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Recently as I've been intensely reading for 6+ hours a day on my laptop I started feeling literally as my eyes were wearing out. It's weird because i have a background of playing video games for like 12+ hours a day and I never had issues with screens. Stuff that we may consider : Blue light filtering glasses? Or maybe even better a blue filtering screeen protector for your phone / laptop screen ( i have no science for this) Investing in a e-book reader. I've heard it may be less strainful for your eyes. Maybe it's just marketint hype, who knows. Investing in the physical books instead of digital ones ( sadface) Setting up a timer to get up and focus your eyes on distant place for at least a minute ( every 20 min?) Having a proper dim lighting where you're reading, so you're not blazed by just a screen in your dark cave. Vitamin A? Eye exercises - move them around, give them a gentle massage ( with closed eyelids obviously) Take a longer break if necessary. A while day for example. These aren't backed up with proper research. It's just off the top of my head. Feel free to throw some of your wisdom here. No - i don't wear glasses or contact lenses. --- BONUS --- Would you rather be legally blind or deaf? I'd go for blind probably. I love closing my eyes and tuning deeper into the sensations and sounds. I feel that would be an extrovert's nightmare. But introverts FTW!. Maybe i'd turn into the next Ray Charles but instead of heroin I'd do some healthy DMT.

Are copper pipes a concern? I've recently learned that i have them at home and at the restaurant that i work at ( that uses tap water to cook - good god )

@beaconsfield definitely not the ones that are written on the bottles. Follow either Leo's supplement doses or the ones from ACC. they are similar. Personally I'll be following the ACC guidelines at first and see how i feel and then. Joikn the FB group and give it a quick read , it's rly short. I think i posted dosages for supplement already somewhere here, with links to purchase.

note to self : Definitely don't buy anything from the USA again. Dealing with the customs is a pain in the ass. I've been waiting for over 2 months for some of my supplements.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U9qBUJLgPzw Leo's video on bad trips. Quite insightful.

@beaconsfield @beaconsfield I don't think so. Just keep taking the recommendee dosages (on round and off round ) of the core 4 as long as you're chelating for anything. I asked the admins and they said it's okay even if focusing on lead chelation. And you're going to be peeing some mercury as well most likely since it's pretty likely that you've eaten seafood at some point in your life so the core 4 will definitely come in handy. Lead is stored in the bones and is somewhat of a slower process to get rid off it. I belive I posted some excerpts about this already so feel free to read that.

@beaconsfield it does have like 50 mg of vitamin c added depending of the dose of dmsa I believe but taking high amounts of vitamin C is safe so no worries. ( see linked clip )

this guy is really solid

Leo's Blog post on the 100 years of the use of Leaded Gasoline :

Haven't been posting for a while. I'm just waiting for my order at this point. It looks like there may be extra " importing fees " as it does come from the UK - thanks brexit. I had to delete the download link to the digital library as my other post got deleted and I got 2 warning points. Mercury Detox Manual is just 20 bucks and it's definitely worth it so get that. Otherwise do a little research and you should be able to find it online.

thank you! that's exactly what I was looking for.

To be fair once i saw a policeman talk to the student after he approached a girl. I don't remember his exact words but he was like " no means no " The coach told me the had done bootcamps all over the world for years and this was a first. Barcelona is known to be thicc in feminism thought. Weird city. For you to overcome the fear that you shared, try vividly imagining the worst case scenario and completely embrace it.

@Gabith Allow yourself to get carried away. Everything is valid as long as its how you really feel.

“Resentment is like drinking poison and waiting for the other person to die.” This right here is an extremely powerful DIY exercise to alleviate resentment. Think of one person in your life who has aggrieved you. ( Both my Mother and Father in my case , buy you may pick anyone ) Take a blank page and write that person a letter saying anything and everything you wish you had ever told them. Really get into this—you have nothing to lose. Make sure you write it out by hand. When you’ve gotten absolutely everything off your mind and onto paper, put the letter aside Take a fresh sheet and write their response just the way you wish they would respond. You might have them taking responsibility for their actions, acknowledging and apologizing for everything they’ve ever done that hurt you. You don’t need to find any justification for their actions, just an acknowledgment and an apology. It’s your imagination, so you get to decide exactly what you’d like to hear. I consider myself a 7.5 / 10 at inner work and I thought I have worked through pretty much everything but MAN this exercise had me sobbing QUICK, Enjoy! EDIT : You may not feel an immediate internal shift. However, over the next few days you may be amazed to feel this “new reality” gradually taking hold. To accelerate the process, simply reread the apology letter nightly for a few days. You’ll appreciate the results.

