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@Baul Sadghuru openly claims that he has refused to become educated in life. He is now a 100+ year old yogi and one of the wisest men to live in the 21st century.

JUNE 3, 2017 - Saturday My busy college work schedule is motivated by fear.This is not how I want to live. That's why I started this journal. What I Dog Dang done today: Got more coding work done. About an hours worth of work successfully completed. I drew some flowing slime for my game's World Map. Took me about half an hour. Didn't get much of anything else done. Not even reading. Oh well. . . What to do, oh! What to do tomorrow: More coding! More coding! Minimum of 30 mins...still got a lot of college work to do tomorrow. Going to draw something really small tomorrow because I'm feeling like I want to give myself more time get my college stuff done Maybe finally watch the videos from that Trance Music Tutorial. or maybe not. Continue reading "The Art of Computer Game Design by Chris Crawford", hopefully Busy day tomorrow, I can sense it. It's gonna be Balloon Day tomorrow and I gotta get prepared!

Still, nothing inherently wrong with video games, per se. I view as an extra life accessory, not too much of a hindrance as long as your aware and careful. I think of personal development as improving your car's performance, whereas all entertainment and material success and possessions are just fancy accessories to the car. Nothing wrong with some accessories, a paint job here, some decals there, a little fuzzy dice on the driver mirror. The trick is to not obsess too much about how your car looks, because what's really important is if it drives well and gets you places.

@Scarwolf I quit spending too much time playing video games by becoming a game dev, ironically.

JUNE 2, 2017 - Friday Man, I'm exhausted. Did so much walking from place to place today because of some stuff I had to deal with. Interestingly though, at one point, while waiting for somebody, I decided to wander off and lie at an old bench under a tree and just lay there staring at the sky. It was quite relaxing actually and I ended up contemplating a bit and asking what the purpose of life really is about. Not life purpose, the purpose of life... Anyway. Stuff I got done today Got 2 hours of coding work today on my game project. I only wanted 1 hour minimum because I had a lot of other stuff to do but I ended up getting really focused in my work. Here's what I done drew today. Took me about an hour and 20 minutes. Didn't manage to watch those videos I mentioned yesterday (again) Actually got a bit of reading done. Nearly finished with "The Art of Computer Game Design by Chris Crawford" What I gotz to do tomorrow: (I'm gonna be really busy with college work tomorrow so I'm going to lower my standards a bit) Do more game project coding. A minimum goal of half an hour. Draw the 'Slime Canal' part of the World Map of my game (Optional) Watch those videos I wanted to watch yesterday. If I can't, then try to do it tomorrow again. Read more from "The Art of Computer Game Design by Chris Crawford" After all that has happened today, I really hope that tomorrow, zzzzzzzzzzzzzZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzZZZ!

JUNE 1, 2017 - Thursday *sigh* Defense got moved to Monday. And I got so worked up and sleep deprived last night. Oh well, at least I got some stuff I wanted to do done today. Not all of it but still good work. I was mostly busy on college work today. Here's the stuff I got done and also stuff I wasn't able to do: Spent about an hour coding my game project. The session could have been more efficient but I got good work done. Didn't draw the Land/Ground part of my game's World Map like I mentioned yesterday. I just didn't feel like I wanted to. Instead, I decided I was gonna do some sketching practice instead. Check it, drew a couple of perspective-based practice drawings: Credit for the idea goes to Barrington Barber with his book, "The Fundamentals of Drawing" Did not spend the time to watch the videos I mentioned in my goals yesterday. Hopefully I can by tomorrow. Didn't spend any time to read. Sucks. What to do, oh, what to do for tomorrow? Spend more time coding my game, obviously. One hour minimum Watch the video I missed for today Read, gotta goddamn read. Do the drawing that I originally wanted for today. What a busy day, I have this gut feeling that tomorrow, smartphones will gain sentience and take over the world! (actually, they may already have done so. what with the mass distraction and what not.)

