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Today I saw her in nothing but her underwear and I nearly went blind. That's how ridiculously perfect her body is. Yup. Hottest one yet. For sure.

One thing is for sure. This much passion and fire combined, is no joke. It's serious business. I act like I don't give a fuck, but secretly I have a thing for tarot, and yes, of course both of us are leos. Our birthdays are 6 days apart. She's more or less exactly 8 years younger than me. Jackpot!

So smooth, so casual, so flawless. Pure fucking magic.

This is working so fucking well it's scary. Oh please don't let this be another trap. I mean, yeah, obviously, she's a bit crazy, but she's waaaay hotter than she's crazy. And also, I'm kind of crazy too. So that's not that big of a deal, as long as we're not turning against each other. So far, there seems to be a lot of mutual respect. No one is crossing any boundaries, in any way. Everything is just nice. It's just working.

Wow... Just wow...

We did kiss though, and it was beautiful.

Cuddles, movies, medium rare steak and mashed potatoes. Still no sex. My dick is hard pretty much all the time, and she knows it. Fuck. I love it and I hate it that she's holding back.

Projector. Because movie night.

Fastest moving train in the universe.

And I got a room. Just like that. Yes, it's in the same apartment that she lives in. Yes, it's ridiculously cheap. Epic fucking win.

Yup, she's still here, it wasn't a dream. Slept 3hrs, woke up to her playing with my hair.

She opened up quite a bit today, and my heart is breaking for her, but then she moves in a certain way, or touches me or something, and I instantly start getting hard. It's a weird spot to be in.

Here's a thought to fall asleep to... She's 22, blond, petite, blue eyes, absolutely beautiful... and she has cancer. She refuses treatment and she knows she's dying. I did not dare to ask how long she has. Ok, good night.

What are you up to... God? Is this another test that I will take way too fucking long to pass? Or is this really just a pure fucking blessing? I can't comprehend just yet.

Jk already know she's smoking hot.

If it's too good to be true, there's probably a catch, but hopefully not. I'm spending the night at her place. Possibly the entire weekend. She knows I'm looking for a place and wants to help. She also very clearly wants to bang me, but is holding back, and I respect that. I kinda love it actually. We could have easily had sex today. But we didn't, because she's smart. The attraction is undeniable and I cannot remember laughing this hard in a long time. Of course I'm careful and cautious, but I'm also very curious to see where this goes. I'm also super curious to see how she looks naked.

So... I'm in her apartment, cooking her dinner... What?! The fuck just happened!

You fucked me up more than I care to admit.

I'm clearly still too sad though.

She asked for my number and casually invited me to her place. She also texted first. I had no other choice. Soft closed a date for Saturday night.

Jk I won't lose control because of some chick again. Promise.

Oh no. This morning I met a very cute 22yr old blondie and we clicked instantly. Here comes hell.

Giving off strong get the fuck away from me vibes. And it's working. Awesome.

Literally no one has made this jump with me. Not a single soul. Most of you have eliminated your own selves, without me even doing much of anything. And some of you I had to cut off, using brute force. Two or three of you still have access, but it's clear as day that you are not going anywhere anytime soon. You are staying exactly where you are. All you can do, is watch. Because I let you. And if you think I'm all alone on the top of this mountain because I'm actually a giant asshole... Well... I'll give you another chance to think about it a bit harder, very soon. Promise.

Haha I swear I'm trying my best to be as narcissistic and as grandiose as possible, and it doesn't go much further than this.