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I agree with you all, tehnology can have HUGE lifechanging benefits, it did for me. But my worry is for those people who see tehnology only as an entertainment medium and an escape from reality. And get stuck binge watching one thing after another, again and again. And blindly believe in whatever is said on tv. Dont realy want to go into AI causs i dont have the nessesery knowledge about it, but with misuse in my oppinion it could end us all...there is the problem with climate change too, but i thing i said too mutch already, to handle in one discussion.

I had a vision a huge dragon eating the world, and only the stromgest could cut trough it. Then i daw seaturtles and fish in eattrt. After that i went to sleep and drrams mysellve crying black teart. Someone knows wth is going on?

Turns out my father is a psyhopath, he conffessed it to me whyle i confronted him about what he did to me. He said he has zero remorse and would rape children every day. I reported him to the police, and am currently staying at a mental gospital facility working thinks out. Just wanted to say that im ok, and thank you for all the support you gave me ❤

But still, can i blamme him for being born this way? Was it ok to report him to the police?

HE FUCKING RAPED ME!!!

I have suffered from the worst things fucking imaginable. I got raped by my father, i got astrosized, humiliated, manipulated, kept locked in a fucking hell cell from their creating. Got used, and bammed for every single one of their problems. And now my own mother wants to be in a sexual relationship with me, and then i show her fuck no, are you retatded?? She pushes me away and tells me to leave. WHERE DOES THIS SHIT FUCKING END. How do you fucking speak to people about that???? So mom...i dont want to be in a relationship with you because...YOUR MY FUCKING MOTHER?????????? I dont even want to live anymore...for what?? How do you have faith in anything anymore, how??? Someone tell me because i dont see it, bullshit after bullshit, it seems to never end. I dont even know how i managed to stay sane. I admire myselve, dont even care if its egoic, i just do and fuck everything else.

@Ar_Senses thx mate apreciate it. Yes i read the book, and i know i got self esteem issues, im working om that too. But its funny the first time i read the book my self esteem skyrocketed, but underneath it there was still that wound that just didnt let me go forwars, which then lead to a catastrofy. But hope as i heal it my self esteem will get better too.

@Leo Gura I was at one point away from them, when i went to college, then i started watching your videos too. And yes, i felt 10x more powerfull, but as soon as they noticed that i started to change, they cut everything. And i just couldnt study and work at the same time, and they knew it lol. And i couldnt leave because of the shit inside me, but i just kept pushing with my head trough the wall, until everything colapsed, and i went totaly nuts for a while.

@Ar_Senses Croatia

@Ar_Senses Great story and thx for the support, the last time i tried psyhodelics it was a complete nightmare trip, so im realy hesetant to do that again. But i found that, because i got...the first time beacuse i didnt want to spend time with my father (great reason btw), if i left it would happen again..that made me feel that helplessness all over again, so i think now it will be easier to leave. Or if not i will just find why. Thx for the advice @Leo Gura i will follow it, and move as soon as i can. Probably do some therapy too...need to get that out of me.

I know i need to, but i feel so helpless leaving them. I still believe i somehow deserved all of that. And as mutch as i try i just cant get rid of that feeling. I know what i need to do, but i just cant, its bullshit, everything.

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Or if i realy did i wouldnt need to talk aboit it?

@Leo Gura I need to cure people of their problems because i dont want to cure my own?

I remember

WHAT DO YOU THING WHAT???? YOU RETARDED???

My "Father" and everyone will know

My grandfather leaft my grandmother and my father when he has i believe 6 or so. And that left them terrified of abandonment. They cope with it by controling everyone and everything. They probably believe that if they control everyone and everything that then noone has the chance to leave. They also witdraw emotions, probably to not get hurt again. But this is destroying our family! It is fucking hell living in sutch an invirement. And the thing is that exacly that behavior will make people leave them again and again. But they wont fucking listen!!! I tried to talt to my father about it but he keeps denieing everything!! He simply wont hear me out, and starts shifting the blamme on me, like he always does, he doesnt believe a word i say, and starts blamming me about my views of god, and im a bad cristian and so on and so on. My grandmother is stage blue and father is stage orange with blue perception of god. How do i convince them that they need do deal with it and to go to a therapist?? I dont know what to do anymore, i feel desperate. And it is i fucking problem, one day you fight with him and the other he is FORCING you to go swimming with him, not asking you but forcing you and if you say no he gets mad and defensive and starts blamming you for god knows what this time. Its messed up, realy terrible invirement, and i would leave and probably will, but my brother and mother live in this too, and i see its fucking with them and messing them up. So i feel bad just leaving them like this, when i know whats the problem.

@DrewNows i had the same thought, and it seems like the best way.

@now is forever i agree with you, exept the run thing, chose to leave.

@Bill W Fu.

@flowboy Glade you like it.

@Bill W i wont make that mistake again. I heard all my life you dont matter, you are useless, you dont know anything. I will help as mutch as i can, because i see that beneth that all is just fear and hurt. But if they dont listen, fuck that shit. I wont let fucking morons to take me down again.

@flowboy https://www.verywellmind.com/fear-of-abandonment-2671741 here you go

@flowboy Look online for fear of abandonment, i found good post about the psyhology of it. I read somewhere that it may be the most damaging fear to have, and it only prepetuates real abandonmet, what could be the worst of all. @now is forever yep, i should make some effort to convince him...