Thittato

Absolutely! It totally depends, sometimes quickly, sometimes towards the middle of the sit, sometimes towards the end, and sometimes I don't find the groove at all. I strongly recommend Mastering the Core Teachings of the Buddha by Daniel Ingram. The best meditation manual I've ever found :-)

No practice yesterday, but today I jogged for 20 min again, and then later in the evening I did a 25 min yin yoga fusion program. The jogging today felt really awesome. Probably the best jogging experience so far. It was just right. I felt warm and good and the jogging-flow was stable. I also felt a lot of inspiration from the yoga, especially the quality of surrendering into it. I jog in silence, which is probably really good, because the whole things becomes a very meditative experience. I also think I will just continue with this round of 4 km for a while, not seeking to advance further any time soon because I will rather go for building up stability than to push for advancement. I think getting a stable platform established is much more important. I'm also thinking about the actual route that I jog. I will begin to try to take in more of surroundings. I actually jog next to the sea for half the round, and then for the next half of the round I jog next to the river, and I cross two bridges, so actually the route is quite spectacular and it is just right outside my door, so I will try to take in more of this my next round. I will also try to connect more with my bodily experience of running, and focus more on my running technique.

20 min jogging today. This is my 10th jogging-session for this period. I jogged slower today and it felt much better - like a special treat I gave myself. It is interesting to observe the dynamics between effort and surrender also in jogging. Jogging can certainly have a very strong surrending into it type of quality. It feels really awesome when I have been jogging for 10 min without pushing myself and my body starts to get varm and it feels like I'm just sailing through air without any resistance. Now I will go and do 25 min of yin yoga before I go to bed.

First 7 min pre-running yoga warm-up, and then 20 min of jogging today. Felt like the run was extra hard today, but this is the fastest pace I've been holding I found out when I checked my running-app when I came home, so maybe my expectations didn't match my physical ability today, which is to say my physical ability proved to be at its highest so far today, but I was probably very hyped for this run as I've been doing to much yoga lately, and I felt light as a feather while running, but my heart and lungs couldn't really keep up with that yogic feeling I had in my body which I desired so bad to translate into my running. Well, anyways, it was the quickest run so far, but interesting to see that mis-match between my expectations and my ability. When it feels like this, I think I should probably just slow down some more in order to get into that sweet-spot where the run starts to flow. No need to just push, push, push. Maybe I was starting out too hard as well - thinking this pre-running yoga warm-up would make me able to just to directly to my fastest pace. Seems like I need to run approxemately for 10 min before I'm getting into the groove.

60 min vinyasa flow yoga session today. Feels like my body is gaining a lot more explosive energy through jogging that I bring into my yoga practice. Almost like only yoga made me a little bit lazy, but now I go into all the poses with much more explosiveness. Very awesome feeling. Looking forward to tomorrows jogging-session. I'm trying to get in 3 sessions of jogging every week now.

20 min jogging, 20 min vinyasa flow yoga and 20 min meditation lying still in the savasana pose. Felt like a really awesome combination. When jogging today I felt light as a feather almost. I think it was because I did 20 min vinyasa flow yoga the day before. Seems like vinyasa really gives the body what it needs in order to enhance the jogging experience. I usually feel very athletic after a vinyasa session, and that feeling really translated into the jogging experience. I have been jogging 8 times now, and it really seems like my body can handle it. Usually my knees has started to hurt when I've jogged before, so I've given up quickly, but this time I have been building it up the right way, and the yoga really helps making my body adapt to the strain of jogging. So I will say that my fitness routine, even though it is actually pretty simple, starts to feel very powerful. I think the clue now is just to keep it as this level, and not become manic about it as I usually do when I start to exaggerate. This 20 min vinyasa flow program that I have been doing is really powerful in itself. Imagine that. Only 20 min of exercise and it makes a huuuuuge impact. And then, combined with 20 min of jogging. Wow. I think all this yoga that I have been doing has been lacking something, and that is that sense of explosive energy that I get through jogging. Yoga in itself is a little bit too mellow, it doesn't really ignite the fire the same way that weight lifting or cardio does.

