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Yesterday: 2nd session of kayaking this year But no meditation. This is my 4th year of kayaking. Doesn't seem like I have the drive on it the same way I used to, but I will at least try to get something out of it this season as well before I might ditch it. Today: 45 min meditation. Really nice. Very good momentum into concentration.

45 min meditation yesterday and 45 min meditation today.

45 min meditation today as well. Much nicer again today.

45 min meditation today. Challenging. Lots of tensions.

1 hour meditation today. Wow. Very profound. Really melting into concentration. The mind becomes still. There is softness and ease in all of my being. I feel like a united ball of white healing energy where everything flows in harmony and simplicity. It was very interesting that before my meditation a friend overstepped some of my boundaries and I felt pretty angry, but I was able to decide to not churn around in the anger (usually I don't have any choice). I have realized more and more lately that I have quite a lot of anger in me, and this can lead to a self-righteous mentality, so I want to soften up around this type of mentality. Meditation today really highlighted this possibilty.

45 min meditation today as well. Today I went into full-blown concentration. Really softening and heart-melting. Very beautiful.

Hey! :-) In my living room on the floor on a meditation cushion in front of my alter where I have a peaceful Buddha. For the most part I don't think much about locations, except it is nice to have a steady routine with sitting in the same place most of the time. But it is only for practical purposes. Having a habit of sitting down to train the mind. But I think of my home as my little temple, so it is nice to sit in the center of it, and do my act of devotion. I probably said some paradoxical things here.... :-)

45 min meditation today as well. Very nice.

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45 min meditation today as well. Today I did melt into the concentration. I was able to identify what was going on yesterday, and I went beyond that obstable. I'm often accessing a state these days that in traditional buddhist text is called Equanimity, and in low equanimity there is an obstacle called "slippery mind" which will prevent you from getting traction so that you can go deeper into Equanimity. It is sort of like you are getting to a place that is pretty pleasant / or at least enough Ok for you to lose focus and just sit there and simmer in well-being and day-dreaming, but you don't get any traction to move beyond it, and it is kind of tricky to identify it. But simply with the concept of "slippery mind," at least today, it really helped to just notice, "oh, I'm in slippery mind," and then I was able to gain traction again.

45 min meditation today as well. Deep concentration and stillness. Something could have been softer about the experience, though. I didn't fully melt into the states of concentration.

45 min meditation today as well. Supernice!

45 min meditation today as well. First 25 min walking meditation, and then 20 min sitting meditation. Very nice.

45 min meditation this morning. Very sweet. Lots of joy and well-being, but my mind was still active in a very subtle way that prevented it from landing fully in concentration. I have to understand better the suffering in this type of well-being so that I can go deeper into peace.

45 min meditation today as well. Had to do it right now late at night, so I did walking mediation instead of sitting to stay awake. It was a pretty sweet way of rounding off the day. Also: 1st session of kayaking this year Not sure if I'm going to journal about here like I've done the previous years, but this is my 4th year kayaking, and it was really sweet. Me and a friend went for a 2 hour long trip around two islands nearby. It was so good to be out there again. Pretty nice that this is my 4th year doing this as well.

45 min meditation today as well. Ok concentration. Neither good nor bad. Some restlessness. Some pleasure.

45 min meditation today. Really nice. Deep, soft, and sweet, concentration.

45 min meditation today as well. Restless and well-being combined. It was kind of strange. My meditation was going into concentration, and there was well-being and softness in my body, but still there was restlessness there coming and going. I guess I was processing stuff that was preventing my mind from fully settling down. It had to race through various issues, even though there was momentum in my body and mind for going into concentration. So these forces were pulling in opposite directions. I wonder to what extent, when there is momentum like this for going deeper into stillness, but something on the surface is pulling me back into mind-chatter, to what extent can I be more firm and still lead my mind into stillness?

45 min meditation today as well. Gosh. Busy days. I had to spend the night talking to my girlfriend about our long-distance relationship after a busy evening-shift, before a busy day-shift, so I was only getting 4 hours of sleep before the day-shift, but the conversation with my girlfriend was really inspiring, and somehow I woke up at the exact right spot in my sleep-cycle, so I was inspired for work and the day at my job was really awesome too, and I have said yes to working extra this weekend to cover up for my travel to Brazil a few weeks ago, so I went home after day-shift to sleep, and that was pretty perfect since I didn't sleep so much tonight, so now I'm working night-shift again, and after waking up from a very nice sleep in the evening I had a beautiful session of meditating for 45 min that felt very energizing. It seems like the cold is completely gone as well now. My energy is back and the depression and lack of energy from the cold is gone, so this has been some really interesting busy days with a sense of many great accomplishments. I think I'm starting to feel more and more fullfilled and accomplished in my career, and it is very obvious how meditation is supporting this career.

45 min meditation today as well. Gosh, the cold is still not completely gone, but fortunately todays meditation was really good.

Yesterday: 45 min meditation. Today: 45 min meditation.

45 min meditation today as well. Super-nice. The concentration and momentum is fully back. Interesting how much a cold is effecting the meditation negatively.

Friday: No meditation Saturday: 45 min meditation Today (sunday): 45 min mediation Finally this cold is starting to lift. Todays meditation was really awesome. Deep and peaceful concentration.

Yesterday: A second session of 45 min. Today: 1 hour of meditation. I still have a cold, and I have to go to work, so it is a bit rough, but I'm trying to increase the meditation to get extra powers. Today meditation was really smooth, so I'm getting some relief from this physically agitated state I'm in.

Did an extra session of 45 min meditation session yesterday to compensate for the session I missed the day before that. Today: 45 min meditation. I still have a cold, but the good feelings in meditation are becoming powerful again.