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  1. a guy I knew for some time would take her grocery shopping for water jugs, carry the them into his apartment with her, he would play guitar and then finger her ( in that order, pretty bulletproof blueprint)
  2. The idea of shooting blanks is fascinating. But no guy will be willing to inject gel in his nutsack. It may be preferred over vasectomy though. Let's see where they take this.
  3. You kind of already answered your own question. You can use negative motivation to take action ( for example, you don't like how you look in the mirror -> you work out) The problem with that is that it may create a yo-yo effect where you stop taking action once the pain point is gone. Once you're content with your weight you will stop working out and the cycle continues. In fact, traumatized people have more potential to develop themselves because they can leverage their trauma to snap out of apathy. People that have lived a quiet normal life may end up just being average, and derping away their lifes. They don't have much to leverage themselves from good to great. Also you can only rely on negative motivation so much. It comes and goes. Ideally you want to rely on an intrinsic positive authentic vision. That's just one possibility. Other traumatized people numb their trauma with drugs, alcohol , entertainment, distractions etc rather than making use of that " dirty fire" If you want to clarify about your trauma and your goals we could develop this further.
  4. Not very long, but I still learn things till this day @ZenSwift Generally the process is pretty straightforward unless you have some health issues or amalgams. consistently chelate, supplement, rest, adjust dose, repeat
  5. What about as in " ruthless against his enemies ", and not his followers. Being overly compassionate may be counterproductive. I'm just pushing on that end of the spectrum to the maximum . We're obviously interested in the other side though. What must a leader be capable of doing to bring forward his cause/people even at the expense of other? Mass manipulate, create slaughterhouses, work with hitmen exploiting children, being disloyal, invading your country, burning down lands and destroying families, letting down weaker allies..." you're either with us or against us" mentallity Would you be willing to indoctrinate generations of children for your cause? Do public executions? Or terrorize/ threaten those who threaten your power?
  6. @Thought Art From my pov, social skills and specifically power games tend not to be a very noble by default. I was trying to discern between what you may call " self-actualized leader " and " ruthlessly effective leader" A " ruthlessly effective leader" may be cutthroat, sociopathic, ice-cold, closeminded, a go-getter, win at all cost attitude, narcisistic, ideological, a chronic liar, exploitative, injust, deceitful, hustler (as in the dictionary meaning ), highly charismatic and persuasive regardless of the ethics of the cause, dangerous , power/control/wealth hungry , etc. So these would be at opposite ends of the spectrum. Just wanted to mention this side real quick. The question would be how to combine the best from both worlds.
  7. I only like onyo tbh. All fruits are welcome if they are washed, peeled and spoon fed into my mouth
  8. It's no imposter syndrome. As said before, fitting in is a natural survival mechanism. You've just noticed it recently and now it feels alien to you because you've located it in your unconscious instincts rather than as a conscious decision. It's like you've looked for the first time in the mirror and now you find weird the shape of your eyebrows because you hadn't noticed before... but its just the way things are. Having a reactive emotional state to some degree is the same thing, fitting in. If you want to fit in, you can hope you properly feel empathy and fear and laughter the same way as others if you dont want to be an outcast. Being autistic or a sociopath is generally not a good strategy for fitting in. It's best to be able to relate and connect emotionally with others. Therefore you've noticed another natural instinct of yourself as the modern monkeys that we are. Exagerated example, imagine laughing when someone is crying. Not very effective way to be accepted by the tribe. "Hiding your intelect" as a fear of people's disapproval of you is also a coping strategy to fit in and not stand out. In the end, as you develop your character and confidence , you become more grounded and you stop caring less and less about fitting or the approval of others
  9. @AJBrew Well yeah, any meditation practice can potentially destabilize your life as you turn inwards and observe the mechanisms of your mind, it's no joke. You are mixing up self image work with consciousness work. They may be intertwined but they're not the same. Fitting in is a natural survival mechanism. Ofc people you spend time with end up influencing how you behave and what you belive. Same with culture, you're a fish surrounded by water. It sounds like your identity is not very grounded yet and you're relying on willpower to keep your center of gravity, which inevitably eventually fails. You also lack skill over your emotional state and drawing state from within, therefore you experience that fluctuation. Hang around better people and avoid what is absolutely against your values. How strict you want to be with this is up to you. Your identity has a centre of gravity right now. You can clarify it to yourself and then you can consciously slowly steer yourself in your desired direction. This takes time. Identity has homeostasis and you will not be able to switch a lot very quick or you will experience ego backlash. Meditation and consciousness work take you in the direction of metaphysical insight. Insights into the nature of mind, ego, thought, direct experience, no-self, THE self, etc It's not the same as self image and building your character / becoming grounded in your personality. You can think of them as somewhat oposed actually.
