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@WaveInTheOcean Appreciate it ❤ Feeling a bit shadowy atm...can't help myself but cringe while reading the original post ? It's true...just a bit slimy ?

How can something this simple seem so complicated at times? Unless you are abiding in pure non-dual awareness; these three things are all there is in direct experience. You can perceive, feel and think. That's all. That's all of Reality. What are you perceiving? A thought or a sensation. What are you thinking of? Well, you're most likely thinking of a thought. But you can also think of what you're feeling or perceiving. What are you feeling? You are feeling what you are perceiving and/or thinking. I imagine you see how this can be on a loop forever. Until you - in a sense - untangle yourself, and your attention (awareness) expands beyond the boundaries of perception, sensation and thought. Then it all collapses into Being. Simple isness. You no longer see colors, or smell flowers, or feel the wind blowing against your back... You are all of it. You don't even think. You are thought. You don't feel. You are feeling. I've had these insights/glimpses quite some time ago. But I feel like now they're truly becoming integrated and embodied - if you will. There is a sense of calmness and maturity. Stability. Things that would have blown my mind completely a few years ago are now something that's simply obvious. Common sense. I'm happy about that. I've seen The Truth from many angles... Sometimes the experience was beyond any imaginable horror. Other times the level of sheer ecstasy was way too overwhelming. But what I ultimately discovered is that Being (Truth) is centred. It is calm. It knows no extremes. No polar opposites. It simply is whole. It is at peace.

@Moksha @AdamR95 Thanks for sharing! A few more thoughts came to mind; Infinity cannot be perceived in its entirety, ever. One can only capture a limited portion of it. No matter how big that portion is, it will always be limited. To perceive is a limitation in itself. I heard of this term 'the veil of perception'... sounds so dramatic haha. I like it. Also wanted to add a few words about alignment. And I guess the simplest way I'd put it is that alignment is when all aspects of your being are on the same page - so to speak. You are in tune with your whole being. You act as you feel, you feel as you think, you see as you are. You are synchronized with your direct experience. Locked in - so to speak. Breathing consciously is the most direct way to tuning into your beingness. Centering yourself. Bringing yourself back into the default position - so to speak. You are already always, naturally aligned.

Great stuff! How about some 'shuggah tho? Drowned in this screaming silence Embraced by shadows, they tear me The wormholes free my eyes The blood boils - it knows My thoughts burn as minds liquefy, vaporize Reality scorched by this fixed state All beginnings slain by ends I seep down into the black to breathe Drifting to merge with the past My tongue licks the residue of the future Bitter taste, the wombs of claws call me Filth rips them open. The stillborn start to move Lidless eyes twitching beneath a sheet of rot They reach out, they want to kiss - It matters not In dreams it speaks to me of the truth that means Reality

Yummy! ❤

Sleep is for the weak! Consciousness never sleeps.

Fear of feeling

Can relate. A part of me has a thing for crazy, toxic girls. I guess it's because of the rush. The adrenaline. Also; my saviour complex. Trying to be their hero. It's kinda funny, really... Not while you're in a toxic relationship though. Yeah it's wild and exciting and unpredictable... But it's not healthy. It's not real. Not genuine. Not true. It's a crazy and potentially very dangerous game. It's like a hardcore drug. It's an addiction - not a relationship.

This one time; I was tripping balls on shrooms and had a full-on nondual conversation with a friend. The content had nothing to do with enlightenment. But it was in pure Light. It literally felt like I was speaking through her mouth. It was as if I already knew exactly what she was about to tell me. Word for word. It felt super in-synch. Everything was perfect and inevitable. God was having a conversation with itself. So there's that. But that's not where we as a collective are atm -imo. Not consistently. We do not operate on those highly synchronized levels. We're not conscious enough - simply put. Whether or not that is something that's directly linked to how conscious I am...is yet to be discovered.

