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@Mu_ yes sir. I will try to accept it. And about that flirting thing: I know she likes me in that way. Maybe it is her way of expressing it like that. I don’t like her, and now I can’t even stand her. But I will try to accept. Thanks for the advice.

I think this is getting out of hand. I tried ''healthy masturbation'', but I just couldn't do it. Lotion was there to help me for 2 mins, but after that I couldn't even keep an erection. I am trying to jerk off without distraction. Something I read in ''No More Mr Nice Guy '' by Robert Glover. I have heard many negative things about porn before. When I asked if NoFap was recommended to teens, there were people who said that masturbation itself isn't bad but porn is. In case you couldn't put the pieces together: I am young and don't want to be depended on porn for my pleasure. I haven't masturbated in 5 days. I want to keep it at low rate. Something like once every week. When I masturbate, I want to do it healthy. That means no porn or fantasizing about someone.

@winterknight that explains a lot, thank you for responding.

Hello everyone. I am a 14 year old boy who started meditating 2 months ago. The last few sessions I have had random laughs and tears. I have no clue why really. The laughs might be explainable. Recently I got many insights and by every insight I just laugh. The tears however: I don’t know. I never am really emotional or laugh so much that tears roll down my eyes. It just happens randomly and stops after the first or second tear.

@FredFred Wauw never seen someone showing so much interest in me. It all started when I looked up “meditation” on Netflix. I came to “The Secret”, and when I looked that up on YT I came on Leo’s channel. I didn’t understand his latest videos and exactly then came to the video called: “What Is Misunderstood About Islam”. I was raised up as a sunni and therefore was interested in what he had to say. I loved how Leo talked about it and decided to watch more of his videos. I have always been interested in Buddhism after I learnt about meditation. One day I want to research Buddhism, but before that I wanted to do what Leo said in “Advice For High School & College Students - The Keys To Mastering Life”. Turns out that I already did most of what Leo was talking about, besides finding my life purpose and meditating. So I started watching his meditation video and later on his shamanic breathing video. Now I meditate once a day for 30 min (for the last 2 months) and do shamanic breathing every Friday for 30 min aswell (for the last 7 weeks) You can look up my journal on this forum called “From the perspective of a teen who doesn’t understand” if you are more interested in me or my thought process. Especially the introduction post is interesting to read.

I miss the old days. I miss going to school without any concerns. I miss my old teachers. I miss my old habits, even though they were very bad. I miss being the old me. I miss not caring about other people and staying in my own room. I miss gaming with the funniest people on the internet. I miss laughing for several hours straight with people I have never seen irl. I miss the me from 5 years ago. I miss the me from 10 years ago. I miss looking at twitter to esport players and watching stupid videos. Hello everyone. This is a little bit sad I know, but I thought maybe you guys could help me out. I am a 14 year old boy who just started doing all this work. I only started 2 months ago with reading books and meditating. I stopped gaming and with that the community, I stopped eating unhealthy, I stopped being lazy. Now I am dominating in some kind of friend group, I am literally an attracting machine. The girls touch me over and over again and all the guys look up to me, but I don’t feel much better. Yes I am less socially awkward, but that got swapped with not having good laughs with friends. All these people have never been this close to me, some only just know me. I think I am losing my mind. Whenever I am alone somewhere in school and there is a break. I look to the primary school on the other side of my school. All those kids, playing with each other, having so little concerns. So peaceful. I don’t want to get out of that world, but if someone finds me fantasizing about them they would think I am crazy. I thought this was all I ever wanted. Being in an actual friend group without involvement of games, having girls who like me and act in ways to get me closer to them. See them make mistakrs while I am in the present moment when we talk. Being muscled and eating healthy. Reading books and gaining knowledge. I struggle with loneliness. This is something I recently discovered. Now some of you might think I am crazy because apparently all suffering is conceptual or whatever. I know that people have too much involvement with the mind. If that is what it is called. And when I am mindful all those emotions go away. I just wonder how in the world I could maybe get that kid-feeling back in my life. I am clearly too stuck in the past.

