Giulio Bevilacqua

Hi everyone. I was wondering about after enlightment experience. I have many passions, like playing music with a band , reading and so on. My fear is that after the enlightment experience all theese hobbies are going to evaporate ! I love playing with my band , making concerts ,studying my instrument , i don't want to loose them . What is your idea/experience ? WIth my band we are trying to make a job out of our passion . I don't want to abandon them . Thank you for attention . Sorry for the english . Love from Italy

Hi everyone. I'm 20 years old . One year ago i had Derealization/ Depersonalization and a lot of existencial crisis. This brought me to leave university. I was studying philosophy . Now i'm healed , after knowing spirituality and spiritual masters like eckhart tolle and osho. Now i feel very lost because i don't know what to do and what i want for my future . I don't feel the sensation : " I want this ! ". I know i want to go to university , but i don't know what to study. I was very interested in philosophy , and after spirituality it seems very nonsense. Osho had influenced me a lot by saying that philosophy is pure madness and far away from truth. Maybe he is right. 5 years studying philosophy could be stupid. I don't feel any attraction to an other subject . I surrender to the situation hoping that something happens . Have you any advice ? Thank you very much. Sorry for my english

I think that everyone in his life time should truly know who he really is . The idea that i'm living without knowing who i really am is a disprection for life and for my self. Why living in the fake reality ? I'm not feared of enlightenment , absolutley not. The thing is that i love,enjoy also beeing active in the material part of life . I'm scared that i will loose my intererst in those things. Abandoning my band , or my instrument , i don't want that.

One could have goals on the material level. They could be seen as simple games to play with and not be worried if they are going to be reached. I think osho gives a gret view about this . Zobra the Buddha . He says that the Buddha is incomplete beacause he lacks the external life, the material one . Zobra sings, dances , but he is also incomplete , he lacks the "Religious Part" of life . Buddha is the spritual one

Thank you very much for your answer

I think it's fear of the unknown , now

Hi everyone, i would like to share my actual life situation, hoping someone could help me or just give me an advise . I'm 20 y.o and at the moment i have no idea what to do with my future life . One year ago i was in univeristy studying philosophy, during that time i had a hard depersonalization/existencial crisis, so i decided to leave the studies and heal my self , i couldn't focus and concentrate. All that situation brought me to discover spirituality and non duality . Now i really don't know what to do, i don't have that feeling to say " Yes this is what i want to do !". This makes me anxious . I start thinking that i'm wasting my time and feeling old (don't know why ). This brings fear. I have a lot of interests but i can't decide , everything is so confused, maybe it is normal after a hard existencial crisis . Thank you for your attention , sorry for my english , i write from Italy .

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Hi everyone, i would like to share/discuss a personal doubt about psychology . I'm thinking going to study pscyhology, but many doubt arose in these days. I questioned my self if psychology has something useful. I think that the main problem is the ego, in every situation and in e at the source you find the ego/persona/. I read the Social Psychology book , and in every arogument my mind finds ego . Maybe i'm influenced a lot by spirituality and can not go beyond this ideas . Osho influenced me a lot saying that psychology is only pure madness. Maybe all this spiritual stuff distorted my clearness to se psychology . So, if anyone of you is a Psychologist or Psychitrist could help me to understand better this mechanism of ego and the structure . Thank you very much . And sorry for my enlgish