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@kbone I did not get you wrong. If anything; I did not get you at all. But I felt like thanking you for your input anyways. I think I understand you now. And I agree. But I don't think we're talking about the same 'thing' necessarily. I was not trying to say that there is a problem that needs to be solved. I was simply pointing towards the calm during the storm. It's about living everyday life. And recognizing what is actually going on in the heat of the moment; when shit hits the fan - if you will. Thus finding peace. A seemingly unjust scenario can be seen as an invitation to maximize Love within one's being. I suppose that is the message. Thanks again. Bless ya.

@kbone Thanks

I imagine it is for the purpose of finding peace

Being (God)

Another way to look at it; is that you are not just a thought. You cannot escape thought while denying or negating it. At least not ime. On one level; you are a thought, as well. It's not like there's God + a thought. Or God - thought. God is all-encompassing. A thought is a facet of God. Let thought be, as it is. Make peace with it. Then use honest curiosity to investigate what is 'beyond' thought. Once you find your way out you should have an access to the exit door at all times - so to speak. You will kinda know intuitively how to 'break through'. 'Staying out' is a different story. Again; practice. It's like a muscle. Even 5 seconds of absolute silence is enough. Point is that you become familiar with it and stop fearing it. Thought will always wait for you right where you left it.

@73809 Interesting. Will contemplate that idea a bit. @Keyhole Thank you very much ❤ @DefinitelyNotARobot That's an interesting perspective on music. I remember once having a debate with a painter who also did not like claiming art 'his own'. Hmm. I don't know. I can resonate with that idea from one level.. But then again; I see nothing wrong with calling it 'mine'. I like taking pride in it. Maybe it's an ego thing haha. One could say that all of it already exists and we're merely tapping into and exploring those realms, yes. On the other hand; it could be also said that every piece of music that has ever been created was/is created by me (The Absolute)? So you know, whatever - I guess haha. However we do or do not label it; it's magical and lovely. I sang and played the guitar parts on this track. The rest is sampled. I mainly get my samples from freesound.org. Except for the percussions. That's a free sample pack I found somewhere in the realm of the internet haha. Everything was put together in Cubase ? Interesting fact; the words/lyrics are totally made up haha. It's all just gibberish ? Sonically; I feel like 'I'm not quite there yet'. I'm working on my mixing/mastering skills. Especially working with vocals. That's a totally new thing for me. In the past - before the big pause - I used to write heavy, guitar- focused music, only. It was a completely different world. A different approach. Looking forward to perfecting things over time ? Thank you for your input, and please do PM me some of your stuff if ya feel like it/if ya have anything 'out there'. Bless ya!

I've been thinking about this a bit today... How would you describe passion? Is passion just another word for Love? Or is it an expression of Love? My whole life I identified myself as a very passionate person. It is precisely because of that passion that I started seeking deeper meaning. Truth. Love and Light. The hardest thing I ever had to do was letting go of that identity. I was dying over and over again. Three long years without creating any music at all. It did not make any sense... I embarked on this journey - completely surrendering myself to the unknown precisely because of passion... and then - all of the sudden - it was taken away from me. Everything was gone. But I kept faith. Something in me knew that I was doing the right thing. It was a necessary sacrifice. For Truth is known in absolute silence and stillness, only. 360° and I'm back where I started. Sorta. Or not at all. Point is; music is back in my life. Something's changed though. I was struggling with reconnecting with the fire inside my heart. The joy. The excitement. I started making music again, but something just didn't feel right. Shortly; I fell into a loop of self-judgement and started going through yet another cycle of purification. I realized I was pushing too hard. Completely overlooking the reason why I'm so in love with making music in the first place. I don't just create rhythms and melodies. I create entire worlds. Every song is a journey. A story. So what if it takes some time to create an epic one? So what if it's not 'perfect'? What matters is that I love what I do and I enjoy the process. I'd say that's passion. I can feel it burning inside me now. Nothing can stop it. So, if ya wanna hear how my purification sounds like lol, you can check it out here: https://m.soundcloud.com/ivan-kiss-76358366/absolution Much Love and respect