  10. Can you be more specific? Fitting in is one of many survival strategies. Your identity is not rigid and can be changed over time but it has inertia. Your physical and social environment also constantly shapes you and is prone to keeping you the same.
  11. Do you mean " good leader " or "Good leader" ? because I'm pretty sure we can come up with plenty of not so noble qualities 😉
  12. It may seem like a no-brainer at this point, but downloading a simple app that allows me to track my spendings / savings and categorize them / jot down notes has strongly impacted my money skills for the better. As is expected, the observer effect also shows here. The fact that you track your finances affects your finances. What are your money habits like?
  13. I was really hoping you would elaborate this point into Freeganism. Also one of my neighbors took your advice last year and looted my avocado tree
  14. Find more authentic goals. Being a little lost is a normal part of the process. You and every other human being care about some things more than others. Specify their importance to yourself. Being unclear here is your worst enemy. This is a work in progress. You will most likely not nail it at the first try. Action, trial/error and then back to the drawing board. And I get the feeling that you specifically are at a point where you are extra confused. Don't take seriously some half baked silly ideas you may get. You may be very wrong.
  15. Awareness itself . Try mindful meditation with labeling , do nothing technique or strong determination sitting. Check out some of Leo's olser vids. Also this belongs to meditation subforum for next time.
  16. Classic struggle of higher self vs lower self. Your lower self is an energy efficient lazy monkey who wants nothing but comfort, pleasure, entertainment, food, sex... The purpose is survival and minimal energy expenditure. You can also think of it as your primal self, your reptilian brain . Your inner chimp, your small / contracted self, etc. Your higher self is your aspirations, ideals, your vision, your goals , the impact you desire to have... It's more related with willpower and the prefrontal cortex. This is not your default mode of operating. It takes consistent conscious effort. If we look at it from this perspective, selves are part of yourself, and if you want to ease that inner dispute you must learn how both work and how to nurture them. Imagine your lower self is an elephant and your higher self is the rider. If the rider wants the elephant to listen to him, he must train him and take care of him. The whip will only help that much,and if the elephant is not honored and his needs are not met you can be sure that he will not be listening. The man being 100 times smaller must outsmart the potent beast. That's just one example. That being said, maybe you are going in the wrong direction and your procrastination is telling you that, but you don't listen and try to push through, failing every time and therefore the cycle continues. Understand your values, strengths and what you find meaningful and then structure your life around it. Then, after you've successfully build habits over time and reprogrammed your subconscious mind, your actions will be more effortless, life will be more enjoyable, but still you will have to care for your inner chimp daily. PD : You relying on guilt to take action also perpetrates this yo-yo effect. Once the guilt is gone, you stop. Learn about how emotions work and build a work ethic over time.
  17. Woah i just got it!!. Just sew in your P hole and make alternative pipes for urinating and money shot away from the crotch area!! Minimal STD rate and no pregnancy. #bioengineering #visionary How did God not thing about this design???
  18. Can you explain more thoroughly? are you talking about your personality, or confidence / self worth? This probably should be in the personal development section.
