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No fucking way! I go out to take short break from work.. and what do I see? Fucking J and fucking K talking to each-other! Man, life sure has its ways... haha! It was awkward for a few moments, but the air cleared fast. J knows I fucked K. I told her a while ago. But I'm not sure if K knows I'm fucking J now. Man... what a movie.

A girl I had sex with last summer stopped by my workplace earlier. Everything seemed cool. No weirdness or anything. I hope to see that happen with all of my 'fuck buddies' in the future. I really believe any form of nastiness or awkwardness can be avoided in these types of situations. Just, again... Honesty, communication, boundaries, respect, awareness... Then it's all doable.

Cool. Thanks. Just don't forget that all this is extremely personal/subjective. Other men might not think and feel the same way, at all. Even I will not stay at this stage when it comes to sex. Pretty sure of that. Interesting. I did not call all that many girls in my life 'sluts'. And whever I do; it's always with a girl I'm deeply connected with. I doubt I could do it with a girl I barely know. The word was always spoken out of love, too. Yes, there is a certain level of dominance implied, but that does not mean I'm being cruel, abusive or disrespectful towards the girl. It's pretty much tha same as calling her 'my little angel'... I love my little sluts. Regarding sexual power... I have a question for you. Do you think it's men or women who abuse their sexual power more? Weaponize it and use it as a tool for manipulation? I have some experience.. That's why I ask.

@Hulia Yeah, I do not have a dog. I'm not in that position now. I plan to travel a lot. And I already live a very fast-paced lifestyle. A dog is a big responsibility. Most people have no idea what they're doing when it comes to 'owning a pet'.

I'm cool with a lot of things... but calling dogs 'disgusting' is just over the line. You really do remind me of my ex @Hulia She too spoke nonsense like that, often. Out of her own stupid sense of superiority. She felt so inferior she needed to make everyone look less than in her presence. Even dogs lol. She said the exact same thing... 'it's disgusting how they submit to people and serve them, obey them, etc...' It's no surprise; she herself did not posses those qualities. She was far from being loyal. Far from knowing how to serve someone selflessly. How to obey certain rules... In that sense; a dog was more advanced and developed than she was. Funny, isn't it? But it's also sad. Very, very sad.

Well, well, well...

@Surfingthewave Another thing - just to soothe your mind, or anyone else's who's freaking out... Those 'little sluts' who are into BDSM, love being called 'little sluts'. It's a fucking role-play, obviously. I'm not insulting or harming anyone here.

@Hulia Awesome. I love chess. And seeing her being all into it was indeed very hot. So much fun. There's actually a lot of stuff in my stories that have little to nothing to do with sex. It's called 'life'.

Thanks for expressing your worries @Surfingthewave First of all; massive projections and misinterpretations of my stories. Clearly; you're triggered, heavily. I'd look into why is that. What's up with all the judgement and close-mindedness? It is indeed 2021. Sex is not something to be ashamed of. I am gaining massive clarity and understanding of my sexuality. How I'm wired. What turns me on. How I am able to seduce, to please, to love. So yeah... There is massive self-actualization going on here. It's just not the kind you're used to seeing. Furthermore; I discovered how passionate I am about writing erotic stuff. I think I could get real good at it. Maybe even earn some money with it. I would not become aware of that; had I not started this diary. Why is this public and online - you ask? Well... why is anything? Why do you post here about anything, at all? Why do people share any experience of theirs here? To get feedback, obviously. To learn. To grow. To become a better version of themselves. To gain more awareness. Also; self-expression. Duh. Freedom. Sex is not an exception. It's an area that requires a lot of attention. Unless you want to keep hiding in the shadows and deny that aspect of your being. There's nothing worse than losing touch with your sexuality. I've been there. I felt dead as dead can be. Besides all that, I am practicing and demonstrating massive transparency here. Honesty. Vulnerability. Etc. How many of you would be cool with going into deep detail about your sex-life, publicly? How many of you would have the skill to articulate and express it this eloquently? Very few - I'd say. If any. Don't you think that indicates a certain level of self-transcendence? I could not write this clearly and this openly about my experiences, if I was all caught up in the conditioning of my mind. I'd die of shame if I was to think like the common masses. - Which you seem to be the voice of, at this moment. Not to mention all the stuff that those who do not get laid often (or at all) can extract and learn from here. The benefits are endless. But it's hard to see them over your own bullshit. J knows I post about sex here. She does not know I go this deep into detail, but so what? I'm not giving full names here, or any other information of these girls. That being said; I'm sure she'd get all hot if she was to read it and jump on me immediately. Not all people live in caves.

