nistake

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  1. When you reflect that this world is filled with death, and that your body, too, has to be relinquished, God’s plan seems very cruel. You can’t imagine that He is merciful. But when you look at the process of death with they eye of wisdom, you see that after all it is merely a thought of God passing through a nightmare of change into blissful freedom in Him again. Saint and sinner alike are given freedom at death, to a greater or lesser degree according to merit. In the Lord’s dream astral world- the land to which souls go at death- they enjoy a freedom such as they never knew during their earthly life. So don’t pity the person who is passing through the delusion of death, for in a little while he will be free. Once he gets out of that delusion, he sees that death was not so bad at all. He realises his mortality was only a dream and rejoices that now no fire can burn him, no water can drown him; he is free and safe. But such is the delusion of desire for material things that, after a time of freedom from the body, he wants to come back to earth. Even though the soul knows that the body is subject to disease and troubles, these delusive desires for earthly experience veil that knowledge and deceive his consciousness. So after a karmically predetermined time in the astral world, he is reborn on earth. When death comes, he goes forth once more from the gross dream of this earth experience to the finer dream of the astral plane, only to be drawn back to this world. And again and again he returns, until he is no longer desirous of an earthly life. Birth and death are doors through which you pass from one dream to another. All you are doing is going back and forth between this gross dream world and the finer astral dream world; between these two chambers of dream nightmares and dream pleasures. Thus reincarnation is a series of dreams within a dream; man’s individual dreams within the greater dream of God. Someone is born on earth in France as a powerful king, rules for a time, then dies. He may be reborn in India, and travel in a bullock cart into the forest to meditate. He may next find rebirth in America as a successful businessman; and when he dreams death again, reincarnate perhaps in Tibet, as a devotee of Buddha and spend his life in a lamasery. Therefore hate none and be attached to no nationality, for sometimes you are a Hindu, sometimes a Frenchman, sometimes an Englishman, or an American, or a Tibetan. What is the difference? Each existence is a dream within a dream, is it not? Will you continue helplessly to go through all these delusions and the difficulties they create? Each nation thinks its ways are justified, its customs the best. Are you going to go on with this delusion? I am not. For unless wisdom is supreme, reincarnation is a very troublesome experience. One should avoid forced reincarnation because it is a painful continuation of this dream delusion. For how long will you pass through these changes called life and death? Until you realise fully the dream nature of creation, and awaken in God from its nightmares. Extract from the book “Divine Romance” by Sri Sri Paramahansa Yogananda.
  2. I had a similar experience in a Greek island called Methana. We visited a volcano there and the whole atmosphere was something else. I couldn't put into words but yeah, I could also 'hear' the silence there and everything was vibrant and still at the same time. I could've meditated for days there.
  3. In my opinion that's only a phase. A really important one, but a phase nonetheless. Eventually it'll go full circle and you'll do the same things (pretty much). What really changes are your motivation and your attachment to the outcome.
  4. I read the book Existential Kink by Carolyn Elliott. I mean, reading it and doing the actual work afterwards. It's easy to read and practical book on shadow work. Don't be fooled by the new age-y wording, it's a really powerful method for uncovering shadow material in your psyche. At least it worked for me really well.
  5. @Spiritual Warrior Right on. However, one needs to get to the point where survival and materialistic pursuits are not satisfying anymore.
  6. That's all well and good until you come down to the relative domain and deal with one in actuality. This
  7. I mean that's quite logical if you think about it. The majority of people nowadays are completely wrapped up in survival (in every sense), so why should they contemplate the very thing they're avoiding at all costs?
  8. Well, that's true on one hand, but on the other hand, these distractions that you mentioned are pretty easy to ignore. Things like entertainment, junk food, social media, etc. I mean, no one's forcing you to use these platforms to distract yourself. Are they enticing you to distract yourself? Sure. That's why you need some mindfulness and self-discipline skills. If you need a place to sit silently, make dedicated blocks of time in your apartment (like a meditation habit), or go to your local library, hell, even sit on a bench in a park.
  9. The problem with this question is that you think God is something separate from you. I don't mean this as a cop out, but you've been having a conversation with God all your life. When you're thinking, talking to others/yourself, and basically every single communication in your life is a conversation with God.
  10. How are you with self-love? Can you accept yourself? Can you be satisfied alone or do you have a needy vibe? How authentic are you? How honest are you with yourself and others? What do you hope to gain by having a girlfriend?
  11. I vaguely remember that you had issues with balding. Don't worry about it, you're rocking the bald head + goatee combo! Also props to the qigong stuff.
  12. Quit drinking cold turkey a few years ago, never regretted it for a second. Though I must add that I didn't have a problem with it per se. I just realized one day that drinking made me sleepy and dull. Let alone the hangovers. So I asked myself: why do I even drink? Anyway, I believe that it may not that easy for you, however there's no easy solution, I think. Either you make a firm decision that you stop drinking/taking drugs and stick to it, or you'll probably keep drinking. Sit down, contemplate your lifestyle, your decisions, maybe write about it.