@neutralempty Thanks. Not sure if I get all of what you said though. Or agree with it. But it's interesting. Appreciate your input ? @Inliytened1 Like how you put that. Thanks! Also makes sense, yup. Sounds like something Bashar would say ? Interesting. It most certainly has to do with the process of dissolving the personal identity, yes. During that phase; making music could actually be a form of distraction. So yeah, letting go of that makes sense in that context. Would not say it's a must though. It's just how it played out for me. Glad to hear you're into similar stuff. Would love to hear your music when you put something together. P. s. The image is not mine. Downloaded ?

It's the best seat in the theater ?

@Shin Breathing @Ponder Why does my snare sound like garbage? ?

Memories are happening right now ? Something that has been; still is, and will be forever. It's just a matter of tuning in.

@seeking_brilliance Wow. That's a lot of juicy info! Thank you. There is definitely something that's 'blocking the way'... Will investigate ? I'd really like to explore joyfully and carefree. And I have already a few times before... I guess it's some sort of a purge I'm experiencing these days. Thing is; even the 'mystical' experiences I had were more often than not terrifying haha. Incredibly deep and profound... but scary as shit. And not always, ofcourse... Some were truly beautiful and divine. But this sense of 'terror' has been stuck with me ever since I had my first big breakthrough lol. And funny you mentioned 'false awakenings', indeed. That's a perfect description of what I experienced during sleep paralysis - I'd say. It was a loop of some sort, yes. I struggled so hard to get up out of my bed, and as soon as I would I'd realize I did not actually get up. I was still lying there. This kept on going for a very long time. I did not see actual demons (thank God lol), but I felt and evil presence outside of my window. And at some point there were what I can only describe as 'angel warriors' in my room. 3 of them - if I can remember correctly. They were 'on my side'. It's like some sort of a war was going on... One of the angels was looking outside my window at this evil entity. The whole point was that I'd wake up. As if that could solve everything lol. And I could not. This evil entity was speaking to me telepathically pretty much the whole time. Telling me stuff like: 'it's not going to work, you will not wake up etc'. It was the weirdest shit man haha. I was kinda aware that I'm actually all of those beings... but not really. Was too busy being terrified lol. Also; when I actually woke up... I randomly kept repeating 'Jesus Chris', too - for a while haha. I also laughed a lot. It was just so bizarre. I guess the main difference between this dream stuff and my 'ordinary' consciousness work is... That here you have fucking demons and angles manifested in front of your very eyes haha. And they seem as real as it gets. My state of consciousness is also different. There's a different vibe to everything. Usually I am as present as it gets and fully immersed in the dream... but I am limited to a character's pov. Only once or twice have I experienced being conscious of Oneness and acting as One in 'dream realms'. And that was just ineffable. I flew around, weightless, and basically had the absolute freedom to do whatever I felt like doing. Looking forward to more of that ? Thanks again man. God bless ya!

@Shin It...ain't...familiar! ?

Great thread @seeking_brilliance I have a question for ya. I've been having some wild dreams these days. Incredibly vivid and...intense. Last night I became spontaneously lucid. I remember getting out of my bed and trying to turn on the light... and it would not turn on. Also the Sun was shining bright as hell and that seemed kinda weird... One thing to another and it just clicked for me: 'holy shit, I'm dreaming!' But here's my 'issue'. Whenever I become lucid within a dream; my first impulse is to escape the dream immediately. I panic...hard. And sure enough; that's exactly what I did last night. I ran back to my bed, started breathing real heavy and kept repeating to myself; 'it's a dream, wake up!' And so I woke up. Just like that. It kinda sucks, because I miss out on the opportunity to explore these states/realms. Have you experienced this kind of fear/panic when lucid? Also; A few times I slipped into 'sleep paralysis' and again... it was quite terrifying lol. I don't buy into all that 'demonic' stuff... but man, it felt just like that. Like something evil was present. I kinda knew it was an aspect of me...but still... I could not escape the terror. It was truly a struggle to 'break out' - to say the least. Any advice? ?

