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Today I really feel like I want to make my relationship work. We have a unique connection that is pretty fucking valuable. Don't want to throw it away. Also don't want to feel like we're compromising, or constantly triggering each other. Perhaps there is value in finding a new way to relate. Seems to me that living on our own is a positive for both of our mental health.

Saw it two days ago. Really enjoyed it. To me it came across like a bunch of very talented actors banded together in order to send an important warning message to the world. It's a chilling and confronting commentary on the flaws of humanity.

I think my priority is to achieve in a relaxed way, not a neurotic stressed way. This is in fact the masculine way. Stressing and being neurotic is somehow by definition not the winner’s default Perhaps because that state is brought on by being bothered with the thought of having lost before I thought I could get success in a stressed neurotic way first though, like most people. Some part of me is disappointed that I get to evolve even before Or maybe that is all just my projection, and no successful person ever got there by self-punishment and flagellation Perhaps everyone is successful to the extent that they are able to avoid that I feel like there is a high-vibrational, unburdened state in which it is really easy to manifest what you want And the more burden we carry, the more effort and suffering is required to achieve despite all of that And every worry and judgment, attachment to past or future pain is getting us further away from this God-mode. Which still doesn't make it impossible to succeed, but harder. But below a certain frequency the burden becomes so heavy that the distribution graph of likely outcomes just takes a dive, meaning most people would not find a way out of that, and this is when you're a miner, enslaved and without future prospects.

Integrating experience is what we are fundamentally here to do on Earth. That should mean, if I understand correctly, that you can Parts Work yourself all the way to enlightenment. Don't even trip, bro.

Ah, the exact reason why I don't meditate every day either

My girlfriend who I'm currently in separation from, and I, saw each other for one day, to celebrate Christmas Eve. We had a great time. But something was revealed to me yesterday, that probably would not have been clear to me if we had not taken the time out. I have mommy issues. Specifically, my scared child-part and my internalised mother-part are taking over when she makes suggestions to me. It brings me back to this belief that she's somehow always right, and it's the exact same feeling tone of the belief that I had that my mother was always right, and by extension, my own feeling was therefore wrong. So when faced with a suggestion by her that I don't want to do, I can start to doubt myself and something blocks me from saying no to her. Instead I try to get out of things by saying "I don't know." "I'm not sure." So this is the perfect dynamic to show me where I am secretly not free. Where I easily let my authentic self be overridden, because my helpless child gets triggered, feeling like his disagreement with the mother figure means that he is wrong and life will punish him for his foolishness. Yeah. So this part that I'm regressing into, definitely is a young version of me. Probably under 8 years old. The age before the concept of a parent being wrong, is even possible to grasp. So everything gets interpreted as yourself being wrong and bad. I thought regression didn't happen to me (anymore?). How arrogant I was Ouch

Awesome that you did that literary research, it shows you are really serious and I respect it. While it is true that results of a large-scale study count for more than results with a smaller group, in isolation, that does not mean that this is an effective heuristic to evaluate efficacy. The reason lies in the context. See, studies only get done when they get funding. Scientists who want to do this research, have to basically beg and plead for money, to institutions and entities with the resources. These entities who have the resources, also have strong biases. Large-scale studies are extremely costly. That means that it's only possible to get funding for large-scale studies, from investors and institutions that are already bought in to the paradigm. Or have something to gain from it. You can see where the problem lies. If someone has been educated within a system to believe that approaches X and Y work, and the rest are nonsense, then they grow up with this bias. They build a career with this bias. Now why would they give away millions, to prove something that they have lived their entire life not believing in? They wouldn't. All scientific breakthroughs have had a long history of being rejected, studies not funded, until the people representing the status quo all died or retired, and their investment into their worldview was no longer able to subvert change. This is why change is slow. Eventually the system catches up, and new discoveries propagate, but this takes many generations. If you are the type that likes to be at the forefront, and don't want to be the last to find out about the most effective methods that have been discovered, then it is imperative to take some risk, and also do your own experiential investigation. As a therapist, you will learn over time that you have to trust your own experience of what you have witnessed to work and not work, anyway. What you are taught in college only serves as a background. You won't use most of it. And the ones who become really good at what they do, find and develop their own methods and systems. For which there will certainly not be scientific studies to back them up. As for how I know: I have met many people and personally witnessed their healing. This to me counts for a lot. You can DM me and I can refer you to several people with stories that might inspire you

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@LSD-Rumi Rhodiola, Astragalus, and Reishi are good. Fish oil or krill oil is essential to take care of the brain, you can take a gram a day. What's missing is a holistic perspective. I can tell you that supplements can be lifesavers in rough times, but there is a level you can reach where you don't need any. I didn't see anything harmful in your stack, but if you start using all of these at once, you'll never know which of them are working for you. Can you describe your diet in detail?

