mmKay

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  1. smartphone app can do the trick. But it will do nothing unless your intention is dive into the present moment as deep as possible. Doing it for long periods of time is extremely difficult so choosing short blocks of time to train is key. Like 5 mins or so. Still the beeper could be valuable to pull you to the present moment throughout the day.
  2. Screw traditonal meditation. Get a beeper that beeps you into awareness every 30 seconds. That will skyroket your day to day awareness. IDK actually, I haven't done it for a long time, so that's that.
  3. let me post this for all men struggling with homosexual OCD to get some relief with a possible diagnosis: https://manhattancbt.com/hocd/
  4. @SamC Intuition and logic are miles away. Logic could be similar to thinking. And intuition is more in par with feeling. That's why it's said women are somewhat more intuitive. Because they are more in touch with their feelings. Once you realize how (relatively) full of BS logic and meaning are by having a dark night of the soul by really inquiring into the nature of meaning-making and reason you will naturally switch your main operating system from quasi-autistic logic to being guided by FEELING and INTUITION. If you actually look into how you ground your logic and rationallity you will allways find the problem of Infinite Regression. How do you navigate "infinity"? Intuition. Thinking is not needed. Or you can try to listen more to your gut feeling. Train that muscle and your understanding of that "language". It's difficult to explain. If you need to ask what it is you most likely don't have it. But it can certainly be developed. Everyone has it. Pull on that string.
  5. @Leo Gura omg i got it. All people bit into Trump because he has Tru in his name. Imagine his name being Falsemp ;0 aint nobody trusting that name
  6. @Alex Jones ?? Btw, you ever gotten picked on because of the name? It does have some connotations these days??
  7. @Leo Gura you could start an anal 5 meo dmt softgell company. Wanna experience god real quick and easy? Pop this pill really fast. But from the rear
  8. Hm. I thought you can go way deeper with understanding as it doesn't have the same bottle neck of language and putting things into words / images or analogies as explaining has. Even though you do conceptualize you inner understanding with language as well to a degree, non symbolic awareness would be the other understanding mechanism ( that cant be exactly / precisely comunicated, although can be attempted) Also you can understand things and not bother to explain or articulate them in a precise way. (In my opinion)
  9. Do you not find her hot? Maybe thats the issue.
  10. Would you saw understanding reallity is more important to you than explaining it or viceversa?
  11. Looking back on this. Funny it all started just as a morning thought. Gotta do more of these. This one unhooked me of junk food and taught me so much about nutrition and gave me back energy both physical and mental. Ill start another blog soon. This was a huge game changer. Focusing on one thing at a time is so powerful.
  12. I'm commiting for real. This is the most Important thing in my life for the next couple of weeks. I'm not waiting for 2020 to take personal development seriously. I'm putting 1000€ down on my desk for 6 weeks to remind me of the commitment, even though I don't have excess money per se. More important than that is my desire for a focused mind and vigorous body and actitude, and the desire to embody the insight of the HUGE importance of getting nutrition handled as a ESSENTIAL REQUISITE for self-development. And with Cocaine I refer to the socially acceptable edible version AKA REFINED SUGAR and other junk foods. This is what it deserves to be thought as. Really it's wrong to even call it with the label "food". It's not food. It's stimulating addictive poison that has been accepted to be called " food " by our low consciousness culture. I've been observing the effects of this motherf* for the last two years and ENOUGH IS ENOUGH. I have developed my body awareness quite a bit over this time and now I'm able to actually feel the effects of the "food" I'm eating. I recall being completely numb and clueless to this throughtout my life. I'm TIRED of being tired all the time. Constant brain fog and constant bodily fatigue. Also it looks like it magnifies resistance for any positive habits x10, and keeps creating negative spyrals of shitty low consciousness behaviour like wanting to zone out with League of legends, binge Youtube, excesively fap, etc. ( and these behaviours feed into shitty diet ). Not having enough focus to sit and introspect, contemplate and work on the LP course consistently. It makes me feel anxiety and tension in the body even though I consciously keep releasing it. It actually fckin' hijacks my emotions and thoughts making me feel negative, depressed and nihilistinc as a withdrawal syndrome. Like WTF? If this isn't a clear sign it's a hardcore drug IDK what is. It exagerates the magnitude of dropping excesively stimulating food. No, life won't be hell without pizza and cookies. Yesterday. I woke up inspired to make the commitment and I ALMOST DIDN'T! This whole thing started off as a little thought to which I was like * dismissive tone of voice* " yee that wud be cool man" as I kept laying under my warm and comfy bedsheets before getting ready for work. But I decided to take action on the thought, and here we are. Somehow sharing this on the internet makes it specially meaningful giving me some motivational leverage. Even though I understand all meaning is self constructed and that from the Universe's point of view it's also cool if I commit to a Strict Twinkie-only diet, I'll let go of my cynisism for 6 weeks and take on this personal experiment, keeping faith in that It will be worth it. Defining the Goal. Pretty much following the guidelines in " How to shop for healthy food" video + my personal experience. No Oyster / Soja sauce noodles or rice from work. No crispy flour-coated fried sh*t, no cheap meat or eggs. No sweetened fruit shakes, or ice cream, even if all of this is free. I noticed how my capacity to focus was worse week by week as I kept eating these things since I started working in that restaurant two years ago. No Wheat, bread, cookies, donuts, crossaints, cereal. No soft drinks, no honey or even fruits for the first week as I'm shooting to stabilize my blood sugar levels and I tend to binge on frozen fruit, and having a sweet taste in my mouth kicks off binge habits of overeating. No freaking Zebra Cake that my dad just brought in through the door as I was writing that my mom baked. BRB I'll burry that sh*t on the beach right now.
  13. @Leo Gura would you say all your biggest questions have been anwsered?
  14. You ever smelled it? Mine smells like chloride
  15. @Karmadhi there are literally free infield videos in that folder
  16. Watch the video and listen to his words and read the title of this thread lol
  17. There is some truth to what he is saying. His audience is at the level where they need to get their basic shit handled. Get some social skills, self esteem and material success, and by trying to "transcend" this phase by making a big leap towards chasing enlightment is a common pitfall and amateur move. I had fallen in that trap before as well, being naive and lacking critical thinking skills, I subscribed to idea that some people I followed pushed that " Enlightment" and overall " Spirituallity " will "solve all your problems". I legit meditated my ass off and did one thing at a time to promote mindfulness for a year thinking it would get me laid lmao. TLDR : Useful paradigm for people at a certain level of development. But then it's down to each indivitual to break off to higher ground and seek further. The way he frames it is not putting Spirituallity on hold. He's po-pooing it as a pitfall. Meh.
  18. If he's not that great could you guys provide an example of someone of who is great? I didn't know it gets any better without being a worldwide celebrity or dictator
  19. Pornhub premium was free for a while Also lots of time to introspect , think, plan, strategize, research and contemplate