02-12-2018 Hello everyone. Today I finished ''Our Inner Ape'' by Frans de Waal and am about to start with ''The Suble Art of Not Giving a F*ck'' by Mark Manson. School gave me some stress, but I guess that is part of life. Sports are going well. Today is the birthday of the friend of my crush, who has a crush on me actually. She has a twin brother and both got a special post on Instagram from my crush. After being jealous for 2 min, I realized how pointless it was. I guess I am growing my friends. Currently listening to Blue/Orange music because it sounds good. I barely have listened to music the last few weeks. My crush turns out to be an ex-hippie and might just be above me on the Spiral. Even though she probably doesn't know about the Spiral. I asked her about some contacts she has with hippies, she asked why I needed them, I said ''for some problems ;)'' (in a WhatsApp group with friends). Next day we went to the cinema with those same friends and after the movie went somewhere to eat. After keeping her mouth shut for a few minutes she randomly asked about this again. I noticed how many times she does this when something is bothering her. It means that the night before she has atleast thought about my question for a few mins. Why else would it randomly come out of her mouth? After we got home, I sent her a message about why I asked that question. She gave me some basic information about hippies. They basically are masters in self-acceptance, although my crush didn't exactly say that. I don't think she knows that word at all. She used to meditate when she was a hippie herself. Those 3 books still haven't arrived and I am already considering to buy ''The Anatomy of Loneliness'' by Teal Swan. If you didn't know yet, I discovered that I struggle with loneliness. During all this time I learnt how people are too stuck in their minds, which causes things like suffering. Being mindful helped me get over some loneliness, but I really want to know what Teal Swan has to say about it. That is all for now. Take care.

@ExodiaGearCEO Thanks for responding. Beautiful quote btw, I guess sacrifices are needed to please the future me.

@kingroboto You are right man. I don't miss being a toddler, I miss the things that are involved with being one. Parents who always care about you, watching Pokemon early on Saturdays, enjoying my fucking life man. I had no worries back then really. Now all this chaos and conflict inside my head makes me stressed out. Meditation learns me to calm down and I hope one day to reach enlightenment and not suffer anymore. If that is possible.

Hello everyone. Today, during my meditation session, many times my monkey mind started to calm down a bit. Something that didn't happen much before. What I noticed was eye-opening: there is so much tension in my head. Does anyone know why that is? I started to flow, literally like water, and had a strange feeling in my body for so long. I still have a bit of it. I meditate everyday for 30 mins for the last 2 months. I started off with 20 mins and made my way to 30. If anyone knows how to release all that tension please leave it down below. Take care.

@John Lula you see... my family is stage Blue. If they saw a book I am reading with the name “porn” on it I would be a dead man.

@Joseph Maynor About the future: I don’t know my life purpose. I discovered in school that I like history, geography, economics and math (if I understand it). Recently I became more interested in the EU and want to read more about it. Th thing is however: future is so goddamn far. And when I talk to old people they tell me how I should enjoy my life while I am still young or else I would regret it.

@ZZZZ That is the thing man. After I stopped gaming and wanted to gain some kind of power over people, I thought about how to have charisma. Turns out you gotta just be yourself. I know that I would surpress myself in being “too funny” or “too attention whory” because some reactions in the past about it made me anxious. Now I couldn’t care less about that. It gave me more power and attention. I realized a few days ago how you should take everything with a grain of salt. I guess I should start doing that.

@Myrox I guess you are right. I know that there is not much wrong with the path itself. The only problem is my view of it.

@Jack River You mind explaining this? I don’t clearly understand it.

@Sahil Pandit You are right man. It felt weird in a bad way. I felt on drugs even though I have never been on drugs.

@Sahil Pandit Yeah this is something I am glad that I know before I have sex. I am a still virgin, so I guess right now is the time to make a change.

@John Lula Thanks for bringing some studies in your reply. What is the book called btw?

@Shroomdoctor Yeah I know I guess I thought it would change something.

@Sahil Pandit This is something I tried today actually. First of all: I felt feelings from my d*ck in my chest. The warmt, the energy. Second of all: It almost worked. So I will certainly try it again after a couple of days. Unfortunately these replies came a bit too late. I have failed.

@Shroomdoctor That is the thing you see... I started with porn. I have never done it without porn.

Hello Leo. Even though currently most of your video's are spirituality related, I think a charisma video would be very useful for a lot of people. You said before that something you regretted in your teens days is not socializing enough. A lot of people still have this problem. A video about charisma would be very handy in that case.

@martins name I meditate for a few months now. I think I am ready to try new technics. I will look up ‘’metta meditation’’ later this day. Thanks for replying.

Hello everyone. I am wondering about this for quite a while now. Since Leo mentioned “hippies” as examples for Green, I got interested in New Age and wondered if I should try to become one. Now don’t get me wrong. I have no clue where to start, but I wonder if it could work. It turns out that I am mostly Orange and I want to transcend to Green. Either I can become a hippie, or go to an Osho meditation centre and become Green while I think I am Turquoise. I might’ve just missed Leo’s entire point in his video about Green and am right now asking stupid questions. If that is the case please help me out of this delusion.

@Leo Gura Oh yeah that is right I can remember you talking about that. Thanks for replying