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@Dan94 i just use the darknet like...people review drugs and leave feedback on the substance which comforts me greatly. I've just ordered some 5-MeO-DMT and on the review section there's like 20-30 people commenting on the quality of delivery, how long it took to come and whether or not it's safe. Which means the substance has already been tested and reviewed over 20 times. The darknet is a good source...cheaper to. With LSD it's still quite safe because it has the reviews AND you can tell quickly if it's been cut with something else because it tastes bitter. And if she's bitter she's a spitter. So yeah I find the darknet SUPER SUPER helpful. And not exactly expensive either, not compared to the street (which is also more dangerous). However, tolerance for LSD and shit is a problem. Apparently you can only take it every 12-14 days if you don't want your tolerance to drop significantly. So I did some research and found that your tolerance for regular NN-DMT isint meant to change, which means I can use it often and keep LSD for every other weekend or whatever good tips good tips. The fact that substances are tested multiple times and reviewed for all to see (on the darknet) really brings me comfort

I know there are differences between what form of 5-MeO-DMT you can smoke or snort. The HCl form being the one you snort. I'm wondering are there any pieces of information I should know before I snort regular NN DMT? Can you snort DMT freebase ok?

I think one of the greatest insights is the insight of foresight. The ability to see what enlightenment will bring. Meditating and self enquiry seems very pointless to someone who does not see what is hidden behind the Vail of knowledge. It is possible for a person to predict the future accurately with very little information to base their predictions upon. Look up "low latent inhibition". Someone with a lower level of latent inhibition has a very finely tuned ability to "read" situations. Detectives and criminal investigators have to practise increasing their field of awareness and decreasing their level of latent inhibition. I have no doubt most (if not all) of the people involved with spiritual work have lower latent inhibition. For me it got to the point where I could start to accurately predict the future as well as accurately predict extra contexts of the present. I think the best way I could describe it would be like the matrix. In the real world the matrix is just information floating across a screen in a linear format...just different expressions. But reading the matrix like this can show very fine details and you can work with it a lot better than treating it like an acrual place. Christian mystics can look into the future and see information based on laying their hands on people (feeling into their vibrational tuning and reading what is there)...and I've seen this first hand myself. The reason I think this "insight" is one of the most important ones is because it is one of the first obstacles one must overcome to reach a decision to dedicate themselves to god and spiritual practises. With no foresight there will be no motivation. I was tripping on LSD 2 days ago and this grew about 10 times stronger. So yeah that's what I think is important

@TheWokestMan i had my first acid trip ever yesterday. Quite like how your saying here, everything made complete sense and then I lost the insights. I always lose the insights, but I have a strategy for remembering them. You have to catch yourself half way through having an insight and just turn it into a thought as fast as you can like BOOM...thought. I got three deepenings of my spiritual understanding from yesterday alone I took 200ug and I was trippin Ballz for like 12 hours lol. Was super fun, best high I ever experienced.im Gona do 5meo soon to looking forward to that. But yo, see with the whole 'forgetting insights' thing...getting enlightened (I think) is meant to be a subconscious thing...through meditation and diligent practise your simply showing your subconscious the truth, but you can't force your subconscious to have a moment of realisation and awakening, I think it has to sort of choose itself when it's Gona happen. I think the best thing to do would be to just do the daily practises and trust the process that it'll eventually work. It's hard. But one of the insights I got during my 200ug trip was that enlightenment is worth every last drop of your effort and that even if it took a hundred lifetimes to get enlightened, it would still be worth it a hundred fold. Something within me grasps very deeply the undivided importantance of enlightenment. But I realise now why leo says only 1% get it...it's SUPER frustrating, not even knowing if your doing item right half the time. I trust God and his guidance it's my most powerful tool

Mate...my tolerance for shit is usually really high. I'm Gona try taking 1 small dosage of 5meo and if it does fuck all I'm Gona jump straight to a medium-high dose. Use your first experiences as bearings for how you should proceed

