White Monk

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  1. So about a 3-4 days ago I decided to sit with about 2.55 grams of Golden Teacher mushrooms, magic mushrooms obviously. It was quite the learning experience. For context, day to day I am a pretty motivated and very clear guy. Im doing Kriya yoga everyday as my practice, workout out at least a few times a week, running my own business, investing, overall very busy and somewhat successful, mostly due to spirituality. Still that says nothing about who I am, but it's a good context for where I am in life as a 28 YO male. Nonetheless over the past weeks at least one time a week I have been experimenting with psychedelic mushrooms. Trying to be a bit more mathematical and calculated in my approach as well as respectful to them as a medicine. So slowly Ive been going up from 1.2 Grams, 1.5 grams, 1.8 grams , 2 gram, now 2.3grams. Its also funny because some of my trips with less weight have had a deeper effect overall, and induced deeper experience of oness and getting to know the universe. This trip was very contemplative and I let the Mushrooms handle alot of the brunt work for me, because thats what they do if you let them. SO the first part of the trip was very mellow and light on the come up I was just watching g the mushroom energy work its way through my chakra system so to speak and seeing it work around my heart area. Next I seen the idea of resentment arise and began to be open to it and play with it, because for the most part I see myself not to be a resentful person for the most part (im not perfect lol). Buttttttttttttt, I started to see flaws in how true I was about that topic. For started I seen my mother and father as obvious subjects to my resentment. But what was underneath the resentment, was pure heartbreak, I was angry at them because it didnt feel like they even tried, and not trying at something produces much much much more suffering. I was angry at them for their suffering. I was angry at them for their terrible choices. but underneath that was just heartbreak, of them and mostly my father not giving a single shit about Love , Truth, ABOUT LIFE. Part of me could have killed him scolded him. But I digested what felt like his karma full of deep sorrows, years of sorrows that he fails to deal with. Felt it all. The trip was beginning to get very deep especially emotionally this time. Feelings went very deep, and my understanding of karma also very much increased, and what feels like a very embodied way. An overall knowing that I need to pull myself out of that situation and any resentful altercation and things that are causing me resentment that otherwise are completely within my control. This moment was quickly interrupted by a phone call which I thought was relatively important, I rarely take phone calls or texts while deep in a trip, especially an emotional one. I was going to tell my friend about what I had just gone through but instead listened to what he needed. He was having trouble because he didn't want to pay for a contractor that recommenced him, and wanted it to be cheaper, but the truth of that situation was that you get what you pay for in almost every industry. Then I simply told him that I could feel his underlying karma, and beliefs around money on a cellular level of not enough ness. It actually taught me allot about money that I already kind of know anyways and that is you get what you pay for, and causing yourself unnecessary headaches, to save a bit of money is never worth it. Never worth it. Theres just too many cheap, lying, indecent, people and especially companies out there. Stick with decency, integrity, fairness. another good piece. That moment passed rather quickly and back to contemplation I went. I dove back into my trip, returning to my spot with my father and felt like I had mostly digested what I needed here and maybe gotten a healthy dose of both reality and empathy. What happened next was the word strength began appearing. Became a topic. I see the need for strength both within myself but also for myself within the current world. From my perspective personally I feel the world, is somewhat of a hell hole filled with many bad things, and heaping, unimaginable amount of unawareness and people who frankly truthfully dont give a shit about awareness. SO for me I see strength being a very necessary thing to be here. Its important for me that the people around me be strong, consistent, integrous, in order to support me in being who I want to be as well. Strength and integrity set in for a while, I began just feeling into those topics deeper and deeper for my own self and how our society has also kind of set up alot of false expectations and false realities for what both of those things mean. What it means to be strong, is definitely not what society deems to be strong, ITS WHAT YOUUUUUU deem to be strong and whole. Begin making your own rules. I also began getting different ideas. I am a musician but I approach it very intuitively, my music is the best when I am the best, so I focus on becoming the best version of myself and my music happens when it feels ready. I composed a few good songs I really liked. It felt natural it felt good also, so I shared them( which I usually do anyways). Creations are meant to be shared and put out there and I am sure about that. The next contemplation was about what I wanted to do in my life. Like, what is the impact that I am wanting to have here, and strength was also tied in with this. I had an idea pop into my mind to form a mens group or at the least create a mens groups that focuses on strength, attention, conciousness, TOGETHERNESS, helloing each other out, and also just being a man. I see a-lot of men who have been robbed of or just completely lost there edge and are lost without it. I then had an image for the logo in somewhat of a animated fashion of an archer pulling back a bow and arrow and releasing it to set on target, which I personally believe I think has most to do with being focused and committed to staying on target, and strong in that. This