I recently became aware of these clusters of stagnant energy in my being - or; body - if you will. What fascinated me was that I used to assume this tension to be a part of my being. As if that's what my 'body' is made out of. Then it struck me; 'Wait a sec...that doesn't feel right. It's heavy and twisted, entangled and shaky. That's not what Truth feels like.' So I focused on releasing this energy. Transforming it. Setting it free - if you will. Through breathing and - what I guess one could call - 'intuitive yoga'. It felt like The Breath was slowly curling itself all around the areas of stagnant energy. The body followed The Breath. Making space for it. With each exhale; more tension was released. And then... another sweet realization; 'This is relaxation. I am relaxing into The Truth of who I am. Truth is relaxed. It's weightless. It's floating. It's free.' It feels like I'm leaning back into Love's hands. Trusting it with my life.

Yes, beautifully put! 'Loving awareness'...man...now that's yummy!

@wesyasz Very glad to hear! @universe Haha, dunno. It was spontaneous. My breathing was shallow. Felt like the ceiling was too low - to put it that way. So I started feeling my way through it. I realized 'the ceiling' was just built up tension in my lower chest area. And that lead to becoming aware of other strained areas. Back, shoulders, neck, jaw, forehead... Was mainly focused on my upper body-parts. The tension built bellow my waist is another story haha. Will require some work - to say the least. What I find very interesting tho; is that releasing this stagnant energy can trigger certain suppressed memories. It's like they're directly linked. @PureRogueQ Very good point! Thank you!

@allislove Beautiful. Thank you.

@Nahm It's unbelievable ?

Breathing.

@Nahm ? Curious; can you relate to this?⬇️ I recall entering this 'state'... It feels like dust particles - dancing in empty space. There is nothing solid or tangible. The feeler and the felt are One. I know it's Light, but it feels like sand. Also can recall liquid, electric and crystal states. All blow my mind, completely.

@allislove ?Might steal it @Nahm It's funny because it seems as if it requires effort. When really; it is the letting go of all effort and attempt. Being is effortles. It pulls you in. What takes effort is 'distancing' away from it. I imagine; in that 'space' knowers and choices live. One steps back to see the whole picture, but there's always a 'missing puzzle piece'... - It is the One that's looking. Burning is the desire to see The Sun.

Rocking out to this right now: It's a-m-a-z-i-n-g. What have you been shakin' yo booty to lately?

Been melting into this tonight;

@allislove @Nahm ❤ A cool mantra that seems to be very helpful; 'It's safe to relax now.'

It 'started' itself. It is itself. And its purpose is to be. Being. Awareness is only ever aware of Being.

'This' is already too much ?

@Mannyb Beautiful, thank you. Care to say a bit more about these words; Thanks! Definitely can relate. I'd say it's something one can become directly conscious of. I'd also say that that is the essence of our communication. Not so much on a verbal, as much as on a energetic/soul level. It is an exchange of information that - more often than not - goes completely unnoticed. Would not say that ignorance and delusion is enlightenment, but it's definitely a part of the whole. Yes. I'd describe it as something natural once one starts seeing The Self in others. It comes down to Love towards the totality of Life. Simply put; the game one's played 'internally' in order to liberate themselves; now continues on a grander scale - a higher level. Everyone and everything is The Self now. The One. I'd also add that the realization of this is not nearly the same as the actual practice of consciously loving and helping everyone. It's one thing to have a brief glimpse of The Self in all...and another to relate to everyone as to The Self that they are - in real time. It is the difference between an enlightenment experience and an enlightened being/living - I'd say. Much love to you!

Lovely. Thanks everyone. I'm thinking; due to our interconnectedness, it is very possible to share certain information, plant seeds - if you will - that could trigger an awakening in others. One may not be able to awaken another directly, but inspiring them to look deeper within themselves can surely be done. I am at a point where duality and nonduality interplay constantly. I cannot deny the appearance and/or experience of individualism. Nor can I deny that it's all One, infinite and eternal. The boundaries are made out of the very same substance as all else is. Consciousness. But that does not mean that these boundaries are an error or serve no purpose. Imo; an individual - call it a 'dream character' - can gain access to Source and 'channel' information into the realm of many. He acts as a vessel - in that sense. A conductor. That is why I'd argue that spreading Light - from that standpoint - is indeed possible. One is forever complete and whole. But many may not know they're One. Ultimately; the only thing that can change is experience. And I don't see why we wouldn't want to experience Heaven - Together as One.

You're fine. It's a phase. Typical when it comes to overcoming trauma. Focus on the little things. One step at a time. Do some research on healing from CPTSD.