@UDT Thanks, I did. It asked me to get out of my head for a while and ask someone else, since I might be unaware of certain other perspectives. (:
@Joseph Maynor Thanks a lot! Your response made me realize the problem is deeper than my question. I do know exactly how I wish to spend my life. And what my values are. I have put that in writing, but I've missed the connecting part - how it is going to impact others and how do I need to go about doing it in a specific way, and how to implement it on a daily basis. Thanks again!
@Equanimitize An example is, currently, I have a bad sprain which needs recovering from and a lot of time and energy goes in exercising and physiotherapy. So I end up structuring my day around this and even when I have the time to do my work, I don't because I'm exhausted. I make it the main thing instead of it being the thing that fuels my work. The same with journaling. I have certain triggers which unless I journal them out, they tend to block anything I do because a lot of my work is creativity based and unless sorted it hangs on my head like a black cloud and whatever I create gets tinted with soot from that black cloud. So then I sit and journal instead of working. Which leaves me exhausted again. You're right about habits. They tend to get easier with time and practice. My specific problem is they take such a long time to become a habit that I look forward to, that other things suffer due to it. It probably takes me around a year of doing something everyday to even look forward to doing it. (As opposed to some research that says 21 days or 66 days or 90 days).
Thanks a lot for your responses. This has made me rethink a lot of things. It is going to take a lot more working on myself than I thought it would.