Shadowraix

Father God Mother nature Those 2 phrases really shine the Yin Yang aspect of feminine and masculine.

Think of it this way. Consider the early days of the universe when life was just being formed. Do you think life since the get go could think? I would say not. So being comes before thought. Consciousness in the context of the mind is usually equated to self awareness. In a lot of nondual perspectives is used in the perspective of the most fundamental form of everything in which everything derives from. So your self awareness derives from consciousness itself. The thing that is doing the grasping is the exact thing you need to get.

If there is anything I can say about psychedelics that seems to be mutually agreed upon among many is that it at least strips societal conditioning. Ideas one holds on how things should be or should act. To question even the most standard things in society like attire etc. Makes you realize you were a robot the entire time. Its only until you have such a realization that the real work can begin. Psychedelics don't mean much if you can't implement what you learned in sobriety.

@Shin Those quotes really resonated with me.

You aren't the cause of their suffering. They cause their own suffering. By trying to project their own image of how you should be onto you instead of accepting the reality of who you actually are. If you want to maintain relations then personally I would just be neutral about everything. If they try to protest then ask them to let you spread your wings. That if their path truly is the right path for you, then you'll find such a path.

From what I know, the Big Bang only describes the expansion of the universe from a singularity. It does not describe any sort of origin or creation of matter. It was already there.

May be true for a certain demographic of women. Just find one that isn't that way.

Biological sex indeed is roughly black and white but you do have intersex which is just an all encompassing term for biological variation regarding sex. Although people don't like to acknowledge the inherent dynamic nature of life and shrug it off as a minority. Yes gender in this case is often used for how you express yourself. We as a culture has set features that make us more masculine or feminine. And you can slide along the spectrum between these. As far as I know gender has been considered an expression component of biological sex. I can understand feeling neither feminine or masculine but in terms of having genders outside of that spectrum we must define whether gender has some sort of correlation with biological sex or if its completely untethered.

Find the path for you. I found my grade school years very beneficial and it taught me a lot. I was gonna go to college but soon dropped out because I wanted my own path as a programmer. There's no solid yes or no answer to the value of standard education. Its all about if its a step necessary to achieve or get closer to your goal.

Anybody who dissects and fragments what you said is going to have some major problems if they don't try to actually make out what you are trying to mean. By that I mean linguistically there is a smeller, thinker, hearer etc its just when referencing to actually sensing, its a verb not a noun.

Yep, I've had a similar shift. My girlfriend likes to fantasize about the potential future but in the relationship I've been a big grounding encouraging for her and I to live in the present and just enjoy having each other around. She might change or I might. And thats okay. I think this kind of mentality has helped my girlfriend and I bond more by worrying less about "oh what if they leave me" etc etc

I've been waiting on the one regarding evolution and intelligent design which he alluded to in the infinite intelligence video

@Serotoninluv Very well written. On the cult claim, nobody is trying to get you to follow anyone or follow anything. While there can be much to learn from others (Leo helped solve my moralization dilemma for example) the only time any advice is useful is when you've deeply come to the same conclusion yourself and see success from its application. Its one thing to be told something, its another to realize it. A lot of the profound realizations that come with this path while can ease pain from the painful stuff, it also will cause a great deal of pain to let go of all of your deeply held beliefs you once identified with. Nobody said it was going to be all unicorns and rainbows. People see this as ludicrous because the ego will backlash not wanting to let go of all that maintains its survival.

Ask yourself this: Is your capacity for deep intimate love restricted by a number threshold? One of the biggest struggles of polyamory is for all partners to not get territorial against one another. It'll ultimately reflect how much you've put your ego into its place.

I don't know if this is too nitpicky, but the eyes don't make the distinction as all it does is transfer information. It has to be processed. Something that is very fast and doesn't inherently depend on thought. Identification does i'd say. But separation of things in sight seems to be automatic. Lots of things are happening outside of your conscious awareness. Calling duality the same as distinction depends on perspective. I wouldn't call duality or distinction inherently false as what it is fragmenting is there, but it can distract from seeing the whole. So it ends up becoming very illusory. Many in nonduality seek to make the nondual intellectual understandings shift into awareness. To experience nonduality instead of just learning the concept of it.

I would say duality comes from distinction. Duality would be polar opposite sides of something. Good vs evil Hot vs cold etc Distinction would be some form of fragmentation of things. Seeing an egg and separating it from the environment would be a distinction. The only thing separating an egg and the environment is the arrangement of atoms. The only thing separating you from me are the atoms between us. All these classifications are arbitrary. I had to abstract a bit to try and explain my point (such as using atoms) Without distinction its just all infinity. No distinction means no atoms, no speakers, no grass etc its all just one big thing.

The brain is what processes sight and thus still creates the duality/distinction. Its like breathing. You can consciously make distinctions but you don't need to be consciously aware of it to do it. So I don't see where you disproved me. You are creating distinction whether you are aware you are or not. I never said conscious thought was necessary.

People misjudge things about themselves all the time. You could be doing the same, no? As repetition based creatures, the more you reinforce an idea, the more you fall into and believe it. Thats why if you keep calling yourself a good for nothing piece of shit, you'll actually begin to believe it and it makes realizing you aren't that all the more harder to break out of.

So - I am curious. How do you know? There are plenty of people who have this sort of static mentality and then end up radically different. What makes you a unique case to be sure you aren't in the same illusory mentality? Everything we do is a skill. So is socializing. Skills need to be honed and developed. Don't expect to be an expert over night or even a year.

Its a thing. There is somebody out there who can work with your level of personal development, it'll just be more difficult to find. When I started my journey, I shared most of it with my current SO and she so far seems to be extremely receptive about it. Just has motivational issues to really get into it.

Don't feel smart or superior. If you really need me to break down the "fancy words" into more simple explanations I am happy to do so. I'm not saying these things to make myself seem better. Have you ever thought people might have some genuine interest in helping you become a better person? It all just sounds like you've been molded a certain way and now refuse you can be any other way. You deny and backlash anybody who suggests otherwise. As if you don't want to put in the effort to try and see if you can. Have you actually narrowed down the roots of why you think how you think? Your ability to change is even greater if you are young. If you think you'll be the same 10-20 years from now you are in for a rude awakening. You've got nothing to lose by seeking improvement.

<=12 hours is normal for LSD trips I thought? 8-10 for high doses seems no different than low doses. Can't say I ever noticed a duration difference between 100ug-1500ug

This is why they say don't follow a teacher blindly, but find the answer for yourself. Following advice isn't to blindly believe but to apply it to verify it.

Put a decade into seriously and truly trying then get back to me. Minor adjustments can add up to a radical change. The only one stopping you from being better is you. Thats all there is to it. Whether your parents or you would laugh at the idea or not is irrelevant.

You do. I am just telling you that people don't have to be shaped by their past experiences for the rest of their lives. I'm not claiming to know your personality. I am merely claiming that your personality is not a static stuck with forever thing. I'm only truly trying to point out 1 aspect of you. Your self limiting beliefs thats stopping you from being who you want to be. Giving up and accepting who you are is always the easy road compared to putting in the actual years upon years of effort to be better.