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Beingness is direct. Right now. Experience happens in reverse - to put it that way. It's a 'lag'.

❤?? This may require an update... Much love and respect. Thank you!

I am first. Before I think; I am. Before I feel; I am. Before I perceive; I am. Before I speak; I am. Before I interpret; I am. Before I believe; I am. Before I imagine; I am. As I am now; All is. Unless I am; None is.

❤ I am not is a dream. Being is infinite. Not being is an idea. What is; I am. That which is unknowable; I am. I am. Therefore; consciousness is.

@Bazooka Jesus ? I am ?

Silence is speaking. Can you hear it? A shift has occurred. I no longer find interest in discovering what God is. I am now all about exploring how God speaks. How God moves. How God creates. In other words; Being and experiencing what I realized myself to be. The easy way out would be to say something like: 'But it's already all God. No matter how it looks and feels like.' Well... yes, sure. But not exactly. Realizing The Truth of who I am initiated a series of 'activations' and 'updates' - if you will. Lots of stuff fell away. All gone - like none ever happened. What remained is what I kept in my heart. What remained is Truth. The natural impulse is to speak that Truth. To express that Truth. To share and celebrate it. To live it. To breathe it. When I speak Truth; I am what I speak. I don't just hear what I say. I am one with what I am hearing. My voice is relaxed. Deep. Grounded. Strong and clear. Resonating in my chest. I am speaking with my whole being. It feels like the sounds are coming straight out of a black hole. The Void. There is transparency. Confidence supports each and every word. All that is being said; is exactly what has to be said. Not a word less, not a sound more. I am speaking consciously and with an intention. I also listen carefully and patiently whenever someone speaks to me. It's The Voice of God that I hear. They might not be aware of it... But I am. And that's what truly matters. In my opinion - for One to speak as God; One must also know how to listen as God. How I relate to others has become even more important to me now. The way I treat others I also treat myself. How I speak to them is how I speak to myself. Quite literally. And so I speak with respect, compassion, honor and kindness. To the best of my abilities. Clearly; This is a journey on its own. I am not 'embodying God - Consciousness' 100% of the time on a daily basis. But something tells me; that's where I'm headed. What does your voice sound like?

@StudentOfLeove Suffering is a great teacher.

@Everlasting Goodness Bless you ❤

@Ibgdrgnxxv Very interesting. Thank you.

@Ibgdrgnxxv Even in your darkest hour; there is Light. Even in hell; there is God.

@Space @allislove Much love and respect.

Hell is a symphony, too. Everything is. As I burned I realized I was The Fire.

Thank you. It's my pleasure. Beautiful. Thank you. @SoonHei That was awesome! Thanks! The Cosmic Joke ?

@rav Bless you.

@rav Nothing. You simply sing. You do not have to. But you can. Lovely. Can you hear something in the silence? Sorry to hear that. Good music and a walk in nature might help.

Sing.

@rav I don't speak judgement. Do you like how you sound? @seeking_brilliance ?

There is an interesting 'paradox' when it comes to accepting or allowing what is. I feel like it's worth mentioning. In a sense; not accepting and not allowing what is; is impossible. Everything is already accepted and allowed right now. All the time. Trying to allow something that is already occurring is nonsensical. I do not need to allow this cup in front of me to be. It is already allowed to be - just as it is. I know that simply because of the obviousness of its presence. Still; It's quite easy to become entangled and locked during moments of discomfort. Something that you may label as 'bad' can indeed happen. But you trying to accept it is not what's going to stop it from happening. That's actually quite silly - if you really think about it. If it's here - it is already accepted. If it's gone - it does not require your acceptance. Basically; it's the same when it comes to the idea of 'letting go'. You are not letting go of anything, ever. You are not holding on to anything, either. What's happening is happening - until it's happening. And when it's not happening anymore - it has been let to go. It does not require your permission to stay or leave. It simply comes and goes. Why? Because it is allowed to do so. That's a built-in quality of reality - if you wish. Instead of trying to allow or accept what is - simply notice how everything is already allowed and accepted; all the time. Already here and now. There's nothing you have to or can do about it. Resisting what is; is like pulling away from the present moment. Contracting. Moving back. The more you pull away - the heavier your thoughts and emotions get. You can never actually separate yourself from what is... but essentially; that's what 'the illusion' of separation really is. Pulling away. Trying to face the other way. Trying to turn away from what's 'right in front of you'. Which is quite impossible. You cannot actually look away. Cannot separate yourself. You can only create a hella uncomfortable experience of trying to do so. To look right into the eyes of what is and breathe in the present moment is what total and complete allowance or acceptance is. It's really quite simple. Yet it may require a great amount of courage and a certain level of maturity. The easiest way to become fully immersed and present is to find interest in what is. You cannot remain contracted if you are truly interested in and/or excited about what's happening right now. Interest lures you in. Love & Light

That's awesome. Thanks for sharing. Totally acceptable and allowed.

Delightful ?

Trying to love will never work. You love the hate by letting it be. Acknowledging it as divinity itself. As Love. As God. If you truly let hate be without needing to project it 'out there' - it will dissolve sooner than you think. Because you think it's anything other than Love and also because you are afraid of it. You would rather have nothing to do with it. You'd rather run away from it. Or push it away. Instead of just silently sitting in its company when it arises. Trying to change anything will never work. Change happens spontaneously and naturally when there is no more resistance towards that which is persisting. In your case; hate. It makes hate remember it was always Love.

