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...nobody acknowledging the fact that awakening makes you immortal?

Yo, if you have a big ass shadow it doesn't matter how nice you try to be...you'll manifest evil. You gotta do consciousness work. Meditation, contemplation, yoga, inquiry, psyc retreats

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I've noticed that I'm really starting to value people more ♥️♥️

Spiritual journey is the hardest journey in the world, until you realise what the real spiritual journey looks like, then it becomes the easiest journey in the world...and just gets easier and easier haha. Laughably easy, like cheating haha

@Ellenier @Ellenier the first positive thing is the fact that you aren't one of these people who are like "ahhh yes I have found the no-needle, I am emptiness and I have found the emptiness therefore let me not search anymore." It's important to note that when that *actually* happens you will become instantly immortal. The Lord has been speaking to me recently about allowing him to meditate *for* me. There are always two different kinds of spirituality, human spirituality, and REAL spirituality and lots of variety of degrees and levels and mixtures of authenticity in between both. You should know that the self enquiry that you started with SHOULD NOT be the self enquiry that you practise after 5 or 10 years. It changes and you should allow it to change. The most important part is your heart behind it, keep your motives authentic and never give up. Allow yourself to realise that self enquiry is actually bullshit until it is transformed into the REAL kind of spiritual self enquiry. This ONLY happens in direct experience. Comes to a point where you let go of your practice to delve into REAL practice which comes about intuitively. This kind is more powerful and less difficult in my opinion. Letting go. Notice, "letting go" is not something you can *do* its like having sex with a girl...you can set up the situation over and over again, but only when the magic (love) is *actually* there can you make love. And you just have to wait on it and pursue it

@Display_Name yeah man I'll try

@vikisss1 i was gonna object to your post title but I seen that you are also saying that it doesn't always lower awareness but actually might even increase awareness. I mean, complex and difficult video games are what pushed my mind to think independently and in extreme measures of creativity. I cant really talk though because I don't know what awareness is haha, no clue whatsoever. It'll take more DMT trips. I think video games boost overall mind power though. However they can be bad, releasing dopamine alllllll the time and 12 year olds spending 4 hours every single day on Minecraft, C.S go and fortnight. It releases the same chemical that gambling releases, making it addictive.

... fulfilment of all mankind, understand everything, become immortal, live in a nirvanic reality of divinity and perpetual bliss. You literally go to heaven

@WaveInTheOcean niceeeeeee I really liked that trip report. I wish I had some spiritual friends in rl who were legit and not fake spiritualists, some people I could smoke DMT in a loving setting with. I'll be mixing MDMA and DMT soon myself, I've got some MD ordered. Although mate, Molly lasts 3-6 hours, you should do like...4 or 5 breakthrough doses while your feeling the euphoria of md. That's what I'm gonna do, squeeze the juice out of it

It's not too complicated just go with your instinct, allow your the details of your practice and visualization to be naturally tweaked, don't be too rigid. Rigidness isint good. Let your nature guide you, visualize strong pathways of energy. Lean into the feeling of it

@OBEler aye mate, and ther always needs to be care taken when mixing compounds. I always make sure to research combo's well before attempting to take them

5meo...?

I'm Irish, we drink all the time haha. Although I don't drink a mad amount

@Nak Khid don't know, doesn't work very well. Strangely though, it worked well when I smoked hcl. I have 10mg that I'm gonna smoke of hcl, different batch. I'm very tempted to order a small amount of hcl 5meo if it proves to be more powerful as it was before. I went to a realm of bliss when I smoked hcl before. Heavy heavy bliss weighing on my face and arms, I couldn't lift my arms or open my mouth the bliss was so heavy. But when I smoked 40mg of that freebase 5meo I got from a Joe Rogan darknet vendor, I just wasn't impressed at all. I didn't see God. Not even close. Gonna try hcl

@OBEler you mean mixing 5meo and NN? Ive heard of people doing that a breakthrough dose of both compounds in the same pipe...

I think...if I'd have to define what I think wisdom is I would say, the ability to connect things psychologically with patience and impartiality. One can have great knowledge, great memory, and still not be wise. Would it be fair to say that someone becomes wise inevitably if he consistently has increasing knowledge. Or is love a more important factor. Love being the removal of boundaries (simplicity) the opposite of knowledge. That's better than saying "wisdom is nothing" haha. I don't know what that means. Although, it does seem like those who have less (closer to nothing) in their minds are generally wiser. Does that mean, though, that a rock is then wiser than leo?

@Calmness I have both at the moment, it just sucks how visually warping they are. Very distracting. I want to master DMT. Ketamine is a very powerful one for me also, but it's a very addictive antidepressant. I'm thinking of getting some 4-Ho-MET, lighter, 40 minute trip when smoked, similar to shrooms apparently

Nah man that's a BS response

^ aye, probs be sweet in a month. I find the opposite with psycs, I can have wayyyyyy more complex af concepts and multiple concepts going on in my head at the same time.... That's just my experience

What is wisdom

@Nahm warping reality intensely in a clear and high definition. Leo talks about how 5meo in particular has great potential for permanently raising consciousness (for normal people). I'm wondering if there are any other powerful as fuck psychedelics that would be close to the same caliber of 5meo...... I can't use it effectively ....a psyc that could permanently increase consciousness like 5meo

Well...anything that makes you feel good can absolutely be addictive. I'll not get addicted to it like I'm too careful. The compound is very useful in separated time spaces

