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@kieranperez You definitely feel more present the day after. This makes sense, as you're spending such long periods of time with hardly any monkey mind, completely immersed in the present moment. I'd even argue that you will get permanent shifts in consciousness from taking this substance for a while.

@Igor82 Just like most of us you've made a connection between nutting and porn that is really hard to break. This is because porn gets you off so easily. I remember those wanks back in the day, before porn, where you'd be tugging at it for ages and eventually give up and go and nurse your sore dick. Nowadays the stimulation you get from porn is insane, especially as you can always find something new if your current fetish goes stale. Have you tried using your imagination to nut? If you really feel like busting one? Like, maybe fantasise about your perfect woman, having a really romantic night and then making love to her under the stars. That way you're keeping the image of women more sacred in your mind and not risking them being objectified so much. It might even work as a law of attraction type thing to attract your perfect girl to you. This fantasy might be hard at first if you're used to be overstimulated by porn. She might yell 'stick it in my ass!' or something lol. It will take some practice. I read that ejaculation from time to time can be healthy. I think that eventually your body will just cause you to have a wet dream as it likes to keep a clean load in there. But that will be after a few weeks I can confirm that did happen to me when I gave it up for ages. I can't help but think that the fact we've associated porn with masturbation/ejaculation has put us off of carrying out what's essentially a natural bodily process.

@Serotoninluv This is very helpful, thank you. I do feel like the insights are piling up and perhaps I need to be more practical and actually work them into my life more. I feel I don't have the lower levels nailed on Maslow's triangle, such as security, but then again that's partly the reason I want to trip again, as I feel I have more to be shown here. Every time I trip the insights just flow so beautifully out of me, it's very addictive and exciting. Really, my main issue here is lack of patience. What's the rush, really? Well, I guess the truth is I'm also a bit of a pleasure seeker and that feeling of love I get from LSD is like nothing I've ever experienced. Perhaps then the answer is to carry on with it like my hearts telling me too and eventually I'll get to a similar state to the one you described, where the insights dry up and the substance scolds me for over-using it. @Alex Well I feel like I can handle 200ug pretty well now, so I'm sure I can up the dosage a bit. What do you think would be a good amount to jump to next, to be safe? @Serotoninluv It's funny you mentioned about the smaller amounts. When I did 20ug last week I felt more intense love welling in my heart than I'd felt with the larger amounts. It felt a lot more body-based. Perhaps larger doses don't just give you 'more of the same,' but change the experience completely. I was very pleased that micro-dosing had this effect. If I could have that feeling every day....man, I think I'd be unstoppable.

@Tistepiste Yes, you can know things. It's just about how you investigate. You basically need to rely on direct experience. Don't think that knowing is impossible, this is a trap. Yes you will need to come at things from a position of not knowing in order to know things, but even that's refreshing as you first realise, oh, I know that I don't know. This is a beautiful natural state to be in. You've probably come across Peter Ralston's 'The Book of Not Knowing.' If not, give it a read. If you're struggling with this issue it will really help you

@Igor82 Do you think the issue is more to do with how you're nutting. i.e using porn, rather than the actual nutting itself? I find using porn all the time make you feel kind of low and you worry you're devaluing women or objectifying them. Just wondering.

Perhaps find a spiritual group, a local buddhist centre or something, so you'd at least be around like-minded people. Facebook is great for finding local groups. or if you have any hobbies, find an interest group for that. Again, visualise yourself doing something like that and feeling confidence and full of joy. Leo has some great books on his booklist for Law of Attraction. It's very powerful. Oh and CBD oil is supposed to be awesome for anxiety. You should be able to buy it where you are

Interesting that you're so passionate about English artists and culture, definitely. One think I've learned it, our intuition is rarely wrong. If you're thinking it and feeling it in your heart, then it's true. That's god's mind you have there after all Yeah the latest trip was amazing. Had a lot of insights about how we wear all these masks in our life. Also went to the library and sat watching a book shelf dance whilst listening to Shpongle lol. That was the next day and I still getting visuals. LSD is just too damn awesome for words. You planning to trip any time soon?

Sounds like you have a great attitude when it comes to suffering, very positive. I'm a firm believer in Law of Attraction so if you can imagine how it would feel to be a sage, to be calm and in control, you can draw that to you. I'm sure you already are. As for Social Anxiety, I suffer fro that too. I think that small steps coming out of your comfort zone is the best way forward. Psychedelics have also given me some good insights here and helped me build up confidence and love

Depending on what kind of trip your having, this could be interesting:

Do you ever get the feeling that every thing that happens in your life, no matter, what it is, is supposed to happen, for a very specific reason? Can you see how every trial you've been through has taught you something and made you stronger? There is a lesson in everything. For me this was a profound realisation and when I gave myself to it, I began noticing it more and more. It also helped me to love everything that happens unconditionally.