@seeking_brilliance shit I never thought about it like that..it is free isint it

I had a dream last night where I was at my childhood home but I was still 20 (like I am now). I had two friends over (can't remember who they were) one was good and one was evil, but we were all kind of friends. Then I just started jumping really high like Thanos on fortnight and starting sticking to things. Then I guess I thought, "hmm, must I must be Spiderman" haha. But yo, then I jumped onto the edge of a roof and while I was sitting there just holding on, my consciousnes was raised and I thought "oh shit, imma go get my dad, this is badass, I'm fucking SPIDERMAN" hahahaa. But it was the fact that I recognised what was going on and that it was not normal. It interests me that lucid dreaming is linked to spiritual work, but if you think about it, of course it's linked to spiritual work...the exact same principles apply to waking world as dreaming world. We are in a dream and we are trying to wake up. Pretty cool little similarity there. Also, you'd think that (because of the raw amount of people who are in the dream of "reality") there would be more people who awaken around you. Anyone who reads my replies will know I was a Christian and my primary Christian teacher (who was opposed to regular religious Christianity) was a man called Andrew Wommack, he had lucid dreams as well! Like I said, lucid dreaming and spirituality seem to have a close link...and this Christian teacher had lucid dreams as well. It's insane how some people can be legitimately touched by god and moved by the authentic presence of the higher self...and still only find knowledge of the truth as opposed to the truth itself. Have you ever been a superhero in a dream?

I'm sure there are people who get it easier than others, and I'm sure there is some way to quantify different categories of such people. But the idea of someone getting enlightened instantly is just...unfair ?

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@Truth Addict you need self enquiry. Saying anything more, at this point, will just confuse you. I believe you have created plenty of ideologies regarding spirituality, but beliefs and understanding are counter productive. You have to meditate and do self enquiry. Otherwise you'll spend your entire life gaining understanding of enlightenment as opposed to actually getting enlightened. You want me to read between the lines and tell you what you need? Self enquiry. Self enquiry. Self enquiry. If you do self enquiry and drop your beliefs about spirituality, you'll get it. If you put your focus on anything else (especially "spiritual" stuff) you'll fuck yourself over and not move towards enlightenment. Do not try to understand anything...just do self enquiry and meditation...learn how to do it good

I noticed myself hearing a message from the Higher self one time...I put my hand up against a tree and felt it. And the message came: "none of it is real." Because I had grown up as a Christian and learned to call this voice "God" I accepted it, but could not comprehend it in the slightest. How the hell could this tree not be real. And I'm only starting to taste the first bits of understanding now... Enlightenment is the ability to look at reality and see it. It is my dream to see the stars one day...when I look up at them now all I see is my ideas and it feels false (a little tiny bit saddening to)...I've known since I was a child, something about the raw vastness of stars and outer space somehow exposed to my heart that something was off. That something just didn't look right. I just didn't expect it to be this dramatic. It's like when you pull a little string out of your sweater, but then it keeps pulling and pulling and you end up pulling apart near enough the entire jumper as opposed to one little thread lol.

@Amun the matrix is still an ideology so, while it is a good metaphor in some respects, don't lean onto it. Just don't believe anything

@SQAAD right, so it depends what level of reality you are talking about. In the absolute sense, all reality is yours...the idea (and very 'real' sensation) that there are others with other reality, is still your idea. From the other side (a less pure one) yes, everyone creates thier own little reality. To ignore either would be foolish

@Anton Rogachevski well... especially with spiritual work, the master is literally more of a student than the student himself. From what I can see, to "master" anything would be to move away from enlightenment. There is so much paradox to this, and it's so perfect and true and beautiful.

@Space excellent excellent excellent question. Theres a few things you need to remember when self enquiring, remember to always bring it back to that unspoken sense of, "I exist." This is the most crucial, and this sense only exists in the *present moment*. When your asking yourself "who am I" allow your mind a little bit of freedom, do not give wise philosophical answers...just answer how you feel. Do you *feel* like you *are* your personality? What part of the personality? (Go through different parts) Your social life? Your habits and addictions? Do you feel like you are your depression?...that it *is* you? And for each one, individually ask..."if this thing were to fade away, would my existence fade away? And if the answer is no then you cannot be that thing, even if it changed, you would not change...therefore it is not "you". These are my three most effective tips I remember for my own self enquiry. 1- Must return to the unspoken sense of "I exist." 2- Must be present moment (throughout) 3- Answers must be given from how you *feel* not what you know.