20 min of vinyasa flow yoga today. While I was at this trip to Denmark with this group of guys this weekend I really got my interest in mixed martial arts turned on. Some of them were really into it, and we watched some UFC matches together and they explained to me the dynamics of it all. As a kid, spread out over many years, I first did half a year of jiu jitsu, then later half a year of karate, and then later again half a year of kick boxing. I don't know why I only did half a year of each of these disciplines, but probably because my childhood was very chaotic I didn't have the conditions to stay for a long time with anything, but still this interest for martial arts have always been very strong in me, and probably it is for a lot of people with interest in mediation and eastern philosophy. And even though my skills in martial arts are not really any skills at all, now I find myself working in a field where actually they could have been put to good use. In the psychiatric emergency department where I work we often have both strong and violent young guys in deep psychosis, and I'm often very afraid when I have to deal with them, and especially when I have to establish boundaries for them. Fortunately we always wear alarms, and there's always more people coming if there are physical confrontations or threats of such, so without much of any martial arts skills getting comfortable with this support system from my co-workers I'm starting to get much more comfortable in my job, and I also have to say that to the best of our ability we always try use therapeutic language and body language to make our patients calm down so that we avoid any violence. Still I think training on physical confrontations through martial arts would have made me even more comfortable in these situations. The ultimate aim would of course have been to guide both my co-workers and my patients even more safely through these situations. So perhaps I'll start to look deeper into martial arts these days. I think at least that now my cross-training in both yoga and jogging comes in really handy with this interest, because as I see it martial arts is a type of cross-training in all various disciplines in order to give the body all that it needs (strenght, endurance, flexibility, explovesiveness, explosiveness, etc) to become the best fighter that one can become. At the very least, discussing martial arts with people who are also interested in it, while doing my physical exercise in yoga and jogging, while also watching some UFC matches, will certainly increase my awereness when it comes to how we deal with the physical confrontations that we encounter in my job. Just to add more interest to it, instead of being afraid of it. Seems like a good way to increase my competence when it comes to this.

Saturday: No yoga, meditation or exercise. Me and 4 friends decided to do a spontanous weekend-trip to Denmark (we live in Norway), so the ferry over to Denmark left 08.00 in the morning. Basically lots of fun, lots of beer, lots of partying, lots of people, lots of dancing, etc. Sunday: I had been drinking from 09.00 in the morning until about 04.00 the next morning, so 19 hours of steady drinking. But I didn't get very drunk, only like steadily maintaining my buzz, so I was pretty proud that I could at least keep it cultured, and when I woke up after only 3-4 hours of sleep, I did a 25 min yin yoga fusion in the Hotel room before we went out to explore the art museums of the city and the more cultural side of the city instead of just the party-side from the day before. Felt really good that I could do both these things, and at the same time sneak in some yoga in the middle of it. Like my practice is an undercover practice that allows me to live a really normal life and no one really needs to know that I'm a yogi because it isn't any big deal. Came back home 01.30 in the night. Slept for a good while, and...... Monday: When I woke up I had time to do 10 sun salutations before I went to work evening-shift. So a really packed weekend, that was really fun, and then I was back at my job again, a lot richer on many nice experiences, and I even managed to keep my yoga-practice going. Though, I've started to think again that I'm drinking too much. In average I think I drink 3-4 beers 3-4 times a week. I manage to keep it cultured, but still it is too much I think. So I need to work on bringing it down. I'm flirting with a potential for alcoholism here I feel. My dad is an alcoholic, a well-functioning one according to societies standard, and as I'm getting older I'm realizing I seem to have the same genetics as him, and I only manage to keep my potential for alcoholism in balance because I counter-act it with my yoga and meditation practice. Like I do a lot of stuff to freshen up after a night out. Sometimes I can even go and do some winther-bathing in the ocean when I'm drunk just to sober up and feel fresh. It is a little bit like I have all the right tools to feel fresh and live with an alcohol intake that is a little bit too high. So anyways, as a start, I will not drink in one week. I need one full sober week (and especially weekend) now. Tuesday: Today I jogged for 3,9 km which took me 22 min and 16 sec. It felt really good and I felt I have the capacity for running longer but I want to build it up slowly. So now I will increase my jog from my previous round which was 2,5 km to this new round which is 3,9 km. After the jog I did 1 hour of yin yoga. Starting to land now after this trip to Denmark, and I'm looking forward to get some distance from alcohol and focus more on my yoga and my jogging. I think I will actually go for a combination of jogging and yoga for a while now because they feel so great together, and perhaps I will even go for this half-marathon which is in june, but that isn't decided yet.

45 min meditation, 2,5km of jogging and 25 min yin yoga fusion today. I'm starting to get really enthusiastic about this combination between yoga and jogging again. It seems like some really potent type of fitness cross-training. Maybe I will reduce my focus on meditation and start to prepare for this half-marathon after all with this type of yoga and jogging cross-training. I'll let it hang in the air for a bit before I decide on anything. I think I have accepted that sometimes my focus is on yoga and other times it is on meditation and sometimes a mix. I think those cycles are natural. Sometimes what I need is to go deeper with my meditation, so then I need to focus more on that, and other times there are other energies going on in my being that requires me to focus more on physical health and getting my energies grounded through physical exercise.

