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@Leo Gura Well I guess then it's just a risk I'm willing to take. I think a harmony between those two worlds can be established. They can coexist. Let's see what happens... If nothing else; I can always burn it all to the ground and start over. Lol.

@WaveInTheOcean Lovely! Thank you! Yes. But no. ? Exploring is wonderful. And in a sense; it's forever. But you could be out on the vast, endless ocean - not knowing where the wind might take you... yes you might stumble upon a lot of beauty.. but that's different from learning how to navigate the waters and actually get to a land you'd like to see and explore. Feel me? ?

@Surfingthewave Great stuff! Thank you! Those bastards! ? (KRKs are wonderful btw!) Don't be funny now, Leo. Like I could just accidentally 'forget' about my greatest mission and highest calling ? And it's not that I'll be completely putting aside music or disconnecting from that part of me. I'm just going to be a bit more focused on business for a while now. In the meantime; I'm still going to play around and experiment with different styles and voices. Also; it's not like I hate the idea of doing business. I spent a lot of time finding the right kind of business - that resonates with me. One that I still feel excited and passionate about. It's just not my biggest passion. It's not what I'd die for or without lol. Thank you for your input tho! I know you've kinda chosen the same route back then. And something tells me; you're not regretting it. Hard work, dedication, discipline, commitment, vision... All the things I'm putting a great emphasis on in this period. @seeking_brilliance I hear ya! Kinda ventured outside of the domains I'm most familiar with long ago haha. I'm exploring a lot. But I don't want to be just exploring forever - if you know what I mean. @One Day @Human Mint Thank you very much! We in this together! We got this! ? @Inva That was awesome. Yup. I feel that deep down. I know it in my heart. But still; it's kinda frustrating haha. Totally. I know what you're saying is true. It's just that it's kind of an uncomfortable spot to be in for me right now haha. Maybe the discomfort will soon dissolve. Or maybe I'll just learn how to flow with it. But right now; it's kinda getting on my nerves haha. Anyways. Thank you for your suggestions. Wonderful info. Big chance I might reach out somewhere down the road. Peace! Tried that - trust me. I ended up going down some weird hippy rabbit hole ?

It can be healthy or helpful short term, but it can quickly and easily turn into toxicity. You are not bigger than anything. Nothing is bigger than you.

It's really simple. If you don't know how to connect with and take care of someone - don't have a 'pet'. Or a kid. Lol

@VeganAwake Whatever man.. You do you. Or don't. Not my business. All I'm saying here is... that it is possible to know a lot about awakening and at the same time not be awake - at all. Peace.

@Shin That's the term.

@VeganAwake That's the same as saying; Driving a car is an illusory phenomena. A car doesn't actually exist so I don't have to learn how to drive it. Also; there is no wrong direction. No red lights and no stop signs. I can just run people over and maybe even hit a tree - fullspeed. It's all just an illusion - after all. But it's all love ❤ namaste

I know, my man ? But I'm in the heat of the moment and I wanted to prove my point. So I seized the opportunity ?

@Nahm Are you saying it isn't true? ? Let's just take this sub for example. Nearly everyone knows how to parrot the common 'There is no me and no you, it's all an illusion, I'm God and I'm imagining you all' business. But how many of those individuals know how to love and heal their own hearts? How many of them know how to hold space for someone in pain? How many know how enlightenment feels, moves, walks, listens and talks? Very few - I'd say. I'll ask you when your wife and children die in front of your eyes ? Just because it's ultimately all a fiction; doesn't mean we should all be emotionally dumb(or numb) and call ourselves enlightened. Most 'enlightened' folks here are terrified to death of feeling. But they sure memorize all the hot phrases as fast as they can. I see what I see ?‍♂️

Excuse me enlightened one. Did not see you there.

Hmmm. I wonder... Is it because you remember or because you don't? ? Either way; nothing to stop you from doing anything at all. That's the point.

I like how these thoughts feel. Try them out: Imagine yourself sitting at the table and drinking shots of some nice Russian vodka. One shot after another. You really love how that vodka makes you feel. After a while; you start hallucinating - big time. You speak to characters that are not really there. You argue with them about your thoughts and views. You cry, you laugh, you masturbate. A lot. And you keep doing that on repeat. Until one day; after what seemed like an eternity - you run out of vodka. It's just gone. There's no possible way for you to get it. No way for you to keep on being drunk. *enter a slow and painful sobering phase* ?rude awakening? You are freaking out. You are completely dumbstruck. You have no idea what's going on. You start feeling sick. Or better yet; you start becoming aware of how poisoned you are. It feels like you're dying. You cannot remember anything but sitting at that table, drinking vodka and talking to imaginary characters. And now you're questioning all of that. Because... no more vodka. No more poison. You desperately try and grip onto your memories of being drunk. You're battling your own thoughts. Trying to prove to yourself that what you've been doing all this time was real and important. But you cannot shake the sense that that's not true. You are slowly becoming more and more sober. And some sober thoughts start entering your mind. You go through a huge existential crisis and extreme withdrawals. You cry, you laugh, you masturbate. A lot. But this time; you do it kinda sober. You do it semi-consciously. Until one day; inevitably - all the poison evaporates from your system. You are completely sober now. Completely conscious. Coherent. Present. Sharp. Awake. You no longer see imaginary stuff. You no longer hallucinate. You surrendered yourself to Truth. To what is..: You are all alone - sitting in an empty room. You spend another eternity this way... You don't even remember what it's like to be drunk anymore...and then - out of nowhere -you hear a distant voice saying: 'Maybe I should have a shot of whiskey'

@Eren Eeager Because you can.