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You can try standing barefoot on the soil to ground yourself. I hope you feel supported, you'll get through this! We are with you.

Probably best to let go and not try to keep the ego alive next time. It will come back soon enough anyway. If you are having balls of energy moving up and down your body, threatening to annihilate your ego, combined with agitation and the other things you are describing, I would say it's possibly a case of kundalini rising. That means I'm a little out of my depth here. This would be a good time to get (back) into kriya yoga or something like it If you want help navigating it, seek out a good Reiki practitioner. Or maybe an advanced yoga teacher. Here's a youtube channel about it which I really like, you can check and see if you recognize anything in yourself @Nahm

@okulele do you have some wisdom to add here?

Possibly it only feels like a ball of anxiety because of the resistance against death. You can easily verify this by accepting death next time it happens. If my intuition is right, the anxiety aspect will transform into a positive feeling. And if not, a ball of anxiety can't physically kill you. Unless you fall. So make sure to be seated or lying down and have pillows.

It's rhetoric. Not to be taken literally. Of course it's helpful to realise that time and energy are finite, and what you focus on daily, over time improves exponentially. What's not helpful is worrying when you will achieve "mastery". People who are said to have achieved mastery, are still working just as hard to improve every day. There is no finish line. The learning never stops. So better pick something you love.

@roopepa Thank you for giving me the idea for my next video. In short: sense of purpose, that clear sense of "this is my thing", only comes after people have thanked you for something you love to do for them. That's because our hardwired sense of purpose is tied into being useful in a community. So no idea will feel real until real people have said "thank you for doing this for me". There are some variations on this, such as getting real life feedback in other ways that what you did was useful, such as people leaving good reviews, buying and using your products, or even just watching their lives improve in some way as a result of what you did. To get to that place, you need to make small bets. Trying stuff out and getting to that place of feedback, is a much better strategy than just thinking about the perfect idea.

1. Talk to this wound by writing @Raphael A conversation will help unmesh and understand the conflicting parts. Examples: I'm sure you've done Face it, talk to it, be it plenty of times before. 2. Additionally, try dynamic meditation by Osho. I'll share some stuff with you that could help ground you. Using physicality in meditation is very helpful when so much is showing up at once. 3. Standing barefoot on the earth helps to ground many people who have kundalini rising. Easy enough to find out if that works for you too. I agree with @Preety_India , take care of the basics and let it happen. Drink plenty of water. This is all happening for you. It's all Love. It's all exactly the way it is meant to happen. Take care of the body and don't worry too much about what to do. You are not the one doing it

Excellent. I respect you keeping this up. Seems to be going in a great direction

As he says in his video, he's "always been very averse to therapy" - this tells me enough. That which you most need, will be found where you least want to look - Carl Gustav Jung

Hi, I'm Erik, I'm from the Netherlands. Congratulations on allowing yourself to learn from your own choice of teachers. Sounds like that was an important shift for you. I'm open to connect, you can DM me. Much love

I'm a big fan of Reishi and Ashwagandha, and Maca too I guess. I have all three powders in my kitchen cupboard. The issue for me is that Ashwagandha tastes so god damn awful, it makes me shiver in disgust. Maca too, actually. So I found myself manually putting it in capsules anyway. I'm skeptical that I could drink a smoothie like that

When I'm in a rush, yes. Other times, I use warm water to wash my hair, and then just flip it to cold. I don't gradually turn it down, I just flip it. Me too, but that's half the benefit of it. Do something hard and unpleasant (but beneficial) in the morning, and the entire day becomes easier. However, the way you do it is still beneficial, so if that works for you, great!

Hi Katie, Thank you for posting this. Nice to hear from another member from NL, too. I like to take ice baths and cold sea plunges with friends. One time, on a first date, I broke the ice on a frozen lake and we both went in. One of my good friends actually does workshops with breathwork, and she uses ice baths in there too. I don't run in the freezing cold, like you, that's really admirable. Of course I do shower ice cold every morning. How else would I wake up properly?

@Yidaki Perhaps you would like to speak to our very own @Michael569 . He's excellent at creating personalized nutrition plans. He actually helped out a good friend of mine, and also my mother.