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...To a mind, yes ? The heart has never seen, nor experienced a single paradox.

When difference is no more, and all borderlines are erased; resistance and surrender are actually one and the same. The two blend into something known as 'Infinite Will'. In direct experience; the 'paradox' was unbearable - to say the least. There was no possibility of any release without a conscious effort. Meaning; even the sense of relief had to be willingly cultivated into being. Prior to transcending this paradox; it was quite literally an equivalent to hell. In transcendence; paradox was no more. Only laughter and... Unstoppable, infinite Will.

I am vs I am not is funky, too. Especially in direct experience.

Surrender vs resistance f'ed me in the A, quiet hard.

I can't find my way home, Father. See me now, as I look up to the Heavens. The walls are closing in on me. It's difficult to breathe in this heat. Crippling indecision ties my hands. The heart of my hiding place becomes my grave. I am blinded by choice, Father. Why won't I let myself be? Give me strength to see. Bless me with reason and sense. What is it that I fear to face, so deeply? What am I coming back for to this place? I feel stuck, Father. I cannot leave this part behind. I cannot drag it into the Light of Your perfection, either. What am I to do with it? Where do I put this hurt? How do I mould it, transform it? Speak to me, Father. Help me see Your way. The only way. Lift this weight off my heart, now. I did my time. There is nothing else for me here. Set me free so I can sing Your song bellow the sky and across the seas. Unlock this chest, Father. Deepen my voice. Relax these tired muscles. Soften this armour. Undo these words that are stuck in my throat. May I speak only when You listen. May I hear only when You speak. May Love speak through me. Thy will be done. As above, so bellow. It is Your Love for me that set these thoughts in motion. It is Your Love for me that blessed me with the ability to feel life to such an extraordinary depth. I thank You for that, Father. I am honored. Humbled by Your grace. I am what I am and where I am; because of Your Love. I am that I am. The Love that You are, Father - I am. Only that matters. I matter.

What are your thoughts on the matter? Vitamins, calcium, magnesium, iron, omega-3, proteins, creatine, etc. Is it all complete BS? Or does it actually 'work' ? If it does; how (un)healthy is it all for the body? Thanks.

It's a free improv solo - to put it that way ? Listen to the 'backing track' ? Meaning; everything you're cultivating now 'from within' is being reflected to you, in real time. From a limited point of view; it happens so fast it can barely be noticed. From The Absolute; it's constant and eternal. ?

You only 'attract' what you are; now - so to speak. It could be said that there is a plan. And it could also be said that there is none. 'A divine orchestration' sounds good to me.

Relatively; yes. Absolutely; no.

I suppose there are many... But this is the very first one that came to mind; Beautiful and powerful... Love ?

@zeroISinfinity Why can't we not be sober? I just want to start this over Why can't we sleep forever I just want to start this over ?

@Applegarden Right back at ya! ...and...anytime, brother ?

@cetus ?

@Applegarden You are on the right track and you already know that. You just have to keep walking. ? ❤

@Applegarden It's not checking out that you truly desire. It's tuning in - fully. I 'left the body' and 'this realm'. Trust me - this is exactly where and when you want to be, the most. You just might not remember choosing to come down here - to put it that way. Remembering that choice by detaching from your circumstances might be what's relevant for you. I don't really know where you are at. But come back you will, for sure. Why? To create epic, never-before-heard music and bring love and joy to everyone's hearts and ears. I don't know you, but I can tell that's what your heart truly desires. And you bet I'll update you as soon as I release new material ? (You made me smile, too. Thanks ?)

@Applegarden Indeed I can relate, brother. Thank you for adding your thoughts to this thread. I am very glad you did. For what it's worth; it's all exactly as it should be. I'm sure you too are up for great things. The process can be a bit (hella) uncomfortable but it's all well worth it - I'd say. Much love and respect to you. Keep rocking! ?

@zeroISinfinity Still you give your best at trying to avoid ?

@peanutspathtotruth Beautiful. Divinity is awesome and badass ? @zeroISinfinity You are having a conversation with Love, right now. Is there anything specific you'd like to ask? How can Love assist you? How can Love help you loosen up? Come close, don't be afraid - it's stranger than you think ?

Find meaning and purpose. Learn how to handle yourself. As uncle Ben said: 'with great power...comes great responsibility.'

@zeroISinfinity Don't play with fire that you cannot handle ????

@Johnny5 Welcome and thank you, too ?❤ @peanutspathtotruth Yes. That's very nicely put - I'd say. Prayer is indeed very powerful and beautiful - imo. But holding onto it - like anything else - can be 'counterproductive' or even 'damaging'. One must recognize if and when prayer might be relevant. Also; this of course has nothing to do with religion or belief. It's just a 'method' - as you said. Once you step into The Light...There is only Light. No Son, no Father, no duality. Pure, loving Light - only. ❤

@peanutspathtotruth I am very glad to hear that ? One's relationship with God (themselves) is very important - imo. A willingness and ability to surrender to something 'greater' than you is mandatory - I'd say. Even if it's all 'just You' and no matter how 'stage blue' or whatever the heck else it might be labelled. I don't think it's 'more important', but it sure is important. My original post was - in that sense - channelled, in real time. It came right from the heart - and that's what's most important. Words can be interpreted a thousand ways. What matters most is the inner 'energy play'. Do I resist and hold onto thoughts like 'I am God, nothing can touch me, I am invincible, etc' or do I actually recognize when surrendering is what's truly relevant? Am I willing to let go of The Crown - so to speak. I'd say that's a very distorted view on what's actually happening. Father never 'used' The Son - in that sense. He teaches him. He is preparing him for his greatest initiation. His greatest calling. - No matter how unfair it may seem to The Son and how difficult/painful the process might be. When the Son realizes this and in that sense submits to Father's Will...The two are on the same page - so to speak. There is co-operation, compassion and harmony. The Son is fully allowed to have his experience and The Father is...well...Being The Father ? Well there you go. That kind of sums it up. That is - in that 'Father and Son' type of scenario. Indeed, One is ? ❤ ?

@Max_V You put that very nicely, thanks. I understand where they're coming from. I just don't feel like that's the way to offer an invitation to others to join in. - If that is necessary in the first place. I think one should have the freedom to decide for themselves what suits them best. Vegans judging carnivores... Carnivores judging vegans... just a play of polar opposites.

No offense to anyone reading... But I find most vegans to be incredibly annoying and judgemental people. There; I said it.

Thank you. Yes. Everything I write here - I deliberately and purposefully write for and to myself. Always. What 'others' get out of it, is completely secondary. I am The Father and The Son. And I 'act' accordingly to where I find myself to be on the spectrum. Pretending to be God, when I'm clearly not embodying that frequency would be falsehood. One should always know where they're at and stay true to that - imo. This is just how surrender is playing out for me. I like going a bit poetical about it all ? Thanks, I am. But there is still some healing and clearing up ahead of me - I imagine.