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<12-21-2016> Second Day Of Leo's Enlightenment Practice When Leo first presented his Step-by-Step Self-Observation Practice for achieving enlightenment, I was hesitant at first because it would mean having to allocate to time for yet another habit that I'm not yet willing to have. But when I did decide to try it out yesterday and even today, both times I felt like it was completely worth it. I don't want to talk about the results I got yet because I want to do a little more of the practice to see how deep it can go. Who knows, maybe I might even reach enlightenment? Oooh. . . that sounds really cool, I'm so inspired to keep going. . . I'm going to go play some video games now. . .

@Leo Gura Would I be correct in guessing that when the term 'Healing' is used by Ra, he's referring to enlightenment?

<12-20-2016> Doing Leo's Practical Guide To Enlightenment What am I? Who is aware of the typing of this message? Am I the one writing this sentence? . . . . . Who is perceiving this computer screen? Does it perceive itself? . . . . . I'm bored, I want some fries. . . crap I got distracted. Who am I? Who am I? I'm very frustrated. . . uggh Wait I forgot, I'm not doing the practice right now, I'm supposed to be writing in the journal, whoops. . .

@Leo Gura Haha, that's nice. Well, that was just a simple joke anyway. Better get back to the topic at hand.

@Radical Honesty I Love You

@Leo Gura Why not start a thread were people come up with the most hurtful insults about each other and everyone just responds with "I Love You"? The Law of One sucks, by the way, and you're stupid for reading it.

@jse A comic I made It may have nothing to with the actual context of the discussion, but hey, I gotta get people to see it somehow. Anyway, I don't think GPS is evidence that time remains constant. Simply because if nature of time does actually change, the input that determines how the device would work would have to change as well in proportion to GPS calculating it. Time could very well just be a construct of the human mind. Sadhguru has spoken of experiences in his life where he sat and meditated for far longer than he thought he did. A few hours of sitting for him once turned out to be fourteen days (allegedly).

<12-17-2016> Slow Down And Just Breathe Just had another relatively strong and focused meditation session today which made the next few hours pretty pleasant today. I find that I'm now going right back down to my "normal" self as I right this, with my "normal" worries, my "normal" emotional issues, my "normal" distractions and I'm still trying to remain mindful of just how most of my life is just a hallucination and why I'm not supposed to take it too seriously. Whenever I'm in a more stable and pleasant state, I'm able to feel more in tune with reality, I don't overwork myself, I don't feel a lot of anxiety, and I'm able to feel joy more. I really hope that I may sometime get to a point where this is a normal everyday thing and not just a temporary post-meditative-state. I have a lot of work to do. Another thing that I like to talk about today is that Leo just made a thread for a free e-book for a book called "The Law of One". Leo presented it as a challenge of one's open-mindedness and I believe it after reading the book's introduction. I don't want to say what it is because it's just so shocking that I want anyone to read it to have the same surprise. That's it for today, by the way, everything you believe to be true is wrong, have a nice day.

@Leo Gura I can't access the book. The link doesn't seem to be working for me. EDIT: Nevermind, I got the book elsewhere.

<12-15-2016> Slow The FUCK Down! Yesterday I decided to have a two hour Do-Nothing-And-Contemplate session (which ending up lasting only an hour and 15 minutes because I did at night and I got too sleepy to continue). What I learned was that over the past few days I've been pushing myself to become hyper busy by being overly obsessed with getting things done that I fail to put things into good perspective. Some of the things I have up in my list of priorities should have been lower and some things which I put low in my priorities should have been higher. Today I actually procrastinated a lot but I feel like I managed to get more done on the jobs that actually matter more than only focusing mechanically on trying to complete everything,

I just finished today's meditation a few minutes ago and during the sit, my mind pondered about the idea of pursuing truth for truth's sake which I learned from Leo. I thought about how it means that you pursue truth not for the sake of achieving something or as a means to help you, at least externally, in your life. Luckily enough, reality immediately gave me a direct test on pursuing truth: a mosquito flew by my vision and I was about to kill it when I realized that 1.) I was meditating and should remain still 2.) killing the mosquito would go against truth because I would be acting based off my constructed self-agenda. All sorts of worries came up about how letting the mosquito suck my blood would be slightly painful and I could risk getting a disease, a worry which I realized stemmed from seeing people sick of mosquito-spread diseases on the news before. In the end, I let the mosquito suck my blood and I resisted the urge to kill it. I tried to love the experience of it as much as possible but it was difficult. In the end, I felt bad because I started to have all sorts of worries about how the mosquito might have been carrying a virus but yet I tried my best to accept all that. The reason why I'm sharing this story is because I'm faced with a paradox now. I remember Leo talking about how one's human life should be about pursuing happiness and also that Sadhguru said that what you want as a human being is that you just want life to be pleasant, but yet, we also need to pursue truth which means fully accepting reality as it is regardless of the negative or positive outcome. Pursuing truth in this story made me a tiny tiny step closer to truth but it did not make me any happier. So, I'm confused. . . value truth (a.k.a. accepting reality as it is) or pursue the things that directly increase my level of happiness?

I'd much rather you use the word God but I understand why you didn't. It's very well put nonetheless!