I had time off work booked for a 5meo retreat and I just completed that retreat last night. I got up around 10 every day and meditated one hour and did back and leg stretches and sat silently when not meditating every other hour and just alternated. I smoked 5meo multiple times every day. Main practices we're: self inquiry, [a little less of] kriya yoga, do nothing and a good bit of contemplation on what is the mind, reality, God, thoughts etc. I smoked a SHITTON of 5meo. I find 5meo very very strange, extremely strange ..it nearly feels like I can literally control what happens in the trip. Like, literally...if I smoke 30mg and focus, I can make it so literally nothing happens...is this normal? Day 1 I did allow myself time to relax when I was getting very tired and I listened to relaxing meditation music like this: The trips were kind of weird and hard to pinpoint what the fuck was going on, but I trusted the the spirit of 5meo would take me to where I needed to go. I was smoking 20mg pipes mostly first day. The main thing I took away from my 5meo trips is the strength I feel after, absolutely amazing. I feel so much stronger after now. I sort of concluded that 5meo is...whatever you imagine it to be. Had one bad trip today but was all good. Lots of meditation. Successful. Day 2 had a 30mg pipe and a massive emotional breakthrough in which I realized that I had a big reservoir of pent up emotion regarding the death of my grandma and i let out SOOO much emotion and realized that my Dad loved me and that he just wanted to spend time with me. I had that emotional breakthrough to this song: This was definitely one of the more powerful experiences. I realized that I need to value my family more. I wept for a good 10 minutes but it was blissful. The strength I felt after was...haha...awesome. so strong. That was the first big pipe I smoked. Day 3 Today I got my first real direct awareness that I might actually be inside my own mind which was an interesting one. Contemplation upon what the "mind" is was focal today. Today I noticed that everything seemed quieter and slightly more beautiful. I really did smoke a lot of 5meo, I was worried about my lungs but then I remembered Leo talking about 5meo's traits of removing and healing addiction. Im trying to stop smoking tobacco and weed ATM so even if 5meo is bad for my lungs, it'll likely help me stop smoking the other stuff easier so it'll not be as bad for my lungs. I had one more bad trip at the end of this day where I experienced a lot of confusion. This confused me since all I had gotten was strength up until then but I composed myself and thought, could be ego backlash...or just a bad trip ah well. Meditation was good, self enquiry, do nothing, some concentration...on point ??? Day 4 Today I really was kind of scared to smoke more 5meo cuz I ended on a bad trip the previous day but I smoked a little 10mg pipe (little for me) and felt back to normal. Today I contemplated deeply and realized that the imperfect parts of myself that I hate would be transformed and turned into the parts of me that will cause me to have massive success in life! Amazing ? I realized that I have to love myself more. I still don't have direct knowledge of what "love" is but I'm getting a shitton closer. Meditation was solid, wasn't too strict. Went on my phone a bit relaxed a bit, at the end of the day it was 5meo doing the majority of the heavy lifting and it wouldn't have made a difference if I went on my phone for 10 minutes lol (don't judge me). Day 5 Today I got my first real direct experience of there not being a me who finds or is found...just a taste but I got it. Looking inward and seeing nothing. Today I was MUCH more grounded and was very comfortable smoking my 5meo. I was...extremely centered and had very little fear when I focused. I am starting to feel a lot of STRENGTH. It also felt like when I *actually* looked at things in my room they changed. So my TV existed as a TV, until I looked at it...at which point it wasnt a TV anymore...it was something else. A different thing (dream material perhaps). I smoked 40mg pipe in a state of super centeredness and...frankly, wasn't impressed. I find DMT much more profound if I'm honest. Maybe I have a natural inhibitor to 5meo or something. If smoking 40mg didn't leave me with a life transforming experience, then I don't know if plugging with the new boofing technique is even worth trying...I'll try it nevertheless. The main thing was trusting the 5meo to do its job. The main thing I felt was the strength and centeredness. Im Very very strong afterwards. VERRRRY strong. I have faith in 5meo and the practices. I also got some DPT yesterday so gonna see how that is. Didn't meet God...but I know what God is at a low level. I do know, and I can see it directly... slightly. I'll keep trying to actualize it more and more. Conclusion/summery happy with my retreat, 5meo makes me very strong and mentally focused. I can sit for days and contemplate on it. I became a movementless Buddha statue for about 15-20 minutes after my 40mg trip. Was pretty cool. And I guess profound as fuck. Happy with progress, still have faith in the guru to take me to where I need to go, Nirvana. Going to be experimenting with MDMA/DMT combo's soon, super excited. Very very good???? #/#/U-P-D-A-T-E/#/# Soooo update, turns out the universe was planning on me apparently partaking of a reasonable amount of high purity ketamine last night, known for it's dis-associative effects. I'm aware that this substance is addictive, I haven't taken it in a long while, and won't take it for a long while again. Very very profound experience directly after my 5meo retreat. The only thing I can say is waw, everything is so fucking beautiful and I am opening up like a flower, emotionally, psychologically...waw Could be a delayed response from the 5meo haha. The sun looked 10 times more beautiful this morning, and there is a glow. There's a certain number of small things that I have changed within my own mind that I know will prosper me greatly. I'm in shape, I'm focused, fuck. I can't even remember what I experienced during the peak of this trip exactly but I feel fucking amazing. And everything looks lovely hahaha. I can tell that something has changed, my perceptions are all strange haha. Picture of the sun as I'm looking at it from my bed right now below ? wow