  19. I was feeling very " burned out " for the last two weeks. I hadn't consistently used supplements for months. The moment I took vitamin C three days ago it was like a cloud had lifted from me. I definately needed that and I felt first hand the effect of it. I'm convinced. Im using cheap powdered vitamin C ( ascorbic acid ) for now and I really feel it work, not like other stuff I've tried before. 500g is like 15€ which is pretty much free compraed with buying it in pills. ( ill " upgrate " to sodium ascorbate powder soon ) I'm concerned because the interior of the bag seems to be aluminium, just like tetrabricks are, and it may be reacting with the acidic powder......... maybe a plastic container is the lesser evil? It probably is. I can also buy 500G of pure magnesium bisglycinate powder for 45€ which is like 7-8 times cheaper than buying pills, 240 100mg magnesium pills = 35€. I'm considering purchasing a capsule machine to DIY some supplements. Or just use the powders. Putting it into capsules adds a significant cost as well, but for the sake of convencience and precision ( for chelation rounds ) it may be necessary) Currently doing a few days of building up CORE 4 supplements as my re-stock arrives. Spent another 100€ on them but mental clarity and vigorousness are among my top 5 values so I dont mind that much putting money into it. I'll do more chelation soon. My chelators expire this month but aparently I can use them till march because they've been stored properly. My intuition is telling me it's a stupid move though. I may reconsider.
  20. Holy Sh*t. Ofc Nicola Tesla was a Freak of Nature! Check this out : The Electrical Experimenter 1919 , page 66 on the PDF or 744 in the magazine( the source) is open to public. [...] Then I instinctively commenced to make excursions beyond the limits of the small world of which I had knowledge, and i saw new scenes. These were at first very blurred and indistinct, and would flit away when I tried to concentrate my attention upon them, but by and by succeeded in fixing them; they gained in strength and distinctness and finally assumed the concreteness of real things. I soon discovered that my best comfort was attained if I simply went on in my vision farther and farther, getting new impressions all the time, and so I began to travel -of course, in my mind. Every night (and sometimes during the day), when alone, I would start on my journeys see new places, cities and countries live there, meet people and make friendships and acquaintances and, however unbelievable, it is a fact that they were just as dear to me as those in actual life and not a bit less intense in their manifestations. This I did constantly until I was about seventeen when my thoughts turned seriously to invention. Then I observed to my delight that I could visualize with the greatest facility. I needed no models, drawings or experiments. I could picture them all as real in my mind. Thus I have been led unconsciously to evolve what I consider a new method of materializing inventive concepts and ideas, which is radically opposite to the purely experimental and is in my opinion ever so much more expeditious and efficient. The moment one constructs a device to carry into practise a crude idea he finds himself unavoidably engrost with the details and defects of the apparatus. As he goes on improving and reconstructing, his force of concentration diminishes and he loses sight of the great underlying principle. Results may be obtained but always at the sacrifice of quality. My method is different. I do not rush into actual work. When I get an idea I start at once building it up in my imagination. I change the construction, make improvements and operate the device in my mind. It is absolutely immaterial to me whether I run my turbine in thought or test it in my shop. I even note if it is out of balance. There is no difference whatever, the results are the same. In this way I am able to rapidly develop and perfect a conception without touching anything. When I have gone so far as to embody in the invention every possible improvement I can think of and see no fault anywhere, I put into concrete form this final product of my brain. Invariably my device works as I conceived that it should, and the experiment comes out exactly as I planned it. In twenty years there has not been a single exception. Why should it be otherwise? Engineering, electrical and mechanical, is positive in results. There is scarcely a subject that cannot be mathematically treated and the effects calculated or the results determined beforehand from the available theoretical and practical data. The carrying out into practise of a crude idea as is being generally done is, I hold. nothing but a waste of energy, money and time. Lets find more juicy stuff on him 😉 Other brilliant minds are welcome as well.