Aaron p

This is good, I've had many years of figuring out of anger in myself... This seems to be the only way. Trying to get rid of it does little to nothing. It just comes anyway

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@Elton homie Check out the book: psycho cybernetics It goes into depth on how to program your mind using visualisation/visioning. Also here's my notes on the first half of the book. This book also has insights into the short comings of modern therapeutic methods (constant regurgitation of the past). It introduces a new concept: recognising the appropriate time to actively forget past failures . When finding purpose ask yourself: "what is a job *I would* pay to do."

@LambdaDelta oh aye. Yeah

It says I could tac win rook...I don't see how... QueenF3, rookF1, rookF2, rook takes rookF2? ... I deffo think bishopB2 is way more skilly (taking pawn on B2) offering queen trade since I'm up major material...he took it then blundered rookD8 and resigned, like a wimp. Can anyone see how queenF3 is free rook?

@LambdaDelta Yah I have lichess I'll check out that feature. But bro...Qf3, Rf1, Bd4, whiteQe1. Then if I move Bf2: R takes Bf2, R takes Rf2, whiteQ takes Rf2 and is defended by the king...Its just a massive trade and I lose a bishop..? Or I suppose if I don't initiate the trade I could just promote the a-pawn forcing white queen away, is that the idea? Or jump Knight to e5 then d3 would also do the trick. Maybe I overthinking it.

You use your eyes to see...try not. Actually, don't.

Recontextualisation. My weapon of choice <3

You could always just keep the medication and take it when you need it in short seasons... My friend quit it saying it made him blunted and robotic. I only have experience with SNRI's and SSRI's. They served a purpose but eventually started fucking me up. Just be sure to weigh everything up evenly when your deciding to take or stop meds. For example if you struggle with motivation and consistency badly then the medication could improve that. And you might find that it doesn't blunt you or that you handle it well. You can also do minimal doses under that of the typical min dose. You can get creative with it

LPC

Annihilate yourself with psychedelics lol

One of the ways I've been able to grasp how everything is good with the capital g and that bad does not exist is through the analogy of the fathers son. This analogy exemplifies true unconditional and universal love and goodness. It's quite a simple one basically the father sees his son and his filled with joy at his sons very existence. The son could be kind and virtuous or cruel and evil. Even If the son was evil and committed terrible atrocities (while the father would intellectually disagree with his sons behavior) there will always be a deep root in the father that is filled with joy because no matter what evil or good the son does, the father loves the son unconditionally simply because he exists. Everything and anything the son does is good from the fathers perspective because anything that qualifies as the sons existence is what fills him with joy deep in the center of his core. With a true loving father this core is truly unconditional which is very extreme in fact it's so extreme that it's actually not. It's just total. It's full. if his son committed genocide he would probably verbally condemn his son's actions but this will change nothing about the core of the fathers heart. Any and all manifestations of the son's existence is good [to him] in this way. The same could be said of existence. Yes there are terrible atrocities and much suffering that are terrible and there is unspeakable pain in existence. But the very fact that it is existence is like the sons existence... Even its failure is good because failure is still a form of existence and the very existence of the universe in all forms is good.

Optimise your set and setting: Get some nice colours and music going and really ease into it and be gentle. Like @Flowerfaeiry said, don't go too far too fast there's no need to do that. Ease and enjoy. Meditate with trusted friend in safe and loving environment. Breath, focus, relax and enjoy <3

Hear hear

Cool

The frame of your question implies that elements of the universe themselves pose questions and that these questions require answers... I would adopt a more neutral view in seeing that all aspects of existence simply: are. If your talking about understanding everything in reality...I think the answer to your question is yes. Leo sure makes it seem like everything can be understood. But even theoretically it should be possible to understand everything in existence in essence. By this I mean that if you understand one grain of sand, which is the essential element, then you, by default, know every sand based structure in existence no matter what shape it is, no matter how large it is. Also, understanding the grain fully means you understand the entire beach...it's essence.

Ohhh this is such an episode. Good motivational one Good for cultivating the intuive sense of the magnitude of true awakening. Exciting af

Poltergeist

Lol

The opposite to this is true. Most people born into wealth have way less opportunities to become mature. They can coast and live in the Bahamas until their dead if they so desired.

Lol ..yea

However I think the idea of predeterminism can become a trap if allowed to influence motivations to do anything at all or make any decisions at all. Also predeterminism itself is a stance and an ideological postulate which should neither be believed nor disbelieved as either are ideological. I would say that the idea of free will being real or unreal is probably already an incorrect premise....possibly linked to the underlying true premise that there is nobody there to have or not have free will. Ironically its nearly like the question of free will itself becomes its own involuntary mental trap, similar to any philosophical theoretical questions based in the premise of the inherently existent self. And then at the ultimate level even believing that the question of free will is its own trap (and the belief in the existence of all traps) becomes one of the final ultimate traps (that also does not exist).

It's interesting because it sure feels like I'm making a free will decision when I'm deciding what to do with my day for example. Like today I could have chosen to go to multiple different locations for a drive but I chose to go to this location. It could be argued that this was the best location to come to and that my preexisting capacity for logic predetermined my decision. However it could be further argued that if I really wanted to (having been exposed to the idea that my logical processes predetermined me to come to the best location) I could choose another location just because I wanted to prove that the decision is free. However it could be further argued that this response would be equally predetermined as a meer behavioural reaction l to the idea that I have selected the best location automatically and that this reaction is similarly predetermined by mental processes depending on the preexisting characteristics of my mental faculties (just at one level higher). However it could be further argued that having seen all of these positions I decide randomly to do something completely unpredicted, maybe I go to jump in the ocean naked today completely randomly to prove that the decision is mine and mine alone. However it could be further argued that even this is only a reaction to all the previous presentations of logic and decision-making capacities and that no matter how unpredictable I try to be, the only reason I'm trying to be unpredictable at all is because it is a response to having been called predictable initially, which is of course itself predictable.