I've always had a very strong sense of justice. Equality. Fairness. Integrity. Truth. I'm having a hard time turning my cheek on injustice whenever I notice it. My natural impulse is to stand up and speak The Truth. As well as defend and give voice to the weak and powerless. Sometimes in a chill and polite way, other times in a loud and heated way. But recently I've been noticing how some of those battles are simply not mine to be fought. I would achieve little to nothing... I would cause no real change. Perhaps just add more turmoil and anarchy. It's so damn frustrating sometimes... How do you go about all this? How do you deal with injustice when done to you or someone in your presence? Thanks!

Ko mi tebe uzeee, Tamaraaa? Ijaooo udri!

@Hulia For now; the spotlight is all hers.

Touché I consider you three my new best friends. I hope you're aware of that. And I'm especially glad that @Hulia is the first and the biggest fan of my upcoming erotic novel. Love you guys. Keep rocking. It's 25 °C here. I ain't complaining.

@Consilience Very cool! Thanks!

I never thought I'd see people talking about the weather on this forum. What a trip.

@Tim R Thank you ❤ @BlackMaze It has its place, for sure. Ideas are fun. However; Truth is not an idea. 'Something can be interesting, but not helpful.' @QandC I thought there is no such thing as 'death' ?

@gettoefl Thanks for sharing that. I empathize with you. I assume it was not easy. Bottom line is; we're both just living different lifestyles, I guess. So the same 'rules' do not apply. The same views and ideas might not be relevant. Wish you all the best. And thanks again.

...and of course; our eyes locked in again, just before I was leaving my workplace. God, I will fuck this girl so damn good... She has no idea what she's in for. I asked for her name earlier, but I already forgot... idiot. Man... I fucking love this city. There are so many hot, beautiful, young women here it's ridiculous. I can tell they're checking me out, often. I love catching them staring. It's so cute when they quickly look away. And it's so fucking hot when they don't, and our eyes lock into a moment of eternity. I love life.

Be less, or equally as invested as her.

@Hulia Thanks for the support. If I really gave it my all; she'd be in my bed, tonight. But I'm not there yet. Not on the top of my game, really. But close. Very close.

OMG OMG OMG! I just bumped into that girl I mentioned a few pages ago... The one with those sexy, cat eyes... We spoke for a solid 10 minutes. Flirted a bit, too. She was hot as fuck. Wearing a black mini-skirt and a small, tight, white shirt. I can tell she's a wild animal in bed. Her eyes are pure fire. And she complimented mine, too. She has black hair and is very petite. So, so, so my type. Unless she has a boyfriend or something, she's mine in a few weeks, or less.

@gettoefl Cool. But does not hit the nail for me. @Bodhitree ... like being abandoned by my father at age 3 and then by my mother at age 6? I'd say yes and no.

Welcome! Here's some questions for you; What are your top values? What is something you wish others understood better about you? If you were a place in time, what would it be?

I can still smell her perfume on my pillow.. It's so sweet, so yummy... Ahh, what a girl... what a life.

@Hulia And this is exactly what I'm talking about. Unconscious shitposting. You clearly lack discipline. I could teach you some manners, but I think Zero already volunteered for that. Let's hope he knows a thing or two.