@Robert222 ok, confusion is not a bad thing. Confusion is a sign of growth (apparently). *Simplicity* is your highest friend. Enlightenment is FARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR more simple than you think. This is tricky, because the easiest way past this is to trust your instincts. So much different advice, this person says to do this....and this person says to do this. The only way you will see is by opening your eye(s). Logic cannot carry you to this place. Spiritual progress is completely backwards compared to worldly progress (like college or uni). The further you go into spirituality, the more simple your understanding will become. Purification. The ONLY thing...I repeat.....THE-ONLY-THING you need to do, is get familiar with self enquiry, and meditation, but mostly self enquiry. I myself have only been on the path for 4 months, and I know that within my first 2 months I had to just surrender to the confusion and hold onto self enquiry and meditation. "There is no teaching, you are only here to find out who you are." If remember this, the early confusion will be a lot more tolerable. You just have to show your subconscious that your not what you thought you were, after a few months of doing self enquiry and meditation every day you'll begin to realise how something so simple could affect so much. It's...unspeakably simple and yet undeniably emense. You are, in the most literal sense possible, the entire universe. This is waiting for you to find it. Remember, there is no teaching AT ALL. Only find who/what you are using self enquiry. This is harder to stick to than you might think.

@Alfox I've heard an enlightened teacher talking about how, whenever a little bit of space comes between you and your mind/body then your mental capabilities somehow are released into being incredibly powerful and expansive. So we begin to know things that are impossible to know, see things that are impossible to see. Your seeing this, more than likely, as a result of a successful meditation habit. 1 John 4:8 "God is love." (Bible) ...but don't believe me yeh

@Arkandeus i will say this, in my direct experience I have (in the past) definitely encountered a phenomenon that sounds very like "Law of attraction" (LOA). When you know where to look and *how* to look...you can see it. But by no means let it become a belief. It's a bit deep to try to talk about it...but we definitely attract and repulse different things in our lives. I have a spiritual exercise I do, where basically I close my eyes and wait for my awareness to communicate with the mind. It's a visual process where I create an image of something and then destroy it, rebuild it in a different way, destroy it, rebuild it in a different way again, destroy it etc. Until I (somehow) know that my energy is in alignment with what I want to have. But yo, none of this is important. Just focus on enlightenment. It's not just fuck the law of attraction, fuck meditation, fuck enlightenment fuck actualized.org We must surrender all beliefs. Then we can find out *who we are.* Who *you* are.

@sarapr do not believe anything Leo says (he's lying) ? find out for yourself, *believing* that "reality is nothingness" would be to fall into a trap. The easiest way to overcome this is to realise that you shouldn't believe anything, and "belief" isint what's being talked about. All of the cool places you can get to through meditation are really good to talk about, but never seek to enter these places...just meditate (and do self enquiry). There is no teaching, there is no teacher and there is no pupil. You are only here to find out who you are. Anything more than this, will work you *away* from enlightenment. (That statement is larger than you thing, or should I say...simpler...than you think ) This isint like college, you don't benefit from putting knowledge in your head. Enlightenment is not something, it the realisation that this "something" was somehow a fabrication from the start. It must be in your direct experience (this should not be hard, just observe "do I exist?") And do self enquiry. Your only trying to find out who you are. Infact, in a way...the more uninformed you are, the better. Do not treat this like another one of your hobbies...this is the realisation that all of your hobbies never existed. The reason leo can say such bold things like this is because he has simplified it so much more than other people. People always want more more more. But *purity* is less. If you were to purify gold 30 times with fire, it will be much smaller and lighter. Purify yourself of your ideas, including the idea the ideas are wrong. Who is the one who observes the belief that ideas are wrong? It is being observed after all, isint it (direct experience)? Bring to mind what you think you are and see for yourself..."this thing I think I am, is it being observed? If so, by whom?... especially if this thing is what I thought was me."