45 min meditation per day for the last two days. Today I went jogging for 2,5 km and then I did one hour of yin-yoga. Those short runs of only 2,5 km are really sweet. Perhaps I'm getting hooked on running after all. This is my 5th run so far in a couple of weeks. First one was 28th of January. Better build it up gradually. I was starting way too hard. And I was getting pretty manic about it. But now it feels really sweet.

Did one hour yin-yoga after work today, then I went to the local Chess-club and played Chess for 5 hours, and when I came home I went jogging for 2,5 km and then I had to do that one hour yin-yoga program even one more time. I think I was exaggerating when I was starting out with jogging. I was almost running 5 km and I was pushing myself pretty hard. Only running 2,5 km without pushing myself is really sweet. It is like a really nice thing to do, almost like a reward in itself. Yoga certainly is a reward in itself. Perhaps all exercise should be like that.

No yoga or meditation yesterday, but today I did one hour of yin-yoga. I've done this yin-yoga program 4-5 times now. It is pretty cool to see how my body opens up more and more into these poses. This is the program I'm using: 1 Hour Yin Yoga Class Without Props - Full Body Yin Yoga Class

Oh wow, that was really sweet. Yin yoga is so sweet. Especially after cold baths and warm showers.

Oh man. Tired after working evening-shift yesterday, and then day-shift today. It is a bit hard to wind down after evening-shift and get ready for day-shift the next day. I feel that I really need to go down into the ocean and do 2 min of cold exposure therapy, but I don't want to, but I am going to. So just writing here for the sake of motivation. After that I will do one hour of yin-yoga. Ok, it is happening now. Looking forward to be on the other side of this situation Wrote this before the 2 min cold exposure therapy. Lots of resistance, but it was awesome. Just came out of the shower and now I'm ready for one hour of yin yoga as soon as I have dried up.

Didn't meditate today. But I did go for a 2 minutes session in the ocean as cold exposure therapy again. This is my second session of timing it. I have to say it helps a lot having a timer. It is much easier to keep the motivation going for staying in the water for longer. Also I feel much more relaxed when I time it. I get far over that initial shock of going down into water, and even though I used to think I was getting over that shock because of staying just a little longer than the biggest part of that shock, actually to process and relax the whole shock, and not just the most dramatic part of it, it is necessary to stay quite a bit longer.

45 min sit today. It fucking sucked. Haha. Guess I was having a little downer after all this intense energy that has been going on for the last couple of days with night-shifts, chess-tournaments, cold baths and etc. It was interesting though - at the end of the meditation I could feel a little re-charge going on. But again, the most interesting part is that I don't freak out so hard anymore when I'm having a downer. It's just part of my natural cycles.

2 minutes in the cold water worked really fine. I feel the relaxation effect got much stronger by staying down there for some solid amount of time. Then I did one hour of yin-yoga when I came home, and then I meditated for 45 min. I feel pretty good now, but I only slept 3-4 hours last night, and I'm a bit messed up from these night-shifts, and also I was drunk last night, but given the conditions I feel pretty awesome. When meditating today I could feel my sexual energy circulating around in my body in a way that felt really awesome. These cold baths combined with meditation really does something awesome to my sexual energy and my masculinity. Already I feel a much greater robustness. I'm usually a bit too sensitive and neurotic as a person, but these cold baths gives me a much more robust edge.

45 min meditation today. Damn my life is intense. Been working three night-shifts in a row, so I slept a little late, then I woke up and meditated for 45 min and then I went to the local pub and played Chess for 7 hours. I actually won 2 out of 3 tournaments! And usually my IQ goes down when I have worked night-shifts, so it was pretty cool to see that I could keep my skill up even after these taxing night-shifts. I'm becoming one of the best in the group. We're all newcomers, but now we have played 1-2 years and all of us who come regularly are really hooked. After that I needed something to land, so I went for a night-swim. Today is first day with snow this winter. The winter has been unusally mild, but finally the snow came. So that was a new barrier to break. It was kind of mild those other times when I walked down to the ocean, but this night it was winter for real. I was out in the water for 1 minute and 10 seconds. I was filming myself to send to a buddy, that is how I know. I think tomorrow I will buy a clock that I can use as a timer. I need some way to motivate myself to stay in the water for longer. I prefer now to use my mobile-phone. Tomorrow I will try to stay in the water for 2 minutes, if I'm not totally wasted after pushing myself so much these days. If not tomorrow, then as soon as my energy-level is back to normal.

45 min today as well. The groove is coming back after this recent «dry patch.» Glad I didn’t change things up.

45 min meditation today. Felt like I was doing some good work. I was getting into process instead of distracted by resistance.

