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@SQAAD Psychological wounds are healed, not erased. You realise that the scar has become a gift. You lose the pain and seal the cut, but you don't forget the lessons. They become integrated in a healthy and mature way. Here's a metaphor for you: It's like forging in a martial art to toughen your bones or knuckles. It's painful in the moment, but the bone comes back stronger than ever, but they only come back stronger because of the tiny fractures. The wound is the strength, the breaks are the gift.

@Consept That being said, she did try to take it to the next stage at one point, and for some strange reason I self cockblocked haha. Realised what happened in hindsight though, I didn't do it consciously. Either way I feel like working on letting go of the attachment to her (not the love, but the clinging) is going to be very positive. I've already been doing this, but I guess it hasn't yet reflected in my actions.

So I've been talking to this girl now for many weeks. It's hard to say where we stand, we've gotten pretty close but at the same time I really have no idea where it may lead. She's dealing with some personal shit and that's led to a bit of a halt in terms of me being able to make real progress. I feel almost a little wrong by talking to other girls (with the intention of seeing if it leads to sex / a relationship) whilst I'm still talking to this girl. On one level, I'm almost afraid of having too many options, like I don't want to hurt anyone (especially this girl who seems to be in a vulnerable position - but that is likely just my projection). But at the same time, something about this doesn't feel quite right. Almost like it's lust/attachment, not an open sharing of my love if I commit myself to her this early on. In another sense it doesn't seem strategic, since having more options would make me more loving, since the choice would be more meaningul. I guess I answered my own question there in a way. And I mean, I really have no way of knowing, but she is more than likely talking to multiple guys. What's this resistance to talking to multiple girls at a time about? Has anyone been through this before?

@Consept This makes a lot of sense, thanks. I definitely agree with what you're saying. Going to act on this and we'll see what happens.

@pluto Woah, I can literally feel this, like parts of my body are physically vibrating depending on the video. Do you have any information on duration, frequency of use, or time-length before you saw results. Either from research or direct experience?

Just the fact that this whole thing is you expressing yourself, building a new relationship within yourself within infinite options. That you are playing all the parts and that you are you are becoming aware of all that whilst you're in it! You're in the matrix, yet realising there is no matrix. It makes no sense and I love it. I love the moments of enhanced clarity (maybe only a few percent above "normal consciousness") where I just look around and go: "What the actual fuck is going on?" Haha :D! These moments seem to be increasing in frequency, which feels like a "good" thing.

@ivankiss Yes, I think it's one of the downsides of Leo's content. Many of us are attracted to the philosophy and intellectualisation of it all which holds back from actually waking up. He constantly talks about this though, so really it's on us. When you say surrendering, do you just mean accepting what is in this moment? Acting based on intuition not thought.

@ivankiss Yes I can only imagine, the only extended periods of bliss, presence, and some degree of nonduality is when tripping. Definitely see how living life from that state can be one of the most powerful things there is.

@Consept Nope

Not for everyone. No, just get more creative and add more value.

Yeah, you either need someone to trigger you. Or be completely alone for 10 days and all your shit will start to come up. But having some social contact, or online forums keeps you in this odd inbetween state. Questioning my beliefs has been one of the most powerful self-development techniques I may have ever done.

I agree you need to cover each aspect of your life. Don't neglect body, or mind, or relationships, etc. However when it comes to life purpose work, better to be a little more focused. If that means combining 2 or 3 different interests. Great, something new! Antropology , Pscyhology , Plants - there seems to be a strong correlation between these no? I can see this being a powerful combination of interests that can get quite specific. You could for example be the leading researcher on how plant medicine affected the evolution of societies through selfunderstanding. You know something like that (example only). Nothing is stopping you from having your main focus, and also having hobbies. Like being a drummer, or doing a martial art, or playing a sport, or whatever.

@brugluiz And yet, it seems clear that he has a "life purpose". Oh the paradoxes of mystics haha.

@F A B This seems unhealthy. Love the ego, if it calls out to experience popularity, go for it. But see if you can do it in a loving, compassionate and developed way. This will make it much more of a challenge. Popularity and spiritual development aren't necessarily in conflict.

@universe My issue is that I have done this before, haha. And it really didn't work out well. I've come a long way since then so don't expect it to turn out exactly the same way. But I'd be lying if I said I wasn't afraid of the fact that I feel this connection again. Well, not particularly. I like this girl and would like to see where it goes. We'll see what happens but for now I might just chill in the not-knowingness haha. Something about that feels right.

@Salvijus Selfless activity is a form of love, no?

@kieranperez Programming and web development first could be a good start, then you can potentially get an entry level web dev job (not hard to find) and slowly build up your side business / freelancing very naturally. Great thing about webdev it can be done remotely of course, so no fixed hours, and you aren't locked down to a specific area necessarily. Perfect for personal development and enlightenment work.

@Socrates Delve in and find resources on your own, and you will have to scour through a lot of bad resources to get the good ones. The learning comes in reading a lot, not just the good stuff since it may fly over your head at this stage if you have no prior direct experience in business. Start with a basic project. Always work with small personal projects to apply your learnings to. Affiliate marketing and e-commerce are going to be very difficult at this stage since you're not providing much value (not saying it can't be done). You will have to enjoy (to some degree) the work in order to get good at it, so dive in on some YouTube tutorials and get started to break the 50 - 100hr mark and you'll know if you like it.

@purerogue I think it is more than just a coping mechanic. Emotional mastery, love, and acceptance of what is, is a big part of overall development as well as transcendence. It can certainly be a catapult into deeper enlightenment work. Also helps to prevent becoming a Zen Devil!

I like the idea of focused life purpose work as a form of meditation. Reminds me of Karma Yoga.

@CreamCat Nope

@CreamCat I find the same to be true. My most real and strong visualisations come when I'm actively trying not to in meditation haha.

@CreamCat I still do it, just not actively, if something comes in it comes in, otherwise not. I still have enough recurring revenue to almost cover my costs. Then I've got some (not much) income from my life purpose. I have enough savings now to basically cover the next 5 - 10 years of my life living comfortably (not excessively) assuming I make nothing during that period (which isn't the plan). I'm undertaking a massive shift towards stronger enlightenment work, emotional mastery (personal development) and also firmed up my life purpose so now going to orient myself towards that. I basically lucked into this though, there was strategy no doubt, but I'm fortunate to have stumbled into the path I took and it's set me up to be where I am now. I don't have to worry about money. Of course even with my savings, I did, only by doing the work and getting the money have I seen it's really not where any fulfilment lies. It's helped me transition to stage green as I neglected many other aspects of my life these past few years including love, relationships, spirituality. But I'm in a transition phase away from web/app development as a business, and more to web/app development in service of my life purpose. Even that will only be a part, primarily I believe writing is a medium I want to explore much more. Don't mean to hijack the thread. Just saying programming is definitely a worthwhile stepping stone and will be an in-demand skill for a long time, can easily start a business or get a low or high paying job. You may even learn to love it, as I did. But I'm starting to fall out of love with it. It was a necesarry stepping stone to fully embody my personal development and also now my life purpose.