was one idea that felty like it could work. Another idea that I pondered for a bit was my music and becoming a content creator, with most of out being music. I usually just post voice recordings of my music, ts quick, its easy, and it records in pretty good quality as well. But it's not the highest quality that people want to see. Its like Leo pre-actualized.org. I seen how I could make the quality better but also got a more accurate reflection of my appearance. Overall I feel stunning but there are small pieces of my appearance that lack marketability and put-togetherness. I don't think I was overthinking this piece either. There is ways I could maintain my image a bit better and maintain my external health a bit better. mainly just doing more with my hair. Some days I dont do anything with my hair I am just lazy so I let it go. But I see the effect that can have for how I perceive myself, then obviously how I perceive myself through other. SO I could use some adjusting in that area. I began getting urges to eat and it was between red meat and tuna. I chose tuna, only to reflect on how magnificent a creature the tuna fish is and it pretty clean relatively speaking. Very strong fish and I believe it has a certain kind of strength to it intelligence as a fish. Began seeing images of it jumping and swimming through the water, and boy oh boy did I see how disconnected from the food sources we eat are. Humans live in damn near complete disconnection with anything outside of themselves, as if its not also a valuable or intriguing thing. Beautiful incite and imagery here as well. Tuna=Great fish. Great meal. Tuna sandwiches. I also ate an orange which was deeply nourishing for my system as well. The rest of the trip was relatively smooth and easy nothing too deep just a relaxing comedown and some integration happening. Also began looking into archery because I think there is something there for me as well. I shared this mostly to show people all trips aren't the same it doesn't always have to be some big blow your life away, I am that I am type shit. Sometimes the trips that have real life implications and integrations are the best ones especially for changing your real life. I have literally done every technique spiritually that Leo has shared, psychedelics are by far the best that I have come across, just be willing to face the Truth, at all cost. Theres probably still some work for me in this category, undoubtedly. Keep it grounded, go deep. As for my parents.......I have been around them lately more than I have in years, mainly by choice, because I moved back home for only a few months. But then I started to see the topic of what resentment truly is, and get a deeper understanding of the whole thing. My mom and dad have a VERY, VERY, VERY , toxic relationship, I will leave it at they, of course they aren't alone, alot of people, probably the majority of people have a toxic relationship, wether it be friends or family. My mom loves my dad, my dad is an abusive, alcoholic, pill popping somewhat of a scumbag to keep it concise. On one level I love them, but on another level I can no longer bear to be around their passive aggressive behaviors and inability to digest the TRUTH. I have to go on my own way in order to cut some karmic ties that weigh me down in this area at home.... working on it asap. All of this stuff I have been presently aware of but it just seems so minor I kind of brush it off as , ahhhh it doesnt matter that much, but alot of little stuff ads up to one pain in the neck. Literally.
  2. Do you have a video about selfishness, or rather selflessness and what that truly means? Im curious how you define it
  3. @Leo GuraLeo is this the best one you've found? Ive been using Holosync for about 1 year or so but if there is one better Im intrigued?
  4. what do you think America is Lol
  5. One of the best statements so fa. Also, Im curious if you think socialization has that affect or just the type of mindless, spineless, shallow socialization that has this affect?
  6. LET Leo do his own thing. Jeeze lol. The man isn't doing anything crazy
  7. Yeah Id look into Leo's psychedelics, and use deep discernment when choosing to follow any of these new age teachers and their teachings to be honest some people have no idea what the hell they are talking about and live a life of lies and lack of embodiment. Touch your innermost self and stay with that thread, from here on out. Psychadelics are a good route for that, enlightenment intensives are alright too, if you don't want to use psychs.
  8. Hello, Lately my relationship has seemed very unhealthy, a ton of arguing fighting and int always seems like an upcoming fight, where I find myself not even wanting to relate to my girlfriend because there always seem to be some negativity and reactions. I have been doing my end to uphold my responsibility and being more present through my interactions, but sometimes my heart doesn't feel in it anymore. I don't feel respected, valued, or like I want to play a part in this relationship where the dynamic doesn't feel healthy. I don't know if I can fix it, but my heart is just feeling like ehhhhh.... idk about this, its not on the end that seems flowing, equanimous and easy. I don't know what is goin one but I would like some reflections and input. Relating to her seems to be feeling like such a hassle and not like I am looking forward to it in many ways. Almost looking past it sometimes or questioning what I am doing in it. I think at one point it was very authentic for me but I am not sure that it is anymore. Thanks, White Monk
  9. Hmmmm that’s a good one to sit with for a while, going to retreats that expensive can be pretty tricky with only having that much income every week. go with what feels like is going to pay YOU back the most. Comsiousness and sovereignty over oneself will do that better than anything else can. New apartment could be essential for establishing a safe space for yourself to grow, and 5 MEO could change your whole perspective on life, and the nature of your self. They each have upsides to them.