45 min mediation today. Felt like my mind finally settled down again. Holy moly that was quite some energy this combination of winter-swimming, jogging and yoga stirred up.

Started the day with jogging 4,6 km which took 25 min, then I went for a winter-swim in the ocean, came home and did 1 hour of yin-yoga, and then I meditated for 45 min. Felt very tired when I woke up today, I think I was getting a bit manic with this combination of winter-swimming and my new interest for marathons, suddenly I felt like this superhuman again and I get super-inspired and feel like I can conquer the world in all kinds of ways, and after a night of that, especially when I refuse to go bed, then I get a downer, but now I feel refreshed again. Fortunately there are things like yin-yoga which gives very efficient rest that helps a lot for people like me who gets a way too energized when they feel inspiration. The good thing with this downer was that I didn't get panic like I used to do, but instead I was just very practical about it, understanding why it came and that I needed some more rest (I slept a lot yesterday and tonight). There is probably a correalation here ---> the deeper I go into "superhuman ego shit" when I'm high, the deeper I'll freak out when I go low again. If I can just keep my cool even when I'm high I'm more likely to keep my cool also when I'm low.

Started the day with one hour vinyasa flow yoga, then I went for a swim in the ocean, and then I went home and meditated for 45 min. Actually think I will go for this half-marathon, it seems like my body can handle it. I only feel better after one running session, and I'm pretty sure if I don't overdo it, and if I keep doing yoga next to it, then I think my body will only get stronger from this type of exercise.

If my knees can handle it I will go for a half-marathon this summer. Wow, this day has been beyond awesome. As mentioned I started it with 45 min of meditation, and then I went for a swim in the ocean which is 5 degrees celcius, and then I went to work and had a really awesome day at work. The guys at work who has gotten into running has really inspired me. They are going to participate in a half marathon this summer which is going to be 21 km long and are training for this. If my knees can handle this I want to join as well. After I came home from work I was so inspired I did one hour of yin-yoga, and then I went and bought new running shoes and went for a 4,7 km long run which lastet for 25 minutes. My co-workers told me about this really cool app called Strava where you can track all your runs through GPS and then post them in the Newsfeed for your running-friends to see. So inspiring. It is also much easier to keep track of ones progress this way, and to measure how long the runs actually are. Perhaps the coolest part about this I'm getting much closer to my co-workers because we have this thing we're really hooked on together and there is friendly competition between us and all our other co-workers thinks this is very amusing. I'm totally going to participate in this half-marathon if my knees can handle it. Just gotta start slow and build it up steadily. Yoga and running is also a really awesome combination, so I'd be willing to abandon my meditation-goals temporarily to participate in this marathon and instead focus primarily on running and yoga. Since my meditatation practice has reached a new plateau anyways, maybe this is the right thing to do? Set this really cool goal of competing seriously in this half-marathon along with really boosting up my yoga practice in order to support my running and keep my body healthy while partaking in this strain, and also all this bonding with my co-workers. It would probably be a really awesome way to enjoy my work even more. We are working at the emergency department of our towns psychiatric hospital, so that sort of atlethic vibe a marathon would bring to this just really adds positively to the challenges we face as a a group of co-workers. And since one of my most important goals is to master my job better, perhaps in sum total this would also really add to my meditation practice and increase my quality of presence. Ok, I got some weeks to experiment with running now to see how it affects my body. I'll fill in with yoga as well to see if that can strenghten my knees, and hopefully I can build this up slowly and it will work very fine. This is all somehow very inspired by me starting to take cold baths, and that whole Wim Hoff the Iceman, pushing your limits, kind of thing. I don't need to become as extreme as him, but there is something about that championship vibe. This also connects with my interest in Chess. The last 1,5 year I've become a much better Chess player, and through Chess I've finally understood what sport is all about. I really hated sports, thinking it was waaaaay below such a spiritual guy as me, but now I really understand why people are so extremly inspired by them. It is that whole champion vibe that really powers up that human struggle for greatness and our highest potential, which is so inspiring and life-affirming. There was all this really cool mainstream-shit going on all the time, and I was just so hard on a escapism trip, that I couldn't see any of it but was instead escaping into fantasies and ideals about what a fantastic spiritual place the world could have been, instead of being willing to engage with the world on the actual terms that it comes with. So glad I'm over that shit. What a bitter arrogant insecure dude I used to be, hidden behind this fake nice guy persona.

45 min sit this morning, and then a little swim in the ocean before work. Awesome way to start the day. Some of the guys at work has started getting really into running. I’m considering joining the hype. Running could potentially be a really awesome combo together with yoga. I like the idea of a really dynamic exercise routine - running, yoga, swimming, weight lifting, etc.