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@integral I suppose that's true, yup. Funny how someone being genuine and transparent about their experience seems like grandiosity to some of you, yet when people call you names and act like savages you call that being real and intelligent, even.

@traveler Are you trying to say I'm stupid or lacking IQ? Or not stupid enough? ? Not quite sure about that one. There's plenty of extremely successful people who have the emotional maturity of a 12yr old or less.

@DreamScape One ❤

@Shin I'm trying my best not to ?

Simple. We see value in them.

Been there. Not fun. Self-judgement. That's the cage. Inquire. It was so in my case, at least. Releasing it...is a journey on its own. But it can be done. And its awesome.

Sheeesh

Oh man. I can only imagine the pain. Have you considered a prostitute? I understand it's not what you'd prefer, but it might help you blow off some steam. Release some of that built up tension and anxiety. And you could really get into finding a prostitute that resonates with you. That will not make you too nervous or anything. You could even open up yourself briefly to her about your situation. It could actually be a very pleasant experience. Once you 'get it out of your system' (I doubt once would be enough) you'd be more capable of coming up with a plan on how to deal with this issue and stick to it. But be careful, if you do this. That could easily become your next addition. And you would not evolve. Still; better than pixels on a screen for an eternity - I guess ? Best of luck.

@Bogdan Now there is truth to that. Maybe I'm just having one of those days. So I felt like going that extra mile to put my point across. I get it. The message is too loud so you think it's about me lol. I rest my case now ?

@Bogdan See, that is the exact point where things get twisted around. YES Absolutely it is all Love. All God. And it can look and feel like anything. And NO that is not a license for one to be a dick and then call themselves enlightened. That is why it's called being conscious. Precisely because you act consciously. Would you punch yourself in the balls for fun? Since it's all Love... Would you rape a newborn? Since it's all God? I hope not. Because you are conscious enough not to act in such a demonic way. Because you have empathy. Compassion. Common sense, even. The same way; some are conscious enough to know what being rude and disrespectful does to you and others. So it's simply not an option. Unless you're having one of those days. It happens to the best of us. But it's nowhere nearly ok or preferable. It's a slip. Going unconscious.

Beautiful ❤ Music is Love. Music is God.

@Thought Art You absolutely truly believe that being rude, disrespectful and even abusive is what being conscious and loving means? Like for real? I'm fascinated by this right now. Mind blown. It's incredible just how deep and how far the devil will go to twist and turn things in order to survive.

@Bogdan Bullshit, sorry. I stand for Love. I die for Love. Survival my ass.

@Bogdan No. That's your assumption. What pisses me of is people spitting all over each other and calling it Enlightenment.

Ayooo ??

Good point. But how about turning that around? What if more love, kindness and general compassion could heal the gut issues - or anything else for that matter? I'm not trying to pick on Leo directly. I am nowhere near in that position. I have mad respect for him. But I do disagree with some of his ways. In my eyes; this thread is about how young, ignorant seekers who misunderstood a few teachings justify and perpetuate low consciousness behaviour in the name of Nonduality. In the name of God. And that pisses me off, hard. I ain't afraid to admit it. I care about how people think of and view all this. It matters to me that all of this goes in the right direction. The only true direction. Love, respect and compassion. I'm not yet in a position to influence or guide larger masses. But I sure as hell will stand for Truth to the best of my abilities. Even if it's in a form of bitching and moaning on the internet.

Bunch of 12yr old girls with sand in their vaginas thinking they're enlightened. There, I said it. Feels good? Is that what you think all of this is about? Embracing our dickhead-ness? Because nothing matters and so what? If yes; you're more deluded than someone who knows nothing about any of this. More asleep than someone who never even heard of awakening. Grow up. Heal your traumas. Set an example. Don't keep coming up with excuses to justify your inability (lack of awareness) to act with kindness and compassion. Bitches.

@Thought Art I'm not talking about ass kissing. And I'm not talking about the 'common herd'. I'm pointing towards the supposedly higher consciousness folks.

What if I told you... Nobody is a jerk by nature. It's a learned behaviour. A coping mechanism. A disconnection between one's mind and heart. Thoughts and feelings. Words and actions. It's a form of delusion. Dissociation. Accepting your 'negative' traits is cool, but that doesn't mean it's a justification for acting like a grumpy 15yr old. I ain't judging anyone. You do you. Just don't fool yourself into thinking you've reached the top of the mountain. What you know means shit if your heart is shut down.

@Mason Riggle Gottcha. But still.

One cannot be too wise to be loving and compassionate. If you view kindness as weakness; there is a lot to be learned yet. I definitely sense an imbalance between Leo's intellect and his heart. But that's just me.

So last night I had sex with this girl...and it was pretty bad. Empty, boring and kinda awkward. There was no real connection. It was just flesh rubbing against flesh. Now I'm left feeling unsatisfied and kinda dirty. I'm disappointed in myself for getting involved with this girl that I didn't even like really - just for the purpose of busting a nut. (Which I didn't. Could not cum. Was struggling to remain hard, even) I've been contemplating a bit and came to a conclusion that I'm unable to just have casual sex with random girls. It might've worked in the past; but now I'm looking for something deeper. I don't want to have meaningless sex. I want to make love. I want to feel that connection. To merge with another's soul. However; finding a partner for that is a bit more challenging than just picking up random girls. I ended a pretty serious relationship not that long ago. And I had this idea that I'd be single now and fool around with girls for a while. In my mind the idea seemed cool. But when it came down to actually doing it; it didn't feel right. I don't feel ready for a new, full-blown relationship now. And I also cannot just have random sex. So I'm guessing the only right thing to do is...to just drop it all for some time. Focus on other areas of life. It will most likely be challenging. I'd say I'm very sexual by nature. But I know it's the right thing to do. No sex until I fall in love with someone again. Curious if anyone here went through something similar? Speaking mainly to men... but maybe even some women went through a similar transformation. Do share your experience, please. Thanks!

Yup. Feeling the void these days, hard ? But also; filling it with new, epic goodness. I never used sex as a tool to stroke my ego. I used it as an escape from my ego. I got addicted to losing myself in the act. The feeling. It's like ecstasy. Oh yeah. For sure, dear. It's a blessing in disguise. If I got a penny everytime I said that; I'd be a millionaire ? There is no in-between when it comes to love.

@James123 Still; even 4hrs of regular meditation is pretty impressive. Good for ya ?

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