Stay at your dose until you have at least three symptom free rounds on and off round before upping your dose by no more than 50%!

The purpose of this exercise is to add a new tool to your toolkit, to deal with (and master) your inner world - your thoughts, beliefs, emotions, self-talk. It's not about changing the other person ( but better managing your inner world will certainly have many ramifications in real life and how you interact with others, and therefore, how they interact with you) Remember, “Resentment is like drinking poison and waiting for the other person to die.” So the " forgiveness " and " acceptance " is not for him but for you. It definitely does no good to you walking around bitter and resentful. Don't mistake " forgiveness" with "idiot compassion". Women are specially prone to this. Use your intuition to determine if the relationship is salvagable. Otherwise, learn to move on helping yourself with these techniques and more. I don't know if you mean that you don't talk anymore or that you're together but are being cold and emotionally unavailable. But for the purpose of this exercise and Inner work / shadow work overall, you don't need anyone besides yourself, your mind and your contemplation skills. Relationship counselling and relationship advice would be something else. It helps to get very clear , specific and tanglible about what " my feelings " are , and how " as I am " is ( for yourself ). Also the topic of " the need for love and aprooval from others " is deeper than this exercise. For this, I recommend you read Byron Katie's book " Loving what IS " . Here is a short PDF on the gist of it from her website . Also some of her videos from YT Lastly, understand that human beings are hard-wired to crave love , attention and aprooval from others, but women are exceptionally hard-wired for this, so I understand that It may be hard, but the key solution for all of this is learning DEEP self-love that emanates from inside out. One thing about " truth" in interpersonal relationships. Truth is perspective dependant. So you have your POV, and he has HIS pov. But not only that. Depending of how YOU or HE looks at the situation you can derive different "truths". All perspectives are partial, but also have a kernel of truth. So yeah, you could say that you are " creating an alternative reallity". But remember it's just as fake ( or as real) as your current one. The only difference is that the first one was created unconsciously, and for the second one you were aware of the mechanisms of your mind and chose to explore it deliberately. [...] “Hurt feelings or discomfort of any kind cannot be caused by another person. No one outside me can hurt me. That's not a possibility. It's only when I believe a stressful thought that I get hurt. And I'm the one who's hurting me by BELIEVING what I think. This is very good news, because it means that I don't have to get someone else to stop hurting me. I'm the one who can stop hurting me. It's within my power." - Byron Katie.

One of the reasons that I belive to be heavy metal toxic is years of ingesting tap water ( and life long love for sea food ). In school, at home and more recently as I've started working in a restaurant and eating there EVERY SINGLE day I learned that they use tap water to cook the rice and pasta. No wonder my mental sharpness and short term memory has been declining ever since. ITS BEEN 4 YEARS OF DAILY FOOD FROM THERE. I'll mosty likely do a hair test but I just had the genious idea to bottle up some tap water and make a heavy test analisis, and perhaps also for some other toxic stuff. I'd like to know the info for sure but I don't know about the costs and so on.

