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@Aakash Thanks for the reply. I've done therapy and I thought about my past. I know where this triggers come from. But I'm like ''Wy do I keep thinkinh these thoughts when in reality everything is safe''. I'm a bit of a mess right now since I finally am conscious that my thoughts make me feel bad. I already knew it but wasn't aware. And know I don't know what to do in life. I mean consciousness, but that's the thing I tried to avoid my whole life. hahaha greetings

If I don't focus on being aware, my mind has all these thoughts uncounsciously (ofcours). But these thoughts are so negative, when I go in these thoughts without being aware a whole shitshow happens. I start to feel anxious, depressed, angry. When I'm talking to myself I'm much more positive, looking for solutions, a small bit aware. It's like the more I'm unaware, the worse my thoughts are. I finally realize this, my ego doesn't care if I want to be happy. It's so funny that one year ago, I was like ''fuck this awareness, it doesn't matter''. And now I'm like daaaaaaamn, awareness is more important then working out, eating healthy,.. fucking hell.

Hey man, I used to have tinnitus for a few months after my panick attacks. Since I'm taking high quality omega 3. The panick attacks have gone away and the tinnitus is gone. I take two supplements a day. Just a personal experience. It can be of to much inflammation..

I decided to take action today. I tried to live innthe moment today and it was so difficult. I didn't realize I was thinking so much about the future and the past. My anxiety has lowered inmediatly. So the answer is living in the now, just as I'm typing this. The hard part about this, you have to concentrate to live in the now. Now now now awereness is key

Hey guys, I've been doing selfactualization for more than a year. A few months ago I took magic mushrooms and ended in the hospital. I had a huge panick attack. (I took the shrooms when I felt very sad and fatigued) Since then my life has changed, I have all these spasms in my body and I have panick attacks which I didn't have before. The only thing is that I feel more like myself. I quit meditation after that incident. Now I will try to get my life fixed. But the best thing I can do is go for enlightnement. Cause living with anxiety 24/7 is not fun. Same thing with taking yourself so serious. I know there will be a lot of backlash. But hey, I have no choice if I want to grow.

I've been trying to quit addictions for years. And besides the mental withdrawels, I had massive weird physical symptomps. The biggest thing I had/have is the pain of my stomach. Feeling knots. I have had this for years. But I wasn't aware of it. So when I feel deeply in to the feeling I get panick attacks. Now when I accept the panick attacks, the stomach pain goes away. But yeah I feel anxious. So all these years I was just anxious in my body.. It's true, emotions that aren't felt go into your body. Crazy

I just wanted to say that it's crazy how so many people survived emotional/physical abuse any other trauma. All the coping mechanisms had to be used. as an adult it's not that handy anymore. Don't be so hard on yourself. You're a survivor! You have power

Oow man, I know that feeling of frustration. I had this for years. Still got these moments. You need to learn what women want in a man. It is not only status. The thing is, getting mad on how women are is just a waste of energy and it makes you unhappy. Become the best you for you.

@Hellspeed @Nahm Thanks for your opinion. It's like there is so much energy stored in that feeling. It's funny how I start to rationalize that I first need scientific evidence. Even from own experience I have had catharsis. So still my mind is denying this. Have a great day!

Hey guys, I am getting some progress in terms of emotional mastery (still a noob). Here is my story. When I don't do any addictions and being aware of my emotions I start to have pain under my sternum. When I accept this pain it dissolves into sadness. Lately I've been trying to be more loving and this emotion is getting bigger. It's like my body is finally letting go of the emotion. Now the thing is I get small panick attacks and I think I will die if I feel this feeling. I've read this in a book that 'fear' is the last thing that makes you run from the emotion. Has anybody got experience with feeling an emotion that is is so scary? Any experience would help me a lot!

Hey guys. Would love your opinion on this. I have stress and pain around my heart. Like just beneath my sternum. A knot feeling. Doctors have said it is stress. Now the thing is, it goes away after cuddling/sex with a person. I just have a girlfriend and when I cuddle I feel that feeling dissolving. But when she's gone it's there immediatly. So the solution is probably self love. I've tried it before and I always have an ego backlash where I start to hate others and myself. How does one develop self love?

Thanks everyone, The thing I try to do with actualized with org is to focus on my defecits/weaknesses and try to feel them and get them out of my system. This hasn't worked so far, cause I don't accept these feelings and I don't want to live with them. Just want them away asap. @Charlotte Such a kind person. The love you give others is superb. Thanks. @Seed That is true, I always feel like I'm the only one in this world who suffers even when I logically know other people suffer aswell. It's crazy what loneliness does. Thanks for the advice. @Pilgrim Thanks for your point of view. So many people struggle indeed.. And Yes, I would be this very nice guy, acting all different, not being authentic. The crazy thing now is, when I observe this behaviour, I realize that this is so automatic, it's like BAM! I act like a different person. A lot of gratitude towards this forum.

@Charlotte Hey Charlotte, I've been going weekly to a therapist for over 3 months. It has helped a lot. I discovered my real youth and not what I made up in my mind. He's telling me now that I need to realize that I live in the moment, but I'm forgetting it always. The only thing I crave is validation from my mother and her saying everything is oke. (it feels like I'm 5 years old atm) @universe I've cuddled with past girlfriends, but it never seems enough. I just want it from one person, my mother (eventhough she abused me). The thing you said about the present and about cuddling is true. Thanks for the advice. Have a great weekend.

Hey guys, Would love your opinion. I grew up with a narcistic single mother. I had to switch homes to my grandparents every year a few times. Now I'm an adult male. I feel lonely even when I'm with people. The thing I crave is someone to cuddle me. But cuddle for a long time. So I can feel safe. This is a problem. Advice please.

Holy shit, I feel very bad. My body hurts, so many emotions. I'm tensing my body up. I'll focus and relax. It's been all day, can't even take a break and be in the moment. The feeling I have is anxiety. Anxiety for life. But I'm doing better. I feel motivated again. But my consciousness... It's terrible at the moment. I have the problem with the victim mindset. I don't want to accept the past for myself. It's like I'm accepting the past for someone else. So good at deception. I'll do some affirmations and I'll get off social media.