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I'm taking a short break. A breather. I must talk to myself. This is an old pattern. I cannot allow it to continue slipping in. It's going to ruin my game. Or at least; slow down my progress, significantly. It's not a huge mistake. Not at all. It's a 'good loss'. Thankfully; I was smart enough to swallow my pride and admit the error early on. I exited before the price broke through the support level. That could have been a very bad loss. But still, I want to eliminate any remaining bugs. And that work occurs in silence.

@Roy Yes sir! I hear you loud and clear! On it.

Now that I think about it... it would be very cool to have an experience with a more mature woman. Like 40 to 45ish. I'd be very, very down for that. Might start putting in some effort. I'm sure there are a few ladies out there, thirsty of young men in their prime.

I've never actually dated girls way outside my age group. I mean; been in relationship with them. All of my exes were a year or two younger than me. So it's not like I'm used to going for way younger girls. Since my last relationship I've been with two 19yr olds, and then a few years ago I had sex with a woman in her early 30s. That's as crazy as I went, so far. Keep in mind... This is still about exploration and experimentation. Like, a lot. The emphasis is hard on trying out new things. But in a responsible and harmless way.

Note to self: Man... It's about fucking time you stop living life, walking on eggshells. You do not owe an explanation to anyone. And you do not need to justify shit.

@modmyth Hear ya. Thanks for sharing that. It has been happening since forever. Girls, you cannot deny you fantasized of older guys when you were teens. And guys, you cannot deny there's something special about a younger girl. I honestly do believe such a relationship can be healthy and functional. Maybe somewhat limiting, but still. But of course; more often than not - it's not going to be healthy. It's going to be toxic and nasty. But guess what, people survive, learn and grow, even from that. Nearly every girl I ever talked to had a handful of weird experiences when it comes to sex/relationships. So much so, it's kinda normalized. So who's crazy here? I really can't tell anymore. Either we all are, or none of us is. My boss is known for regularly hitting on girls that age. 18, 19... Maybe even younger. He's pretty open about it, too. Does not seem to hide it. Every fucking girl that worked at our place told me she was harassed by him. But, eventually, he backs off, if the girl has strong boundaries and can show some teeth. He's even been to court for stuff like that, I heard. But it's like nothing happened. Money talks. He's 45. Has a daughter that's 18. And he regularly hits on girls that age, hard. Now that's kinda sick. Even for a chillaxed dude like me. A brilliant movie comes to mind related to this topic... I remember loving it back in the day. I might re-watch it, one of these days. It's called 'American Beauty'. Absolutely love this soundtrack: Such a masterpiece! So delicate, so light, so beautiful. Pure magic.

Silly numbers... they got my head spinning for a moment there. No joke, sometimes it's hard for me to identify as any age. Do I feel 26, 27? I guess, I don't know... Do I seem like it? You tell me. Sometimes, I feel like I have enough wisdom and clarity to parent 40+ year old people. Let alone my peers. And other times I feel like I'm a 12 year old girl, on the inside. So yeah. Fuck all that crap. It might work and be relevant as a guiding system for others, but I think I'm way past that point. I could operate from a state of giving absolutely zero fucks about how I'm being perceived and how my words and actions are being interpreted. Sometimes, that's very liberating. And incredibly fun, too. But... I do realize that I'm a 'part of society', too. And that I'm sucking on its tits. Hence I must consider certain things. What I'm looking for... is that perfect, healthy balance. Between not giving a crap and being considerate and reasonable. My moral compass/integrity... is completely independent of society and untouched by what anyone thinks. It's private. Yet... there are consequences. I am aware of that.

Better yet, girls in their mid twenties are into guys in their 30s, or older. Truth is, rarely any girl is dating a guy her own age.

Another huge reason; a lot of girls from 24 onwards are already looking for a 'serious' relationship and are not into hookups, really. So yeah, as I said, I'd prefer from 19 upwards. 21 sounds the best to me. But that does not mean an 18 year old might not slip through. And of course; I've got nothing against women in their 30s, either. I'm all open for that. It's just that they're not, usually. They're too occupied thinking about kids, house, mortgage... the usual stuff.