MAY 31, 2017 Damn, really really busy today. I've got a thesis defense tomorrow and I have not yet done preparing for it yet. It's 8:30 pm and I'm getting sleepy. I really hope I finish this soon so I can have what may be a really relaxing sleep especially compared to how I feel right now. I had so much to do today that I only managed to accomplish half of the Life Purpose goals I set up for myself yesterday. But anyway, here's an overall report on what I got done and also what I didn't get done. Wasn't able to work on my game at all, at least not coding wise I was still able to spend the time to build that space station I mentioned yesterday. Took me just well over an hour to make. Still was able to get a good amount of reading done from 'The Art of Computer Game Design by Chris Crawford' Was not able to find the time to watch those video tutorials I wanted to yesterday Fortunately, after my defense, there isn't going to be much non-Life Purpose workload left so I'll be more likely to accomplish what I've got planned for tomorrow. Which is... Spend that 1 hour (or more) I wanted coding more on my game project Draw the Land part of the world map sprites. It's going to take a bit longer than the other buildings because it's more complex Watch those tutorials I wanted to watch today but wasn't able to Read more! Read more! It's good. Man, I really hope that tomorrow, Bill Gates gets hexed by peeing on a leprechaun.

When you start researching a bit on spiritual traditions or listen to some spiritual teachers, you may come across terms that you may have never heard before. I myself don't know a lot because I haven't studied a lot so I thought it'd be nice if we could enumerate various spiritual terms that will help broaden our collective spiritual vocabulary. I'll start... Mukti = Spiritual Liberation Sadhana = Daily Spiritual Practice Pranayama = the formal practice of controlling the breath, which is the source of our prana, or vital life force Maya = The power, as a God, to create illusion. Trataka = A gazing meditation also known as 'Yogic Gazing'

MAY 30, 2017 Another really busy day, barely had time to take any kind of nap today. I usually don't take naps but I've been forcing myself recently to try to combat my workaholism issue. But this journal ain't about workaholism so I'm not going to say more about that.| These are the things I managed to accomplish today: Spent about an hour and a half working on my game project. One of the things I worked on was an algorithm that allows me to make my own custom rotation animation. Unfortunately, it mostly works but acts strange sometimes so it's still technically broken. Gotta fix that some other time. Finished drawing a new base sprite for one of the buildings in the World Map of my game. It still needs a bit more detail, though. Took me about 45 minutes Finished watching the 3rd video on a free Trance Music Production course. Read about 4 more pages into "Art of Computer Game Design by Chris Crawford". What I plan to accomplish for tomorrow: Spend as much time working on my game as possible (Minimum: 1 hour) Draw another digital sprite of one of the buildings of my World Map project. Preferably the floating Space Station. Watch the 4th tutorial on the Trance Music Production Course. Read as much as I can from "Art of Computer Game Design by Chris Crawford". Preferably, the first thing I do when I wake up in the morning. (Optional) Gather information on what the hell a "Vocoder" is. That's my report for tonight. I should really remember that tomorrow, I assassinate President Trump!

@Anirban657 If I told you everything you think you know is wrong and that all your opinions are irrational and I dispute them one by one. . . and you don't get pissy about it, then you're open minded.

MAY 29, 2017 Today was a tough day. Had to deal with some stressful situations in college regarding my upcoming thesis defense. Problems with scheduling it, lack of feedback from my adviser, bla bla bla Anyway, that has nothing to do with my life purpose but it has become a huge distraction for me that I've been working to get rid ever since I started doing personal development. Anyway, these are the things I managed to accomplish today: Spent about 3 hours total coding my current game project, KzzzZZZzzT! I mostly worked on algorithms that make certain animations in the World Map part of the game. Pretty neat stuff, can't wait to show it off. I occasionally spent a few minutes reading an e-book on my phone about game design "Art of Computer Game Design by Chris Crawford" Spent about half hour or so working on a new sprite for the game that will be used in the World Map as well. This is one of the buildings of the World Map of the game. Here is a sketch I made of what I want the whole thing to look like: Finally, I watched a couple of videos from a free course on how to make trance music, the first one was about the drum loop and the second was about the bassline. I still haven't absorbed everything from the two videos because electronic music production is such a complex field even from the basics. However, I took notes on what I learned What I plan to accomplish for tomorrow: Spend as much time coding as possible Draw another digital sprite of one of the World Map buildings Watch the 3rd tutorial on the Trance Music course Continue reading more from "Art of Computer Game Design by Chris Crawford". Preferably, the first thing I do when I wake up in the morning. That's the plan, shouldn't forget that this is more important than chocolate.

