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@Strikr Yeah I think I've done enough research now. It's time to move into 'being' to prepare

I'll take my guitar with me then @SaWaSaurus Couldn't contemplating my own death potentially turn it into a bad trip?

Dude, as long as it has Emma Watson's face on it somewhere, I'll gladly submit haha I've heard that 'surrendering' to the experience is the name of the game after all. Plus Leo will be impressed that I was so deeply intimate with the Ox first time around. Yeah I was the one talking about ego death. I get what you're saying, don't have expectations. I've read that it's fine to have intentions but not expectations

@Serotoninluv I found that comment about ego death on a reddit forum. One other guy had mentioned ego death in relation to these loops and also Bluebird above. I guess when we're trying to communicate these experiences using language we might end up referring to different phenomena like you say. Plus everyone's mind is so different. Then we have to factor in wishful thinking and people having no other frame of reference when they label a phenomena this or that.

@outlandish Awesome man, that's one of my favourite albums so finding a new track has made my day. I really love it

@Serotoninluv Would just emptying your mind help maybe, when you become aware it's happening? Like sitting and meditating for a bit? Coming into the moment?

How do you go deeper? I'm only doing 150ug first time so might not happen then. Might I still get thought loops at that dose and just no ego death? Or no loops until higher doses? Just had a thought. May I could set an intermittent timer to go off during my trip, with a message saying, you're on acid. So I don't forget and freak out. Or do you think its necessary to forget you're tripping to have ego death?

@EternalForest @Strikr Hmm, I'll certainly try pure moods and see which side of the fence I end up falling on. @Soulbass Wow, thanks for all that, very interesting to read. I like your point about how music can fuel a craving for an emotion, I'd never really considered that. I guess it's a language of emotion so I'm not surprised this is this case. Maybe the key is to be aware of this and avoid attachment. Rest of the stuff you mentioned I found hard to relate to, about music becoming an inner demon etc, but interesting none the less. @Joseph Maynor Yeah that's a good point, perhaps the emotional element in music can fuel contemplation then. Well I'll give it a go and see

@Nic Dude....I literally love every one of the tunes you posted. I can't wait to trip and listen to those

@Amino_o Damn those Naruto tunes you posted are sweet, they're going on my tripping list

@outlandish It's an incredible album but didn't you find some of it creepy? It's like horror music lol, especially CD1. CD2 has some more chilled, uplifting stuff on it but if I listened to most of those tracks on acid I'm not sure what would happen. I may just have to find out for the hell of it though...

@Dodo Quite a different response from the rest. I value your perspective, but the question has been answered for me now internally, in fact, I knew I would be taking it even before I asked. I was just looking for reassurance I guess. I really want a peek into those higher dimensions. I suppose I'm impatient

@Shadowraix Cool tip bro, thanks a lot. That one might just save my ass if things get hairy

Damn that sounds nightmarish. Shame your ex partner had to say that. I'm sure it was exactly what you didn't need to hear at that point. There's nothing worse in this world than when you're freaking out already and someone throws fuel on the fire like that. Weed is nasty shit indeed when you're hooked on it. I had a 20 year chronic habit that I've only kicked recently since watching Leo's videos, starting meditation and having a clear vision for who I want to be. The panic attacks were a great motivator there too. Did this happen to you recently then, with the CBD oil? Jeez....that sounds intense. When you say retrained...you mean they retrained him to take mushrooms without freaking out?

@Charlotte Sorry to hear about the panic attacks. They're awful things. I started to get them really badly when smoking skunk, which is why I stopped smoking it a short time ago. It sounds like that mushroom trip might have given you what you needed anyway. It opened the door for you so to speak and now you can get there again through spiritual practices, cool That's interesting though isn't it, that you had the same experience through self inquiry. It definitely proves that mushrooms are a short cut to a non-dual experience. Can't wait to try them myself.

Sounds like you a spiritual mentor to guide you, that's awesome. When I imagine a 15 year old taking mushrooms I imagine them screwing around with their mates in the park or something, so that wasn't what I was expecting. Sounds like you had a non-dual experience. How come it was your last full trip? Don't feel obliged to answer if it's personal.

@TheAvatarState So you must have been very happy to find Actualized.org then. Like you were coming home to your family @Charlotte At 15? Wow. you started early! What insights did you get? Care to share?

@TheAvatarState I'd never really considered psychedelics before finding Actualized.org as I've never been much of a party animal and didn't know they could be used for personal development and enlightenment work. Did your consciousness still get raised though, despite the ego you mentioned and lack of Leo in your life?

@Rilles Yeah the universe will guide you and you'll know when the time is right. The intention is already alive in you. God wants to awaken fully...

@Rilles Yeah damn good point. In a way I'm looking forward to my second trip more than my first as I'll know what to expect, y'know? It really is like losing your virginity lol. Let's just hope it's not over as quickly Haha. When do you think you'll be doing your first trip?

@peanutspathtotruth Excited to share it with you buddy. Yeah I'm feeling the love big time. If this is what LSD does to people then I'm pumped for this shit! lol. Although I'm sure you guys were super awesome even before you started tripping, of course

@SgtPepper Cool man, thanks for the heads-up. I'm noting all this stuff down

Just to re-iterate guys the date of my voyage will be around mid January. I'll post a definite date as soon as I have one. You guys are the best, so helpful. Love this community

Thanks for the words of encouragement. I really feel like I'm stepping into the unknown and there's a sense of nervous trepidation mixed with intense excitement at this new phase of my journey. That music's awesome dude, just having a listen now. I'll follow your advice for sure and work that into my trip when the time is right. Thanks Charlotte, that's a really kind gesture. If shits gets crazy I'll definitely PM you nice to know I have you in my corner if needed

@Sockrattes Haha yeah man, I'm not gonna be taking the trip until after Christmas, mid-January time. I have a bit more prep to do, some research to undertake, getting my self-enquiry and contemplation habit fully underway, setting my intention, writing down the questions I want to ask. Plus I a bit more money for the hotel, which I'll get at the end of the month. I'm also reading a great work of fiction from Leo's booklist about a guy who hangs out with this mecixan dude and smokes a load of Datura. It has loads of great tips in it for tripping. Don't know if I can mention the name of the book though as can't remember if Leo's mentioned it in his videos, or just on his book list. I'll use this thread to let you guys know the exact date and then I'll post to let you know I'm good and include a trip report. Thanks for checking up on me.