I don't read books lol. I might have to start tho. I know that books can be very good if you get very good books, logical. I tend to not want to think about spirituality too much, doing so creates more and more ideological beliefs about what it is that your meant to be doing. My philosophy is this, (concerning enlightenment) if you know what you need to know (the bare bones) then you shouldn't add more knowledge to it. I keep as little knowledge as possible. Completely surrender to the confusion. I feel like this is the way "I" will progress fastest.

@luckieluuke you wouldn't want to end up living to work as opposed to working to live

My path began when I heard [what I'm pretty sure was] God's voice...as a Christian, I would have believed in the supernatural power of the holy ghost and things he told me came to pass. And so one day I seen Leo and the voice just said "stop, dig here." And Id grown so familiar with this voice telling me shit that I just obeyed it (as we were taught to do). I remember thinking, "How the hell does this guy have more spiritual revelation than my Christian teachers." Lo and behold, the voice was right. I knew something dramatic was going to happen, the voice had told me 2 months in advance that I was really going to like what was heading my direction...nearly as if it was a gift from Him. After I started meditating things really started to line up and make a shit ton of sense. EVERYTHING made sense, and yet this clarity was accompanied by a deep confusion as well, it was around this point where I realised confusion was good. So for 3 months I just trusted, not having a baldy notion what the hell I was doing. I could recognise that I was meant to be doing it. Then I guess it brings me to now, where I have a cold and I'm struggling to meditate for an hour (could only do 25-30 minutes of practise the last two days). Like I said, so many things made sense. I had come to see what Christianity actually was, it's a fucking riddle! A story to convey spiritual principals...i just needed to follow the spiritual rules (direct experience, no ideologies etc). I've dedicated myself to this now, and whether it take me 50 weeks or 50 years, I'm going to get enlightened. I'm meeting someone in Northern Ireland who is involved with spirituality as well and I plan on getting DMT to, take it at the end of a retreat lol.need to research it tho. But yes, I know enlightenment is the only thing that matters, it's the only thing that has ever mattered. I am a devote seeker of truth (seriously devoted) and I have never encountered something as potent and pure and this work. It is beyond words. I can't wait to get enlightened. Imma die eventually then BOOM enlightenment

I know that this is apparently really advanced spiritual stuff we have going on here...but you'd think more people would be aware of it, apparently not. The vast majority of the "spiritual" people I've spoken with, are only interested in improving their life and helping others do so. That's good and all, but no1 is telling me how to get enlightened. Not even the Buddhist priest I asked. And when I asked a few reuglars around the temple if they'd ever experienced a spiritual awakening or insight they kind of laughed as if I just cracked a joke. Now, I do live in Northern Ireland...and it's a lot smaller than usual countries. But I'm searching for spiritual groups...i guess what I'm asking is: what are we. What do I search on Google to search for lectures on the topics discussed on this site?...I've tried Buddhists, hare chrishna's (mad cunts), Christians, "spiritualists"/holistic teachers, yoga places...none Does anyone else find this or is it just me??

@Akuma i had a 30 second experience where I grasped more deeply the truth that I am the only person who has ever existed period lol. It's pretty cool. I'm getting DMT soon, Gona be conscious bro

@LoveandPurpose do not try to get rid of fear, fully allow the experience of fear to take place. Do not try to develop yourself or strengthen anything. Fully embrace fear and ask "who is the one who observes this?" And look at your direct experience and for whatever you locate that you think is "you" just ask "is this being observed?" If the answer is yes who is the one observing it? You are the observer, but even the idea that you are the observer, is being observed is it not? This is where you really need to get good at noticing when your looking at an idea (one trick, everything is an idea...including what you will have in your head as a result of what I'm saying right now so don't believe me AT ALL) Do not "try not to identify" with anything. Who is the one who is observing the person who wants to disassociate himself with certain ideas? You'll notice, that even the ideas of your own existence (i.e. what you are) are being observed to! You must come to the realisation that you are the unspeakable observer. As soon as you create the idea that you are the observer, you are observing this idea. So be careful, the only true way to becoming aware of the observer is the observation itself....and no ideas about it