I never experienced a false awakening. I either wake up or nothing happens. What I wake up to is always true. But there are 'levels' to Truth - if you wish. Comparing one level to another can be a 'bad idea'. What's true to me now might be judged as 'false' from a different level. But it can only be false relatively speaking. Absolutely; it's just Truth. Knowing is The Heart. Realizations are The Mind. For knowing to be; all realizations must be integrated and let go of. Then there is nothing to compare. There is only one knowing. At it is now.

Remind yourself to breathe through your thoughts as often as possible.

Update; Went on a second date with the girl I previously mentioned. It went... perfect? More closeness, more connection, more flow and effortless, casual fun time. We did not drive back to my place - yet again. She was on her period and also had important stuff to do in the morning. I like it. I can sense the 'tension' building up. In a very positive sense. I feel like I'm actively dating. It's not too easy and predictable. It's spontaneous, interesting and exciting. Feelings? Yes. And they're mutual - I'd say. Attachment? No. I feel free and limitless and hold on to no expectations. I do have desires. But I am also totally fine with them not coming to fruition. I feel steady, calm and centred yet excited, curious and playful. We still seem to be sharing the same intention. Light, casual, fun, genuine connection. Sex and friendship. No strings attached. Love? Of course, yes. How could anything ever be anything else but Love? Hehe. But it's a different kind of romantic love than I was familiar with. It's not clingy. It's not limited. It's open and free. It's just that which I know myself to be. As Love I can only interact with and experience Love. Of course. So simple. So beautiful. So light. Life is good.

So I've be jumping from relationship to relationship for the last decade or so. Obviously; I'd like to do things a bit differently this time around. This most recent relationship I was in, was the most intimate, the deepest and the most intense amongst all. 'Exhausting' ...is the word. Heavy and nasty. Rich and beautiful. 1300 days of heaven and hell. Now it's no more. Now it's day 1 for me. Last week; I moved to a gorgeous, new apartment. I live in a semi-large, modern and vibrant city. Lots of beautiful, young people. Lots of cool spots and places. A lot to love. I work 40 to 50 hours a week. I have an online business-thing going on and I'm also a musician. Still; I do have quite a few pockets of 'free time' , that could be filled with anything. Dating? Why not? After all; I am 25, good-looking and in a city that offers alot of fun. I see no reason not to enjoy meeting new people. I like going out for a drink or a dinner. The city's nightlife vibes with me. It's not overblown. It's just the right amount of action. So yeah. Looking forward to going out for a drink or two - every now and then. My work itself involves meeting and interacting with new people - on a daily basis. It's fun. It's fast-paced. It's alive. 'Picking up' girls that way is no issue - at all. In fact; I find that to be by far the 'smoothest' and 'easiest' way to do just that. I'd say I'm a natural flirt. It's a quality - not a skill. If I'm feeling good and in 'my zone', flirting is just something I do; spontaneously and effortlessly. That is; if that quality is 'activated'. On my sleepy/off days... I'm just generally not interested in flirting. Obviously; while in a relationship that aspect is asleep, as well. Reserved for one person, only. So yeah; it feels pretty good to be back in touch with that part of me again fully. I like it. Not to brag or anything, but I never really had any issues with women. What I did have an issue with was; low self-esteem/self-image, unworthiness and desperation. Which usually resulted in letting myself being picked up by women lol. Only rarely would I make the first step. Let alone chase a girl. I always thought I was 'above that' for whatever reason. Kinda dickheadish - now that I see it. Pathetic, too. But above all just innocent. I was afraid of rejection even though I have never been really rejected by a girl lol. I did, however, experience abandonment and negligence in my childhood. So that makes sense. Point is; I'd like to make the first step now. And I have been doing that these days. But I also still let girls pick me up. Which resulted in me getting involved with a girl that is...let's just say; not really my type. She is clearly interested in me - a lot. I am not as much interested in her as much as I'm just going with it. So it feels a bit off. Which does not mean I'm not enjoying it. I am. It's just not quite on that level. I think girls find it easy to fall in love with me. I can fall in love easily, too. But I don't want another goddamn relationship lol. I need to breathe for myself now. So here are my questions to you experienced, sexy, single people: How do I interact, flirt and engage intimately with girls without it leading to a relationship somewhere 'down the line' ? Can Love be 'involved'? Can I love a girl that I had a one-night-stand with? Can I love a girl without either one of us developing attachments? Is 'fuck-budy' a good idea? Can it be healthy, casual and just fun? Can it be light, smooth and romantic? Or is that sending me down the 'relationship hallway' again? Is 'lowering my standards' a 'bad thing'? Should I aim high all the time? Should I filter more? How does one reject politely? Also; I find the whole virtual part of dating very limiting and often exhausting. I prefer real, face-to-face interactions. Problem is; everyone around me is mesmerized by their smartphones. Of course the first thing they wanna do is add you on this and that and check out your virtual life. I'd be happy to avoid that part if anyone has any suggestions. Maybe telling a girl that we should send letters to each-other would be actually cool. Thanks!