  13. Just found this today. I think it pretty much sums it up:
  14. Get out of bed (5 am) Drink some water Light exercise routine (~10 minutes) Coffee Meditation/visualization (~20 minutes) Shave and cold shower
  15. That's a great area of self-development to work on. Mindfulness and radical honesty can help, I think. If you regularly ask yourself the question of "what games do I play?", and contemplate on it, you can make great progress. That's a good way to approach this issue. Don't beat yourself up, because if you're gonna be neurotic about it, you can make it a hell of a lot harder.
  16. What about people who are not on this forum engaing in endless and useless debates, but rather doing serious work on a daily basis? Leo said several times that armchair philosophy will get you nowhere. Spiritual practises, contemplation, psychedelics, taking action, and working on life purpose. That's where it's at. Seriously, I'm not trying to be arrogant, but a huge amount of people here would do themselves a favor if they logged out of this forum (at least for a good while).
  17. Intention: Contemplating some personal issues, God, Love, Death Location: My apartment Beginning: Around ~3pm I did some stretching and meditated for 20 minutes. Afterwards I consumed the 18g with lemontek. I didn't feel like just sitting and waiting for it to come on, so I put on some soft dance music and started dancing around. About 40 minutes had passed and to be honest, the come on is kinda blurry. Don't really remember when it hit me, but from what I remember it came on pretty strong. Changed the music, lied down and started contemplating. Here are the insights in no particular order: Absolute solipsism: This insight came out of nowhere pretty much, and the reason why it was really strange and shocking is that I didn't even plan to contemplate it. I mean, I thought about it a bit when I watched Leo's episode, but pretty much forgot about it. I thought I had more pressing issues to solve, so the idea to contemplate solipsism didn't even come up in me for this trip. Except it did come up, and it hit me like a freight train. I remember thinking about my family, my dead relatives, my friends, my coworkers and the terrifying insight came that they're all ME. Not my small self, but the singular consciousness (God) is literally dreaming up "my" life and all the "other" people in it. Naturally my ego was freaking out, and I literally felt like dying. I started thinking about my parents and how they're gonna miss me and the sorrow and pain I caused for them, but my mind sort of "switched" and I realized that they're just dream characters in my dream. I tried to fight it, but at the same time I tried to surrender to it. It was really paradoxical and chaotic. Then I started thinking about Love. I remember asking myself: "Okay, everything is ME, I'm all alone, but where is the Love? Even if this is the Truth, I'm supposed to Love myself and all the other fragmanted parts of myself." It was a cul de sac, because the whole insight about being alone and fooling myself believing that there are other actual people was brutal and shocking. Then I started thinking about spiritual teachers, books, NDE-s, podcasts, etc and the conclusion was the same. These things are also my imagination and I dreamed them up to entertain myself. I literally felt like this is game over, the whole jig is up, and I spoilered the meaning of life for myself. This question came up: Oh god, what's next? And the answer was nothing. There I stood, and my jaw dropped because I couldn't believe that this is it. This is awakening. This is realizing that this whole thing that I call "my" life is just a dream. I dreamed everything up just to entertain myself. Every meaning was ripped from me. Insanity: This happened because of the realization of solipsism. I literally felt like losing my mind. I realized that insanity must be like that, because I had never experienced anything like that before. I started panicking but fortunately, I remembered that I was gonna come down, and my ego was gonna come back. I don't remember how long it lasted, but it felt like years. Also pretty brutal. Personal shadow stuff: Oh yes, these also came up. I realized that I repressed my desire for sex and pretty much my whole sexuality. I don't want to go into these here, but it was also shocking, because I've been contemplating my sexuality for years now. During the trip I became clear to me that I just played ego games, and there was nothing but repression. Conclusion: After the trip I was drained and depressed for 2 days. I knew that I needed to take it easy and gave myself space. Didn't do anything for the 2 days, just watched Netflix and played some games. I needed to distract myself. Now I feel a lot better and I already started integrating these insights and I know it's gonna be a lot of work. Even though the whole trip was brutal and shocking, in retrospect I think that I needed that and it was necessary for me. Now I truly get the meaning of the saying: "The Truth will set you free".
  18. @bensenbiz Yeah, you're right. Another interesting fact that I had no visuals at all. This was my 2nd trip, but during the 1st trip I didn't have visuals either. Not that I mind, just interesting.
  19. Thanks guys! Thank you. Funny thing is the strain was Mexicana, which is supposed to be one of the mildest truffles.
  20. @Leo Gura Good to hear, appreciate that. And yeah, my focus in the future will be definitely God, Beauty and Love.
  21. Yeah, this is exactly what I want to contemplate for my next trip. I mean, I know this already intellectually and I pretty much live my life according to that, but I feel like this insight is sort of incomplete for me. I still tend to worry about insignificant mundane things, which robs me of precious life energy.
  22. I'm pretty much the same, music is huge for me. However, have you ever had a really good meditation session in complete silence? When you're turning inward, focusing on the present moment, and like, you're just happy by literally nothing? If so (this is gonna sound neo advaita-y), that might mean that you don't really need music in order to feel happy, balanced, and emotionally stable. And I'm not saying that it's easy to let go of music if it is that important to you, however, you can work on it day-by-day.