@Afonso Now you know...

Good work!

Meditation does not equal "just relaxation", it's far far deeper than that. I've once met a guy who really hated my suggestion of starting a meditation habit instead of spending time playing video games because he equated playing a relaxing RPG game with meditation. I could tell just how arrogant and undisciplined his mind was just by his volatile reaction, a tell-tale sign of lack of meditation. It's complete nonsense! Of course meditation can feel relaxing but a lot of the time, you feel like banging your head against a wall.

Summary: Take small bites

I used to be a rationalist once. In my experience, there's just this addictive feeling of being smarter than anyone else. It's very hard to let go of the egoic need to feel like you can understand everything and that you're way better than those stupid religious people who believe anything they're told. I broke out of it, I guess, when I started to realize that reality isn't as obvious and easy-to-understand as rationalism puts it. And then I began my meditation habit and after several months of the practice, I realized that rationalism only looks appealing from the perspective of an undisciplined mind. The reason why people are so dogmatic and rationalistic people tend to be so dogmatic is because they haven't put in the hard effort of disciplining their mind. And, of course, this causes a lot of trouble and suffering. It's funny how a lot of rationalists like to criticize a lot of new-age, spiritual, or even self-help material as being 'pseudo-science', 'scams', or even just idiocy while at the same time falling prey to many consumer products in society that are really not helpful to the human mind. They might criticize some New-age figure like Deepak Chopra as someone who spreads 'false-hope' and 'snake oil'. But then what do they do in their lives? Drink alcohol, smoke cigarettes, spend hours watching TV, etc. etc. and they criticize New-age as something that ruins people's lives? You see, rationalism is very attractive to the addicted and undisciplined. Because it's very hard to embark on a journey to grow yourself when you already think you're able to understand everything about life in your present state of mind, no matter how rotten it is. Additionally, It's very hard to take any hardcore rationalist seriously when they make a "debunking" video while mixing it with random Star Wars effects. (Yes, this is real)

Ikigai = Life Purpose

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Can Truth even be shared?

@Samuel Garcia If you say can't self-actualize, then it will be that way! Out of all the variables that affect your life, what you believe is possible is one of the most significant. But of course, it's all just beliefs. You can change them on a whim if you're wise enough to see how it will transform your life. And if you do claim that you've changed your beliefs yet your life still hasn't improved, I'm going to claim that you haven't actually changed your beliefs. You still cling to them like they're your little puppy dog pets. Welcome to the club, buddy. What, did you think it was going to be as pleasurable as watching TV? Logically speaking, if it was, everyone would be meditating because everyone loves TV! But very few people meditate, and it's so rare to find people doing it very seriously. The only explanation is that meditation is a really emotionally difficult and grueling practice. And think about this seriously, how many people you see who chase pleasure are truly joyful and happy? Are you truly happy chasing raw pleasure? Judging by your story, you're not even close. You have to face the reality that your idea of what you want in life has to change completely. Question everything society has taught you are things you want. Because 99% of what modern mainstream society says human beings want actually causes a lot of trouble and misery.

In my opinion, it's a lot easier to see what Leo is pointing to if you have more of a recluse-type personality. I know I do. If you're not able to comprehend how it's possible that all these 'heinous' acts are perfectly acceptable, it's probably because your mind is struggling to let go of mainstream moralistic thinking or not even making any effort to do so. I notice that it's rare that people only talk to themselves about how they hate certain acts of 'evil'. They usually like to bicker their opinions with other people, probably to get some ego gratification out of it. When you're a recluse-type, you're not really compelled to converse with others about what you think, not even online. And likewise the overall toxicity of mainstream culture barely affects you.

Sadghuru was once asked by a little child "Is life real or is it a dream?" Sadghuru replied, "Life is a dream, but the dream is real." "Hmph! Sadghuru, you're always like this!" the child complained.

Yeah, falling into a deep pit of negative emotions could instantly be turned into pleasure through pure mindfulness.

@Leo Gura Sadghuru has his own 'Daily Quotes of Wisdom' app. Maybe you can check that out too.

If one thinks that they understand spirituality without actually researching let alone practicing it, chances are that they don't understand anything at all.