Where are we in that picture?

Haha, thanks for reminding me.

<12-12-2016> Becoming More Focused On Reading just about three years ago, Typhoon Haiyan, a powerful superstorm, passed through the place where I lived in and caused a high level of destruction around the town. For two weeks (I think, it may have been longer), I had to live with no power and at one point, to pass the time, I picked up a novel and began reading to pass the time. It was the first time I read a book for the sake of entertainment and it was quite the experience. The book was Jules Verne's "Mysterious Island" and I still vividly remember the events that took place in that book. Despite that however, I was still not completely hooked to reading and even after getting a new laptop about a month afterwards, I decided to spend most of my time gaming and watching cartoons. Fast forward to today, after being a follower of Actualized.org for about two years, I'm proud to say that now I really get the importance of reading and am willing to dedicate a large portion of my future life with a passion for knowledge and imagination through written and spoken word. I still don't know for sure where this will ultimately take me but intuition tells me that it's going to be worth it.

<12-11-2016> Feeling Guilty After Watching Leo's New Video I would be lying if I said I was in any high consciousness level or even any moderate level of success. I'm still just a kid living in my parents house, still clueless as to how my life is going to be in the future and still only scratching the surface of what a true self-actualized life would be like. I mention this because after watching Leo's new video on enlightenment traditions around the world, despite being really interested and even wanting to read the homework afterwards, I felt a strong urge to just play some video games instead and I ended up not being able to enjoy it because of the guilt. Video gaming, I have to admit, is still a strong addiction of mine. Games have been part of my life since my childhood so it makes sense why my attachment is rooted so deep. I still have that "homework" that Leo assigned to anyone who watched the video so I'm definitely going to leave that for another day. Anyway, I want to end today's entry with a positive note, I just finished practicing and drawing cartoon versions of some real life people (even Leo Gura) which I will be posting soon, and here is the comic I promised in the last entry:

<12-10-2016> Fighting The Resistance I've got a lot of "laundry work" to do this Christmas vacation. It's sad that I don't get to lay back as much as most people do because I have so much work I need to get done by the end of mid-2017 and I only have so much time. No really, some of the things I'm working on right now require that I need to spend months of daily consistent activity. I certainly am not fulfilling Leo's "Lifestyle Minimalism" philosophy but I'm actually strategically working myself to a state of less work. I can't just sit back and expect my body and mind to magically become fully peaceful when I know I have tons of work I have unwittingly fallen into. My strategy is to basically be more mindful of how I got into this busy mess and make the effort to complete most of my current tasks and say no to any extra tasks that I don't need to do. Also cut out as much as possible all the things in my life that aren't the bare essentials. All of this is creating a lot of resistance within me that I'm all too familiar with. I've been doing a lot of mindfulness meditation for the past few weeks and I've been seeing good results, nothing too life changing but definitely has had significant positive change. I still distract myself every now and again but I'm more aware of it than I used to be. That's all. Stay safe and stay tuned for another comic strip that I'll be uploading soon.

People usually play games to avoid everything that is better to do. Usually. . .

<12-06-2016> Planning The Things I Have To Do Before The End Of The Year It's finally December, 2016 was a very tough year but it ain't over yet. Instead of giving myself big ambitious goals by looking months into the future, I'm currently focusing on giving myself mini-goals that I can reasonably do before the end of the year. Which include but are not limited to: Finishing At Least 80% of my unfinished university projects Completing the first three levels of the last area of my game, KzzzZZZzzT! Finish Reading "Confucius, The Analects Translated by Annping Chin" Continue Doing Mindfulness Meditation And Last But Not Least, Develop a Strong Reading Habit That Will Benefit Me In The Future This is Love, This is Life, This is Personal Development, I'm singing off.

<12-05-2016> So Much Free Time Today. I Think I Spent It Well With my current college semester ending, I've had some more free time today than I usually have and I decided to spend the majority of it studying. Not studying for college exams, though, actual studying of topics that I'm interested in. Today I continued reading a book on the Analects of Confucius, it's quite a fascinating read. I spent time studying various I.T. related topics because I plan to take an I.T. Qualification exam so that it will be easier for me to get a lucrative programming job when I graduate (in order to help in my life purpose journey, of course. I will never let my creative pursuits be below financial gain). And finally I watched the documentary on YouTube below: It's quite satisfying actually. I wish I will have more simple days like this in the future where I focus on learning more rather than just thinking or doing.

Of course! Nobody would make an anime about striving to achieve mediocrity, would they? But people nowadays tend to be more than willing to do so.

@stevegan928 Life purpose is not about pursuing what YOU want for your life. It's creative contribution for the benefit of the world mixed with your own personal life passions. Generally speaking, sex on its own does not benefit the world especially in consciousness territory. You're going to have to aim for much higher goals.

@username If it turns out to be the case that you can't fix it then you will inevitably feel like you're missing out at some point in your life but ultimately you could definitely use it to your advantage in the long run. You probably shouldn't ignore the problem entirely but it's good to also consider the possibility of living your life happily even without sexuality.

<12-02-2016> Neurotic Overworking I don't even have the time to write a journal entry today, it's 9pm and I just want to read a book and go to sleep. See also yesterday's entry.