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@zeroISinfinity Later is also NOW

@zeroISinfinity what is a lie? No such thing. Laughing though

@zeroISinfinity Really. And unreally.

@zeroISinfinity Absolutely, yes. Experientially, no.

@Nahm The finite within the infinite. One no one.

@Aeris "all mostly illusion"? Give an example of exception, will ya? Thought is thought. Illusion is not thought, only. Thought thinking it's an illusion is thought being in control, still. That is the meat of my original statement. I like to listen to one song at a time. Hear clearly. C#ly.

@Aeris ≠ is sexier No self to become aware of. Not what I'm talkin bout. Cannot be compared to looking in the mirror. Especially not while you see yourself, or a mirror "reflecting back". Reflecting what? To whom? Purging is until nothing isn't. Only when nothing is; awareness is aware fully. And that has nothing to do with building. Only out of nothing can something happen. Cannot run on both win98 and 10. Must delete first. To truly accept death is to really die. Would go even further by saying; gotta be "physically" experiental, as well. Otherwise thought remains in charge. Comes faster than it goes. No matter how many times it dies. Concentration is also huge. But not as many view or understand it. Awareness concentrating awareness. That is how higher quality of nothing is. 240p ≠ 4K. But you can still watch the same movie. God I like that sign.

Not alive. Not dead. Conscious. No object is physical, really. In fact; no object is, at all.

@Jkris Let them pass through you. They will fade away, die; eventually. Resistance only makes them louder. Let thoughts be thoughts, only. Breathe.

@mandyjw That's beautiful. Thank you for sharing your story. Can resonate. I sense the possibility of something similar happening between me and my buddy. I'm sure the wheel will turn when least expected. Great set of advices, thanks again. I became aware of pretty much the same last night. Today; I was already walking the roads of Sri Lanka as a new guy. Open for all possibilities. I sense a great shift regarding the topic. Strangers smiling back at me more than usually was an instant confirmation. So grateful for being part of this collective. A true gem, this forum is. Much luv! @now is forever ???

Yup. Cannot deny. It is obvious to me that introspection is needed. I must inquire. Reorient. I am happy that I shed light on this aspect. Was neglecting it too much. Feeling great about the transformation now. Thanks for your assistance. I really appreciate it. ?

@now is forever Never said they're not nice. But I guess I was just too business oriented this year. Did not have an intention of making friends, at all. Sure you can meet cool peeps everywhere and establish good, surface level friendships. And that I did. But that's not what I am longing for. I am talking about deep, soul connections. Then again; intention. Willingness. Gotta open up for possibilities now. Sri Lanka is great tho. Minus the terrorist attacks that have been recently going down haha. We used to go around and feed stray dogs/cats often. Bonded strongly with a doggie while we were living in North Kaluthara. I named him Rocky. He used to follow me around everywhere. A great companion. It was love at first sight heh. Will always have a special place in my heart. Anyhow; our visit here is slowly coming to an end. Will see what the future holds.

@DrewNows Cool response. Thanks! There definitely is a misaligned belief. And I'm obviously not happy about not having friends. But I accept it. I role with it. Always have been. I guess I always looked at it as a necessary sacrifice that my mission/purpose required. Although it sounds really stupid now that I wrote it down. Even though it might have been true at some point. I always had this stupid sense, as if I was just "way out there" and nobody could really "follow my steps". Or be on the "same level" as I am. May come off as cocky and arrogant, but I didn't have that attitude at all, really. I was mainly sad about it and after a while I just stopped hoping. It's a weird inner contradiction. Goes quite deep; must dive in. Also had experiences of strong connections forming over night, mainly while I was living in Portugal. Met some really awesome peeps there. But all faded as soon as I moved on. I guess I was not ready to sustain and nurture those connections. Was focused on personal stuff. Dark night kicked in hard. Dunno. Might be talking nonsense. Am I being a complete noob about this? Me isolating myself with my gf is also a huge factor. I realize this was preventing me from forming new friendships/nurturing old ones. But again, cannot deny the relevance at that particular time period. It could not go down any other way. I sense that change is needed. Gotta rewire regarding the topic. Feeling quite excited now, to be honest. New is always good. Thanks ya'all!

@outlandish Haven't got the chance to learn just yet. But I strongly resonate with the idea. Would love to learn and sure will at some point. Could also bond that way, possibly. Thanks for suggesting Also had a thought about "over-reacting" regarding the friend. And I probably did, yes. But as I mentioned; it seems relevant this way now. After all, me letting go of him doesn't really change anything. We were barely in touch. Did not see each other in more than two years. It's really just a story I am detaching from.

@Shin ?

@Shin That would require me to settle down. But when I do; I'll name him Shin.

@now is forever Sri Lanka It's wild, indeed. Can get exhausting. And that sense of not belonging anywhere comes knocking on the door, every once in a while. I feel your words though. I know deep friendships are not established over night. Hence my sadness. I lost more than just a buddy. It was really a soul thing. But still, I do not aim to slam the door forever. It may blossom into something new and better, eventually. It's just obviously right for this very moment. Can't keep dragging the story with me around the world. Gotta overcome my habit of over-romanticizing everything. I suppose it's an artist thing, lol.

@Shin You try too hard, don't hurt yourself No dogs. Two cats. Could include a doggie tho Too much pussy

And I do not negate Really; Nobody truly does exist. Nothing is totally real. Flawless paradox. Your mind cannot wrap itself around infinity. Change my mind.

@Shin You think I'm stupid?! I will never marry She's not a wife. She's a partner in crime. Nothing legal about us.

@now is forever it was someone, obviously

@Shin can't destroy what isn't there

@who chit Easy... It's nothing Existing as nonexistence.

Not the same eye, but only one I. Been where you are, left the job, focused on passion. Nothing else matters. As fulfilled as I was at age 5. Though not nearly "there" just yet. But at least I'm on the right path. The path of passion.

If there was no delusion, there would be nothing to wake up from. No game. No life. No evolution. Nothing. It makes no sense. And that's precisely why it's perfect. Being that 1% is the best thing that could possibly ever happen to anyone. But the journey is not easy. Hence the 1%. Also; "delusion" is a harsh word. It is natural. Part of God's divine orchestration. Your masterpiece.