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@StarStruck Gottcha. Know what you mean. It's just a red flag to me. I find it quite repulsive. Which is awesome, since I used to be attracted to it for a while.

So in light of the recent discussions on the forum... I thought this had to be highlighted. It's not like either you're a strong macho dick, you cut to the case, take no bullshit and play no games Or You're a timid, sweet, kind and overly friendly, people-pleasing carebare. No. Those are two polarities and they can be integrated. They can be mixed and balanced. You can be kind, loving, compassionate, funny and interesting, but also a hardcore, badass motherfucker - at the same time. Watch and learn: This is of course just one such example. I happened to be a big fan of Dev. I'm sure there are many more examples of a well balanced energy like this. Please do share; if someone pops up in your mind.

Finance before romance ? More success should result in more dating options, naturally. It's just not smart to chase success for that reason - imo. Do it for yourself. For your wellbeing and comfort. The rest will follow.

Yes I can ?

@ll Ontology ll @StarStruck I ain't talking about pickup here. Rather; integration in general. Embodiment - if you will. But while we're at it; picking up girls by acting like a douchebag is low consciousness af. If a chick needs you to be a dick in order to keep interest in you... run and don't look back ? And I'm not pointing towards personality either. Rather; a vibrational attitude. I imagine the oscillation ends once the integration is completed ?

Except that can easily become toxic. So yeah, it is quite special- imo. It's art ?

@ll Ontology ll So you do stand for something, after all... ? You do have some values.. Cool.

@ll Ontology ll Curious... Are you a hyperian?

@ll Ontology ll Damnit. I thought you wanted to dance ?

@ll Ontology ll And you're the one having a problem with something that supposedly doesn't exist. Get it?

@LastThursday Precisely! ... Unless you are reality. No need to see anything then.

@ll Ontology ll There's a picture in my mind and some legos in front of me. I'm just building my vision.

@ll Ontology ll Thank you for your input. Do not exactly understand why you are concerned with the fact that I'm playing around with the persona/illusion though. Are you trying to save me from something or...? I enjoy this. It's a project I like working on. I'm passionate about it. Yeah I get frustrated sometimes during the process, but that's just part of the game.

@cle103 Awesome! Thank you!

Here's another good one:

Wow.. This escalated real nice. So much awesomeness. So much goodness. You guys are golden! Thanks!

@Heaven Glad to hear that! (To answer your previous question); Yes. I feel much, much better. Stronger, more centred and grounded. Clear-headed. I also laugh a lot more and enjoy everyday life. I'm at peace with where I'm at and where I'm headed. Occasionally I feel a bit down or overwhelmed. But that's nothing some nice relaxation can't fix. In short; the worst is far behind me.

I'm not saying it's the same thing lol. But if one is unable to form a healthy bond; both options are out of the picture. Mechanically speaking; the process of bonding is the same. No matter who or what you're bonding with and in what style. Also; you could have a relationship with your pet that's totally unique. You could spend your time teaching it how to survive alone in the wilderness - for example. Turn it into a highly intuitive and intelligent beast that can survive extreme conditions and scenarios. And then when the day comes; you release your 'pet' into the unknown. It might be a stupid example; but you get what I mean. There is no one right way to relate to your pet. It can look like anything. As long as your intentions are pure. Your pet is teaching you things, too. You just have to see it. The same way; there are children that never grow up and leave their parents house. And that act just like pets. They meow or bark at their caretaker to give them food. Or money. Also; animals do speak to us, directly. Lol. They just don't use the language people use among each other. Perhaps that's an advantage. They speak to us on an emotional level. They make suggestions. They hint to what they're trying to convey. It's kinda telepathic lol.

Thanks. I don't use it anymore. But I believe I recorded that with an Ibanez Tam10. The tone was created in Positive Grid Bias. Still; I kinda messed it all up in the mixing stages. The production is quite messy. But the heart is there.

There is no question about it. I'm getting that money and I'm investing it in myself and my passion. I'm going to travel, meet and collaborate with awesome people and live the dream I created for myself. What I'm really lacking is that final ounce of certainty and confidence. And maybe some faith.

Nope. Impossible. Pause. Take a look around. Reorient. Continue rocking out.

Check this out. It's an old project of mine that never really got to see the light of the day. I was in a mess while working on it. I failed utterly to release and market it properly. So I kinda left it there - as it was. Nearly no one knows abou it. But it means a world to me. It's a journey filled with horror and delight. It was a catalyst to my highest awakening. And it never got the recognition it deserved. Because I lacked the skills and the resources. Cannot let that happen again. I present you the most unique stuff I've created so far. Porcelain Safe - Note To Self;

@seeking_brilliance ? Bingo! That's exactly where I'm at right now. And that's kind of a process ?

Teaching and learning are kinda one and the same.

@seeking_brilliance Been a while since I last did... But yes. Definitely. Right now tho; I'm out in the open and not sure where to steer the ship next. I know there is a 'genre' or 'style' out there - or in here - that I never really heard before and that I've been searching for all this time. I'll know when I hear it.