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@28 cm unbuffed I feel for you man, stuggling with this myself sometimes, this is what seems to work.

@28 cm unbuffed I understand your worries, but I think you shouldn't worry about what is narcissism and what isn't, this is a duality just like any other, you could be exploring it to infinity and creating it bigger and bigger... Instead, just try to see what feels good now Whether it is „narcissistic shit“ or „selfless shit“ doesn't matter, it can give you a clue, but you gotta figure it out. I trust you are „good“ at your core, you got this!

Are you genuinely enjoying this aspect of your life, is it something that makes you energetic?

@GodDesireOnlyLove Lovely

Hey guys, I was scrolling youtube and this video's title made me click on it and watch it: Sometimes I wonder how many people consider themselves to be weird... It's something very hard to define (just like any other duality), yet it's something that inspires many of us. Just an announcement - I am not saying you should start acting like a narcissist, seek approval and be attached to your weirdness, that certainly is a trap, but I think opening up in an unselfish way and being honest is one of the things that can help you along the path. I was thinking that making this thread would lead to some of us building a better connection on this forum, as we don't really know ourselves that much, although we write messages and try to help each other, or criticize each other. Lately, I've been staying up late in order to „interview“ people when they are at their most „existentialist“ - thinking about their lives when nobody disturbs them at night. It's crazy what kind of new things you can learn about the world in this way. I will start by sharing observations of my own - Weirdness is something that can bring you tons of approval, basically, I have been getting the largest amount of approval since I stopped hiding my weirdness. I understand that some of you might be afraid of sharing this, because maybe you live in less developed countries or you don't trust anyone or maybe you are afraid that people might report you and lock you down on a psychiatric ward because of your interests in mysticism. You can see this in Leo, he doesn't really care about anyone's opinion on his teaching that much (which I don't want to advocate for) but he is certainly receiving a lot of love and support. I know some of you out there think you are the only ones in your city interested in spirituality - you are probably wrong about that, in fact, Enlightened beings might live like directly opposite of your house. Another thing is - openness, honesty and trustworthiness resonate with people like really a lot. My friendships have improved so much since the time I stopped hiding in the shadows. It is insane how many thing you would think are totally unacceptable are actually very much accepted by many people. (Whatever that means for you!) You can usually get away with more than you think you can. One thing I like doing is not thinking about something I want to do would be weird, like asking that weirdo in the corner why he is dating that extraordinary girl or asking that artist, whose music you like, about their gender preferences, as you might not be quite sure about that when you first look at them etc... That also applies to other stuff, like maybe you would like to learn some exotic language which doesn't have that many resources online, so you can basically ask strangers who you think speak that language in the streets and become friends with them or find university professors who teach that language and just casually start a conversation with them. All that is very possible. Your life will probably become more interesting, amusing and also intriguing. It might seem like you fucked up at times, but you will love that in a way. When you start thinking you've got it all figured out, life will throw more obstalces under your feet just like that. I might remember more things as (if) this thread develops beyond this. Please, share your stories! (and don't mistake them for the Truth, while accepting them lovingly)

@VerballyHazardous Interesting, thanks for sharing that. @GodDesireOnlyLove What creates your hope?

It's always the normalness/sanity being freaked out that it's going abnormal/insane. You are always You. <3

@VerballyHazardous I thought it might be because you consider your anatomy to be somehow „broken“, therefore you enjoy seeing other individuals with broken anatomies being „accepted“. Could it be that? I am just guessing. Nah, I don't think you are dangerous because of this... Are there any other people who feel touchy? Do you guys sometimes have an intuition to touch someone in a particular way, maybe @Keyhole ?

You are doing that now, but unconsciously. You create what you unconsciously imagine, that's why you suffer. Just know what you want. How should I put this...

I was talking with a friend of mine about this and it seemed to me like both of us resonated differently with different facets of Love/Reality. But I wouldn't say either of us is more woke than the other, I would probably say something like @Preetom here: What are your comments on that? Sorry, my mistake, I meant, given that you've studied many teachers and probably have met many serious seekers of Truth, from which some have this and some don't, what do you think would help such a talented person to stop assuming stuff and become more mature in their communication? Lol

How do you know you have this special wiring? What would you recommend such a person to realize / stop assuming?

@VerballyHazardous Do you think these fetishes as you call them could tell you something about your subconscious mind? In my experience, it's something worth exploring. @VerballyHazardous I get a warm feeling from reading this <3 Beautiful. Have you figured out why you feel like touching people? @Keyhole Hello there. Reading this, I remembered one of my observations - I would define myself as a weird person from the time I first started thinking that if I were to share something, it could have some possibly unpleasant circumstances. (in this case spirituality and being diagnosed insane) But when I share this with more and more people and keep being accepted, I feel less weird, but many people around consider me weird and I cannot really count on them understanding me everytime, so I have to listen more often than I talk. I also don't feel like any more acceptance is actually helping me, it's become a kind of compulsion. Therefore, I might not consider myself weird or not weird, but this still influences my life experience. @DivineSoda What do you believe?

I think this video fits this thread nicely, interesting perspective. Feel free to share world-view changing videos you like.

@Preety_India It's just you

@AlphaAbundance @IJB063 Stop this Star Wars thingy please

She's certainly brought some (a lot) of wisdom into my life but I agree that she has a weird vibe in many of her videos as well. @The observer It's interesting how someone can sound confident without knowing anything right.

@modmyth What do you mean by self-aware?

@Preety_India Wth I wouldn't get away with that, unless I would somehow charm all the ladies lol jk. The friend told me, that they sometimes yell at him and force him to leave the ladies' although he hasn't undergone the surgery yet... He is kind of freaky when he is there I can imagine, but it is also sad, because girls don't have it as easy as guys in this sense.

Just one thing I haven't done yet but am planning to do is go to gentlemen's restrooms with my female-born transgender friend who looks like a guy and acts like a guy. I wanna see if anyone notices or no.

@IJB063 lol @VerballyHazardous Ohhhh I also have this urge to touch people... Did you have it also before you realized Love? I am just curious... (I didn't) How was your awakening into Love, how did it change you? Did it help with the suicidal thoughts at all? I am not judging anything you have written, I just don't want to get this thread banned by mods, so I should write this: If you feel like you might regret something you'd written here later in life, don't write it!! Actually my 15 year old class mate thought kissing can make you pregnant so don't worry, you aren't the only person who has weird beliefs about sexuality. Why were you not smiling? @Zanoni So are you or are you not? Asexuality is interesting, it's just kind of unfortunate when you fall in love with somebody who is... How does it feel? What would you say to the people who do fall in love with asexuals? @Hardik hilarious right @modmyth you made me google that thing x))) I didn't want to do it at first, but nothing that horrible, I guess that's because I've watched way too much anime... good questions as well! @Preety_India I had this when I was very little too I guess it is not so weird in young kids, I wanted to become an archeologist even, but maybe it is when you are in your teens/twenties... Idk, who is to say... I remember myself sitting on my chair, watching the cartoon Ice Age and copying the prehistoric animals, do you also do that? What does your signature look like? I am curious x)

@IJB063 Good for you they did that, 0,5 feet is enough to embarass yourself in front of a class right.

@Bazooka Jesus Just share what you can, this is God exploring itself.

HAHAHAHAAHAHAAAHAHAH Good point!!

@WhatAWondefulWorld Then don't

What did you learn? I am curious