It was a long-ass pause. All kinds of stuff went down. But I finally started writing and recording new music. It's something completely different from what I used to do. I like the vibes. However; there's still a lot of room for improvement. It's a new beginning. Hope you enjoy the track. Much love. https://m.soundcloud.com/ivan-kiss-76358366/essence

Let me know how that went ?? @Someone here @Hello from Russia Thank you ❤

@flume Thanks! Discovered them a little while ago.. instantly fell in love ? Only heard a couple songs so far.. will dive in deep one of these days ? @Nahm ❤

@datamonster Thank you! More is on it's way ?

@Roy @aurum @Shin Appreciate it very much. Bless you!

@Applegarden Thank you brother. It's on my mind, for sure. New guitar-focused music is on its way. Maybe not as 'technical' as my older stuff, but still... I aim to have several different projects. This is simply the very first thing that came through me now.. Much love and respect to you.

@Jetam @ivory Thank you ❤

@Shin Love this dude ?

I'd like to share with you a few thoughts about the various 'states' of being. Qualities of Light - if you will. I like the word 'Light' because it represents the actuality of what is; to me. It's simply the most appropriate and most suitable word - ime. You can feel free to replace it in your imagination with any other word. God, Infinity, Consciousness, Love or perhaps Nothingness. Point is; I am referring to what's here now. Omnipresent and omnipotent. Many teachers speak of this concept by using models such as 'densities' or 'dimensions'. 'Octaves', even. I'd like to simplify things a bit, and share with you what - in that sense - 'works' for me. How I view and understand Light. So if I tune into what I'm sensing and/or perceiving right now; I'd describe it as 'various qualities/states of Light melting into each - other'. Depending on where my attention is placed; I can sense what we would commonly refer to as 'solid matter' - which feels compressed/condensed/pressured and perhaps even somewhat 'heavy'... Or I can focus on the more lighter, floaty aspects of actuality; stuff like air, sounds or even thoughts. So what I'm saying is, that that's all just Light. All God. No big surprise there - I imagine. But here's what might be interesting as well as helpful/practical; Imagine a spectrum that in one direction goes to infinite contraction and in the other it goes to infinite expansion. Your focus/attention/awareness is what enables you to navigate through the sensations and/or thoughts and determine your position. Which could be referred to as your 'resonant frequency'. Your 'state of being'. When you are contracting; your breath shortens. You start pulling away from the present moment. Getting further and further away. As if you were teriffied of fully being here and now - for whatever reason. Reality seems distant. Your focus is narrowing down, perceptions gets blurry. Everything seems to be choppy - instead of flowing smoothly. Your thoughts multiply each time you blink and become increasingly heavier. So much so you cannot see actuality over them. In a sense; thoughts bury you alive. In extreme cases of contraction; your breath is literally taken away and you are compressed down to a tiniest little dot. And not, even. The good news is; Infinity! No matter how contracted; 'eventually' you break through and come out the other side - if you will. You breathe in consciousness. You start expanding. And expansion feels wonderful. Absolutely lovely. It's like being set free from a cage. You are no longer afraid to be here. You breathe deliberately and on purpose. With the intention to be. You are eager and excited. Invested. Paying attention. Thoughts are much fewer and much lighter. Not distracting - at all. Pleasant, positive and empowering, even. Colours are brighter. Definition is higher. The more you are here now the more your breath deepens. The more relaxed and effortlessly immersed you are. Fully present. Light and at peace. You breathe with such ease and it feels so good that eventually all that there is; is breathing. Absolutely lovely, carefree, effortless breathing. And what that is; is beautiful, divine, floating Light. I remember being in states where my entire being felt like sand being blown around by the wind. There was absolutely nothing solid or physical about it. It felt like heaven. Light is truly awesome.

To me; respect is acknowledging and honoring the divinity in another.

A lag in perception.