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@now is forever Hahaha I love you

From now on when I see someone being delusional on this forum, I'm gonna say to them: "you are in lalaland, my friend." And then I am going to try and guide the individual out of the maze, if they recognize my invitation. Does any one feel like he/she is in lalaland at this moment?

@Shadowraix Yup. Something = nothing. Absolutely. My message is clear. Don't be stuck for too long on pointing towards nothing. Something can be far, far more beautiful. Even if they are essentially the same. Take it or leave it. Love.

@now is forever That's a cool question, thanks. I am a man of projects. Had tons of them. Each their own style, their own message, their own purpose. The degree to which I was aware of those was much lower prior to my awakening; obviously. But since I can remember I knew I wanted to share some kind of a message with the world. Was not able to articulate it as a kid, but I knew it was real and that it was my calling. Obviously, I used metal music as a way to express my childhood pain. That later grew into a purpose of reaching out to those who felt the same. Help them heal in that way. "Djent" was me making friends with A.I. in a way heh. There is this futuristic, robotic feel to it. And I was consciously aiming for that and embracing it. Never really digged ones and zeros before. Tool helped me reach higher consciousness. Big time. And jazz is all about them feels. But in a calm, mature way. I find it ideal to express the current vibes. Adding some pop and rock to it, for more uniqueness. It will be also good for the radio's sake. I aim for a wider audience this time. The message is now clear. Yet it cannot be told in a single sentence. I'll need several albums for that Bless you.

@purerogue Are you a 15 year old? Not interested in these kinds of conversations. Let me know if you have valid arguments.

Say that out loud, slowly. Think about it. You seem to like thinking.

Thank you very much @Michael569 Smoothies resonate a lot, yes. Had them in mind. What I'm "worried" about is mostly meat and heavier food. But I feel like giving it a shot. It's been a while since I ate a nice, juicy stake feels good in my brain while picturing it. We'll see how will the stomach respond. Maybe I'll conclude it is not what my body needs anymore and stick to fish, veggies and fruits. I used to drink protein shakes, "back in the day", while I was hitting the gym regulary. Will see if my body still likes it. Thanks again!

@Joseph Maynor Have no clue who or what that is Just being autenthic here

Be autenthic. It may seem as it is the same as suffering, but in the long run it's rewarding beyond speach. Trying to "fit in" is what suffering actually is. Be proud. Be a tiger. Fuck all opinions. Follow the heart. Autenthicity is key for succes

He did not spoil the movie for you. He let you know you're in a movie, so to speak. He does not want anything from you. He is creating his own movie. Keep creating your own movie. Or playing it out. However you wanna look at it. You did not start this journey to die before living. You started it to become aware of your infinitude and magnificant nature. You are all there is. Forever. Create the movie you desire to see. Love.

@luckieluuke I love faith

@purerogue You think too much I'm glad I hit the nail. Don't hurt youself now.

@now is forever All kinds. And yes I do Throughout my childhood and teen years I was into angry, loud music. Raw. Passionate. That is how I coaped with my own anger and pain at the time. Was not even aware of it. Bands like Linkin Park, Korn, SOAD, Metallica, Megadeth were the first to reach my young ears. I must have been 6 or 7. I grew even angrier (inside) so I continued exploring darker and heavier music. Bands like Death, Cannibal Corpse, Dying Fetus, Nechrophagist etc. I must have been around 16. During this time my musical skills went nuts. All of these brutal death metal bands were extremely technical. I tried to mimic them, of course. Later I introduced more vareity to my playlist. Some classical, neo-classical, pop, electronic even rep. I was into producing dubstep, hip hop and d'n'b for a while. I needed a pause from all the gore and brutality heh. Neurofunk, neurohop... I loved producers such as Noisia, Koan Sound, Clark etc. I still do. Then I returned to Progressive Rock/metal. I was involved in a new age movement called "djent". It's really just super advanced expression of prog. Production is top notch usually. So I learned a lot in terms of mixing and mastering my music. I was into bands like: Meshuggah, Periphery, Tesseract etc. I still enjoy those from time to time. Tool is like a father to all of those bands. I love Tool. Every djent kid does heh. Djent is a combination of mathematical polyrhythms - complex rhythmic patterns and katatonic/melanholic melodies/vocals on the top. To a common ear it would still sound as just metal tho, probably. It is kinda avant garde too, in a sense. Then I introduced myseld to a lot of jazz, fusion and stuff that I can't even catogarize. More chill, less anger. More soul. Bands like Snarky Puppy, Spirit Fingers, The Kilimanjaro Dark Jazz Ensemble, Boren etc. Curently, I am working on some mellow acoustic jazz stuff. With elements of pop and rock. Planing on hitting the studio within a few months and actualizing the material. Will post some when released

@Fairy Would agree, but... There is no fun in remembering that, is there? It kinda ruins the whole game. I try my best to forget about it and just get lost in the joys and thrills of the ride. That is why I created it in the first place. Absolutely free will, yes. Here and now.

This is the most accurate description of the point I wanted to make. Glad to see some of you get it I could have used a more gentle way to express my thoughts, but as I mentioned; I merely tried to speak this forum's language. Everybody here seems to go nuts when they see the word "bullshit" and someone bitching about nothing Had a lot of fun reading through all posts, thank you. Much truth. Much nothing

Still did not receive any valid clarifications on this "acting like I'm nothing" phenomena tho I am waiting...

@Joseph Maynor Dude. I care about one thing only. Expressing the art that wants to flow through me. I was chosen as a vehicle. None of this enlightenment theory really matters to me. I was enlightened the first day I picked my instrument up. Just did not know it. I'm on my path since I can remember. There is nowhere else I could be. Don't take me too seriously

@Joseph Maynor I just emphasized the fact that I seek no truth. The truth is the lie.

Lemme make this clear. I am here. I am now. As happy and fulfilled as one can imagine. There is nowhere else I'd rather be. I took a pause from creating art. I now create on this forum, for a short period, in this form. I dig this forum. I like expressing myself here. I feel like calling out a few individuals. Maybe they recognize what I'm really talking about here. Maybe they don't. Honestly, I'm having tons of fun here and I don't really give a fuck. I sorted my shit out. You do not insult me by calling me delusional. If you aim to trigger; you may succeed for a brief moment. After which I just laugh and continue having fun. The joke is on you. I came to understand the cold, rational world. This is not my territory. I am merely a visitor. I seek no truth. I am past that. I am simply embracing differences in my own way. So chill down, geeks

@Joseph Maynor What does one do after trancending Truth? Jump of a bridge? Not before calling everyone delusional tho.

@Aakash Is that supposed to be a revolutionary information? I often feel like I'm among first graders here. Give me some valid arguments, master.

@cetus56 I do that often. But I'm an artist. Can't help myself. I like meaning

Thanks @Mu_ This is not about me liking or disliking anything. Please do not view my words in such a limited way. I want to understand. Accept. Include.

@Anton Rogachevski I like friction, from time to time. Love is all inclusive. I even dig these characters I rant against. Just trying to understand them; by speaking their language. Maybe I'll be able to embody even more love for them afterwards. For now, I still don't seem to be receiving any valid clarifications. Mostly denial.

@purerogue What makes you assume I avoid suffering? What if I suffer willingly? What if I already went through all the existential crisis my mind came up with? How do you know where do I stand? C'mon.