@The0Self One couldn't believe how simple it is ?

@Shin No. It's a love story. Fiction. ?

I'd like to jump in on this one if I may. Because I can relate to what you're describing there. Oh man. The depths to which you can go with that. It nearly drove me crazy haha! It is possible to perceive reality as an infinite amount of screenshots passing through awareness - not quite but almost at the speed of Light. Almost; because only Light itself is travelling at the speed of Light (consciousness). So its always one step ahead - so to speak. One tiny little, micro-nano-mili-whatever second behind. If you look reaaaally closely; you will find that your perception of reality is always lagging - a tiniest little bit. Meaning; you are not perceiving reality in real time. All that being said (and there's much, much more) - this too collapses at some point. Because it is a duality. It requires an observer that observes reality. That takes the snapshots - if you will. That perceives. Once perception dissolves into Beingness; there is no more lag. No more billions of snapshots flashing in your face. Only pure, whole and one isness. Unity.

Kittens come from giraffes!

@aurum @Space Thank you both so much! It's great to know that someone can relate to this. It relaxes the mind. Some great points you both made there. Yup. Making a living by creating music was my initial idea. And I attempted to actualize it. But it quickly became obvious to me that splitting money and creativity into two separate domains is smarter. I hated the feeling of creating art under pressure - just because I knew I had to earn some money somehow. I like the way things are now unfolding. In the long run; the business I'm doing does not contradict or suppress my creative side. It's only now - in this transitional phase - that it requires an extra push. More energy and dedication. Hopefully, somewhere in the near future; business will require max an hour or so of my attention per day. Yup. Can definitely relate. I do tend to gravitate towards slower and calmer waters now. I'm kinda working on some light, atmospheric acoustic stuff mixed with poetry/story-telling. No singing. Only reciting in a smooth, buttery tone of voice haha. I like the idea. But it still feels like that's not quite it. I feel like my skills do not truly shine and my true capabilities do not show. I come from a very technically-focused background. Organized chaos haha. But I totally feel ya on this not being a mind thing. There's nothing to figure out, actually. I just have to play and experiment. Have fun. Until something eventually clicks. Yup. Consistency is key - definitely. And I did notice in my experience what you're pointing towards here. I guess that the 'not so pretty' side of being an artist that the common masses never get to see haha. Yes. Failure. Crap. I must embrace that aspect and run towards it ? Well, that comes down to what 'lots of money' is to you haha. But I totally get what you mean. In the past; I had some decent, basic equipment. Nothing too fancy. But it got the job done, pretty well. I doubt I spent more than 5k on everything combined. But thing is; a few years ago I sold everything I had to be with this girl and move to the other side of the globe with her haha. All that equipment was too heavy lol. And I was blindly in love. Tried to sell my soul for that relationship too. - Thankfully; it didn't work haha. As I said; I lost a lot in that period. Only recently gained back some financial stability. And I don't think I should stop now. Thankfully I've been educating myself and developing my skills when it comes to business for a while now. So it's not like I'm just beginning with this. My equipment is pretty much trash - atm haha. But at least it allows me to stay in touch with that part of me. So yeah, not aiming to spend ridiculous amounts on stuff. But 2 or 3 decent guitars, a powerful PC, a good mic, midi controllers, monitors and some basic room treatment can easily add up to well over 10k. And that's not within my reach just yet. Not to mention that all the millions of plugins and sound libraries out there are not that cheap, either. If you're looking for high quality - ofcourse. I hear you and I agree. But still; Imma go for that upgrade, too. Haha. It resonates too much. Not only because I'd be able to finance my 'glow-up' and invest into my passion, but also because I feel like I'd be going under yet another process of self-discovery by choosing that path. It feels like I must integrate that aspect of myself. And something tells me; it will have a very positive affect on my creative endeavors, too. Peace.

How did you come to that conclusion? Can you see how that is just a belief you adopted? If everyone was telling you your whole life that you're a dolphin - that's what you'd believe. Until one day you'd randomly wake up from that idea. You'd see it for what it is. Just an idea in your mind. 'God' is beyond belief. It's beyond any assumption or conclusion. I'm assuming it's because he faced death directly. I don't know. There's no real way for me to confirm that. But I can relate to a lot of stuff he's saying. 'The answer cannot be found in the writing of others or the words of a trained mind'

Segregation ultimately leads to unity. It's just two ways of (re)integrating - as you pointed out. Becoming whole and at peace. Example A must push away an aspect, create a 'safe distance', maybe even ridicule and demonize it - until one day it inevitably recognizes 'the other side' as a part of itself and merges back with it. Example B seems to already have the intuition or awareness of being One with the 'other side'. Or at least in the process of merging with it. It recognizes itself in the mirror - so to speak. Hence the heightened level of compassion and respect. Both examples are leading to the same 'outcome'. It all comes down to what's relevant to the one going through the journey.

What you fail to comprehend is that there is no before and no after. You already died. Or you will never die. Look at it as you wish. Maybe an easier way to look at this is by imagining yourself both dead and born at the same time. That's pretty much how it is. You were born and you died in the very same moment. Impossible? Exactly. Humans are not conscious. 'Humans' is an idea. Consciousness is humans - if anything.

This is not a dream. That's just a lens that helps you detach from the materialist's paradigm. It works for a while, but inevitably; it too must be surrendered. Anything you conclude about 'it' is not really it. Since that automatically creates a duality. Reality(1) is a dream(2). No. Reality is reality and a dream is a dream. Actuality is neither. It's actuality. Pure beingness and no thought about it. No observer, no perspective, no lens, no filter, no belief. Only beingness.