@Etherial Cat I hear ya. But here's the thing... if I do get an opportunity with a 19 or even 18yr old, I'll probably do it. At least in this phase of my life... I can see how long term that could be an issue... but I think I've got nothing to fear in a few months of adventures. If there's anyone who can regret anything down the line here, it's me. Another way to look at it.. if we look weird or inappropriate side by side, it's probably really inappropriate. But if we look like we could easily be in the same age group, I'd say it's not that weird, after all. Like, my mother's boss is over 60 and he's dating a 24 year old. I find that far more disgusting and inappropriate than my case. I also emphatize with any of your bad or traumatic experiences that you girls had in your teenage years... but that, at the end of the day, has nothing to do with me and my ways. Would I consider a relationship with a girl that age? Absolutely not. I would not consider a relationship with most girls, at this point. But would I have some casual fun time with them? Most likely, yup. Unless it's a special case and there's clearly something very wrong with how the girl is thinking. Most of these younger girls just want a cool experience. A guy who knows how to make them feel what they fantasize about. That's all. Some are looking for their daddies, too... But that's a whole new level of fucked up.

Do you guys think 18/19 is still too young for a 26yr old dude? Talking about sex, only. Not a relationship. If yes; then I guess I'm a bit pedo lol. Guilty of having sex with two 19 year olds, recently. I know this is a pretty delicate topic, but whatever, I'll be direct. I don't know where do you guys live, but here, girls that age are mostly hooking up with guys in their mid twenties. Or older. Sometimes, much older. My thoughts are; either she has sex with me and I make her feel like she's in heaven, treat her with respect and kindness... Or I reject her, she goes and finds another older dude and fucks him. And he might not treat her as I would. He could easily abuse her, hurt her, etc. In fact; mostly likely - that's what would happen. So yeah, 17 is too young... But where do you draw the line, and why?

Well that was stupid. It was a fake-out. Price dipped like crazy. Nearly lost all my profit from the previous trade. It's pretty much a break-even day. Do not fucking trade on impulse! And do not fucking deviate from your system! Don't be greedy!

Samo napred

It's all cool guys. I already approached another girl

@Etherial Cat @Roy You speak the true-true. It's hard AF, because I'm still kinda getting used to receiving this much attention from girls, and also this whole pick up game... So yeah, of course it's hard. And she's not making it any easier. She's coming on strong. Telling me all the reasons why I should not worry and it's all cool. Not to mention that she's absolutely bonkers hot.

Re-bought the correction/dip for a few extra pips.

Yeah, I hear ya guys... You're right...

On one hand, it would be kinda twisted... 10 years difference is cool, but not if she's under 18. Yeah, I would not be doing anything criminal here, and it's not like she's not familiar with dick, already... but socially/morally, I know it would be very unacceptable. Then again, I never gave to many fucks about society and what it thinks... It could be kinda cool to challenge those beliefs a bit. I guess it's totally my call... But I cannot decide yet... I'm so turned on, but it's also a bit cringy. Fuck!

I exited right on a hot resistance level. If the price breaks through this level, and I get a solid confirmation - I'm going long.

14.6% growth in just two trades. Nice!

Trade closed on Wednesday, 2:23PM. Again, just below 50% of ATR in profit. Beautiful! I might've exited a bit too soon, again... But as long as I'm green, I'm not stressing too much.

@Applegarden8 You sing, bro? @Roy Wait, I'm not entirely sure if I understand your message.. could you dumb it down? Man... Since I woke up, all I can do is think of that fresh, tight, young pussy... Fuck! Am I broken? Why am I this attracted to her? She says I'm not her first older guy... And her family is also used to it... What the fuck do I do here?

@Preety_India May you be blessed, and I wish you all the luck and fortune.

I've done some digging... and I think she's 17. So yeah... I'm gonna have to NOPE. She's a beautiful girl and all, and I know 16+ is legally ok in this country, but it just does not feel right. I'd be feeling like I'm taking advantage of her,a bit too much. Not gonna lie... it's kinda hard, because the animal inside me wants to fuck her brains out... but I must listen to the voice of reason here. Even 18 is too young, but I'd consider. After all, it's just sex. But less than that just feels a bit too off. There's plenty of options. Sorry cutie.

I don't know about you, but if I was in your shoes, I'd make it my life mission to get out of that spot, and give it my all. Then, possibly, preach and inspire change, once I get out.