  10. https://sonmusic7.bandcamp.com/releases My favorite songs Reasons, On my Way (Leo might like this one) , End of the World P.s. what album isn't about enlightenment, it all is it all is New one Lemme know what you think or what you feel, all feedback appreciated, thanks
  11. https://sonmusic7.bandcamp.com/releases This is a song I made about life and my spiritual journey I loved every part of it. I recommend the songs Reasons, End of the World, and On my Way
  12. Hello, I have been procrastinating this for a while now but here's my review of what I have experienced using Inner Engineering, Shakti Chalani Kriya, and Shoonya Meditation, as well as some Hatha to get my body and spine up healthy and mobile to be able to receive increasingly high levels of awareness and sensitivity. First Let me start by saying Inner Engineering is no simply basic technique but a series of very powerful techniques when done with gracefulness has the ability to very rapidly shift the trajectory of your whole life. Had I listened to Leo's review instead of trusting my own source I would have crossed it out of potential techniques that might be great for me. Inner Engineering- The Shambhavi Mahamudra truly has been a miracle during the initiation of Shambhavi and the process of learning the Kriya was relatively simple and I could see the power of it almost immediately. Over the past few months of practicing only Shambhavi one of the biggest things it has done for me was sharpen my intuition like never before it truly feels like walking down the yellowbrick road. It has also really allowed deep levels of spiritual purification which have most manifested as letting go of a-lot of different and painful psychological baggage which has been beautiful overall. I know the reason your reading this you want to know the benefits and effects, but for each person it will be drastically different, especially by how each person approached the technique. One things that has happened is a massive opening in my energies and 3rd eye area, I am soaring with energy and I feel so connected and uplifting for everyone around me which has been another beautiful side effect of it. I could really go on but overall the feeling of balance in my body, mind, emotions, and spirit has been magical. Last note about Kriya Generally which I have not heard anyone comment on is the switch from DOING the kriya practice------> to the Kriya actually starting to do you. This has been a very obvious transition for me and very helpful as well, haven't heard anyone mention this though Shakti Chalani Kriya- Has brought about a more intense sense of bliss relaxation, lightness in my breath and raised my energies to a new peak pretty much every-time I do it. All of the same effects as Shambhavi but on more subtle levels. Overall this has been a pleasure to learn this its a 40 minute Kriya which feels like a turbocharger for raising my perception in every category. Overall great I give both of those programs a 5/5. I think one thing that I really need to comment on is the approach to spiritual practice has to be one of openess and enjoyment don't be torturing yourself with your daily or momentary spiritual practice not worth it. Find a way to approach every practice with a certain sense of openess, relaxation, and gracefullness. Shoonya Meditation- Has quickly brought about rapid de-identification from my mind for me, when I say quick I mean QUICK. So much more rest in my body and heart. This has also allowed more of my natural intelligence to flow through me in magical ways giving me a heightened sense of creativity, energy, and love. Man Does my body love this practice I feel like a limp piece of cooked spaghetti after. Overall if you have been brought to this and have been open to reading it this far you should now by now that these practices can have the exact same effect on you, it may just manifest in different ways, love has flowed through me and continues Peace and love to ME - YOU
  13. Listening to dude like Jim Newman can get you in quite a bit of trouble lol.
  14. I’m at feeling like a 2-3 year old in a grown mans body. But baby mode sounds optimal, the less I know the better lol
  15. That’s funny I was like wow ? but at the same time was like, ....well good for him he must know what he wanted lol
  16. Jack black meets adyashanti
  17. @Consilience thanks for sharing as well I like to hear about these longer contemplative and life changing periods ☯️
  18. @Bluebird you might like a different intensive, they are massively powerful. Especially if you tell the truth, it’s the one place where I’ve seen non psychedelic awakening experiences happen. I heard not good things about Ralston Intensives, not something I’d ever want to be a part of, but glad you learned from it. I’ve had multiple very deep awakening experiences on 3 day retreats, and 2-week retreats I’ve been to most of them. You might like a different teacher honestly, although idk, if you think you can go deeper alone go with that feeling.
  19. @Leo Gura what would be enough? Could you explain what you might suggest to get to the highest level of embodiment? I know kriya yoga is a must, however I’m just curious on what else you may suggest?
  20. @Recursoinominado I do kriya practices after the hatha yoga, I do Isha hatha yoga but Leo has some books he posted about kriya that you might find more beneficial if you don’t want to pay, travel and learn from someone who knows what they are actually doing. Do nothing meditation also works pretty well honestly, I do that also, and so does practicing creating non resistant though. Thoughts of appreciation, and gratitude for what you do have and general life are very very powerful not to be underestimated. The trick is don’t make it a part time thing.
  21. So I have been on a regular Hatha Yoga practice for about a month or so now and it has definitely increased my well-being, healing, energy levels, and overall balance phenomenally. For me I was always pretty rigid in certain parts of my body specifically my chest, upper back, and hips/groin area. When I began practicing Hatha Yoga with my Kriya's everyday I didn't notice results right away it definitely took a bit but the past two weeks it has opened my over body, mind, and energies up in amazing ways. From my perspective what happened as I did Hatha Yoga was that it opened up new parts of my body-which is also connected deeply with my unconscious mind- then as I practice kriya this old baggage has more ease in surfacing. It opens my body up to new dimensions and I am sure that as I continue to practice I will become more aware of the subtle nuances of practicing this daily. It has also provided a proper alignment and strengthening for my spine which I have noticed is crucial to my meditation practices as well as my moment to moment practice. Overall I would highly recommend even a short practice, make sure it is proper not just your average hatha yoga or expect some average results which usually just means more flexibility. It has brought me more and more in tune with life, and more overall balance in my system. It doesn't have to be long and can provide many, many benefits.
  22. @Bryanbrax I do Isha yoga hatha, it takes time to get momentum building up behind the practice, whatever practice you decide to take up just commit to it