Do you have any more information at all, about your previous life? Or is is just like am intuitive feeling? Do you have images? Words or anything flash up?

Good on you for treating yourself to that meal bro. It sounds like it enabled you to appreciate the act of actually eating more and you did it with much more mindfulness, taking the experience to a whole new level. We take these every day acts for granted and we miss so much.

@thesmileyone You've truly tested my capacity to love here. I've had to grow my sphere of love to accommodate you, so right now I'm just buzzing with it. Thanks for being there to help me do this. You are just a part of me, I see that. My capacity to form judgements is still strong. I see myself in you. We are one brother. I sincerely hope you've gotten something positive from this discussion too. One day we shall ride side by side through the gates of Valhalla on majestic steeds. Big hugs smileyone.

Yes this is a good question. Your confusion is being caused by your belief that good and evil are intrinsic parts of reality and not an invention of your ego and need for survival. The truth is, rape isn't bad. Rape is just rape. Morality is a conceptual, human invention. When you choose how you behave, be aware that God doesn't give a damn either way, evidenced by the fact that rape exists. Is this implying it's ok to rape people? Of course not, don't just assume that. I could elaborate by I've just microdosed LSD and I'd rather just enjoy that. Besides, you seem like you're new to don-duality and Actualised, or at least you haven't watched many of Leo's videos. There are some fundamental flaws in your thinking. Watch this video: My advice is, try and lose the attitude, open your mind a bit, you'll learn a lot more, if you're at all interested in learning and your cup isn't full. Accepting that everything is comprised of consciousness is a core part of non-dual teaching. Ok so it takes a while to actually experience it, but having some faith at an early stage will save you a lot of time. If you don't believe it's true, I'm not even sure why you're here, unless it's to take chunks out of people you think are deluded in terms of 'wokeness.' Don't waste your effort trying to make decisions on who you believe is woke and who isn't. This isn't a contest. We're in this together, to learn and lift each other up, not to be combative and insult each other. If you've been a victim of abuse or you know someone who has, accepting some of these truths are even harder, but ultimately they can be very empowering. This video is also very relevant here:

@thesmileyone I feel the sting of your glove across my face. Spiritual pistols at dawn? A battle of woke-ness? Sir, I accept.

@thesmileyone I see Modafinil as just a good tool to give you a boost, like psychedelics. Leo told me that Kriya Yoga gives you the same effect as Modafinil and from the Kriya I've done so far, I can confirm this is the case. As with any substance, exercise caution and looking out for cravings and addiction as these things are always detrimental. But one point I'd like to make is....you live on drugs...you are a living drug, a living concoction of chemicals. Taking drugs is just form acting on form. It's all infinite and magical. People have this idea that drugs are somehow a hack, or less pure than conventional methods, but everything within reality is part of God.

@Aeris There is no information on long term effects as far as I know. Maybe we'll develop super powers, it's entirely possible. Yeah you might have issues sleeping, but to me that's not an adverse side effect as what use is sleeping anyway? Seriously though what I did was take a break from it every few days and have a really long rest. I don't have a job to go to right now so it wasn't really an issue for me anyway, I just slept when I slept. Sex interaction? My erections become turbo charged on Modafinil and I pummel that ass like a beast. So yeah, the list of benefits just keep on growing, along with my member.

@Igor82 Great reports man, thanks for those. You're definitely going deeper each time and having some good insights. Your breakthrough dose is imminent I'm sure. When are you taking your next hit?

@Aeris It seems expensive now, but when you grock the benefits of the stuff, you'll realise you just can't put a price on it. Also, 30 pills will last you quite a while as well as you probably wont take a whole one every day, unless you're like me and start munching them like candy nom nom nom lol. I've heard it's similar to amphetamine, but I don't have firsthand experience there. It doesn't have any comedown or side effects, that's the beauty of it.

@Aeris Same thing, just stronger. Start off with quarter of a pill of something and work your way up as needed. I'll be buying some soon.

@Igor82 Dude you did 5-MeO DMT? Awesome, I remember you saying you were gonna buy it but wasn't sure when you were gonna take it. I really can't wait to hear your report on that. I'm going to buy some as soon as I have the money and store it like you say. It's weird though, I feel like that substance it the main course and I'm sort of enjoying all of these appetisers and working my way up to it. Sort of like psychedelic foreplay, playing with reality's clit before I lube up and go for it. Did you find plugging it quite easy?

@Barna That settles it then, a handpan is on my list too. That's the first time I've even come across this instrument. It's so beautiful. I'll remember this for my first mushroom trip too.

@JohnnyBravo Better to take small amounts and work your way up anyway if you decide to, especially if you're a bit nervous. Please let us know how you get on with that