different.

I judge you as nasty and crazy and I am disgusted by your ways. But secretly, I envy you as well. Something in me also wants to be nasty and crazy. There is something disgusting in me too. No point hiding or denying it.

Jk there is no self.

I must kill the king. This arrogant, self absorbed, narcissistic, grandiose, self righteous and entitled pretentious fuck, that I have become.

This is but an echo of the same old bullshit, I promise. It will soon fade out. I must purge myself of this madness, once and for all. I must give it voice. I must give it time and space. A place to be.

One last push.

At the seething and fiery center He sits upon his ebon throne Within his halls of darkness Which no man has seen and survived the vision No creation without destruction No destruction without creation To unmake a thing is to make another Each time a thing is made another is destroyed Endlessly he devours his own substance For his hunger is insatiable As he consumes his own wastes After the custom of idiots As he creates, so he destroys

Then... Asia! Or something. Because fuck spending another winter here.

It's not as shallow as it sounds, I promise. But the general idea for this summer is... make money, get bigger muscles, grow bigger balls, make music and collaborate with other cool musicians... and occasionally rock some girl's world.