F*ck. I may end up taking a hair test to have a little more info. One study found that people who smoke have four or five times higher cadmium concentrations in their blood than people who don't smoke. I've been a life long second hand smoker ( aka passive smoker ) . IDK if how severe it is relating to cadmium toxicity. Cadmium chelates with DMSA and possibly ALA. The key to chelating cadmium safely, in addition to the usual chelation precautions, is to ensure the urine is alkalinized to a pH of 7 or greater (preferably closer to 7). This is because cadmium is insoluble in acid urine; we alkalinize it so that the cadmium does not deposit in the kidney. Urine pH is measured with pH test strips and small quantities of baking soda in water/capsules taken on round to raise the pH. Yeah IDK about swallowing baking soda. What is Urine pH? pH is a measure of how acidic or alkaline (basic) a fluid is. A pH of 7 is considered neutral. Below 7 fluids are acidic, while above 7 they are alkaline. How to test at home? Urine PH test strips The kidneys help keep the blood pH from going too low or too high by filtering acids or alkaline compounds (bicarbonate) from the blood and releasing them in the urine. That’s why the urine has a wider pH range compared to both blood and saliva. The normal range of urine pH is between 4.5 and 8 Diet, certain drugs, infections, and poor kidney function can all affect the pH of urine. Meat, fish, dairy, and grains all increase the number of acids that the kidney has to filter into the urine. Most vegetables and fruits (especially citrus) generate alkaline compounds, reducing the number of acids the kidneys must filter Note for self : ( although they recommend small quantities of baking soda in water/capsules taken on round to raise the pH. ) Acidic foods that I consistently eat : Organic grass fed grass finished ground beef ( 300g / day ) ,white rice, Onions. eggs. Shredded organic tomato sauce. Alkaline foods that I already eat : cooked organic red and green bell peppers, Lentils, pinto kidney beans. Alcaline foods that I may add that I know I tolerate well : Steamed cauliflower, steamed brocolli, MORE BEANS, SWEET potato ( not average potato ), Citrus Fruits - yup citrus fruits are alkaline , not acidic .

"Mopping up" refers only to combo rounds, where each chelator (ALA + a D) is taken for at least the minimum of 63 hours. After the minimum time, the ALA round is ended, but people continue to take the D chelator for an extra dose or two to “mop up” mercury in the extracellular spaces to help reduce redistribution. Selenium can help passivate mercury for a time by preventing it from binding in the body. Eventually it will disassociate and need to be chelated out. ( dosage : 50 - 300 mcg - how often ? IDK ) I purchased this selenomethionine Supplement ( yes, from America )

On " half-life " The half life is the time it takes to reduce the chemical by half.ç In a very oversimplified illustration, if you took just one dose of 100mg of ALA now, in 3 hours there’d be about 50mg of ALA left. Another 3 hours would have 25mg of ALA remaining. 9 hours after the dose, there’d be 12.5mg, etc. So it takes 8 half lives (about 24 hours) to get down to about .39 mg.

" A trial of chelation is the best test of toxicity ( as long as you're 100% amalgam free ) . Any response to the chelators, POSITIVE or NEGATIVE , ON ROUND or OFF ROUND - confirms toxicity. Start with one chelator at a time, so you know how you react to it . If side effects are too much then stop the round and trial half of that dose in the next round . If there are no side effects AT ALL ( Including off-round ), then the next round you can double the dose. If you have minimal side effects on or off round, stay at that dosage for at least 3 rounds before increasing, as side effects tend to to acummulate over time. If you are taking an appropriate dosage of chelators, redistribution symptoms should be fading on day 2 and gone by day 3. If it persists into day 3, you are on too high of a chelator dose.

@decentralized Then you can try again from a few different angles. This could mean that either you havent digged deep enough on what or how you would like them to respond. Perhaps you're going to need to engage your imagination way more and go beyond words. Imagine specific scenarios that would have to happen for you to forgive them and be able to move on and let go. Look for plausible justifications for their actions. This one is very good to trigger compassion for them in you. Resentment, anger, sadness, withdrawal - all stem from feeling HURT by something somehow. Find out exactly how do you feel you've been hurt and release it from the core. If any of you struggle with some of this, feel free to post any specific scenarios on here or through PM.

I like to imagine this is how Andy Cutler got Hesvy metal poisoning LOL https://youtu.be/0aICulCpRks Its funny cause he looks so much like him Its a joke - rest in peace and thanks for all your amazing contribution. Im kind of tempted of posting this on the ACC forum LOL I worry I may get kicked out ?

“I decide to interpret everything favorably toward myself. It’s not just that I’m optimistic, I’m actually conveniently deluded.” - Some dude on the internet. What's up. I stumbled upon this cool concept (that I didn't know had this name) and I wanted to share it with y'all. Most likely you personal development veterans have heard this one many times, but it's still good to go over the basics from time to time, This one is very practical and a good few solid bricks for your emotional mastery journey. CBT Article