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I suppose it’s easy to get caught up in a belief that there is a right and a wrong way to live life or that there should/shouldn’t be one. In actuality there is simply The Path we take ? Are we muzzling ourselves? Do you allow yourself to express negative emotions?

Running without a sense of self...☝️

So true...my father turned 60 some years back and he has taken his body’s aging with some bitterness about it, like he has a stick up his bum. It didn’t make much sense to me, at the time, as I thought, why can’t he accept that or even expect it? Not only does the deterioration of one’s health create more limitations, it creates more discouragement/limiting beliefs. Like oh damn I’m getting old, time to throw in the towel We all grow to learn life IS too short and the more time we spend denying, rejecting, or disowning it, the less satisfied we’ll be with it. It’s the sort of reality nobody wants to face, this is why there’s an aspect of life that is suffering. The sooner we realize the true value of suffering the less we’ll have to endure appreciate the reality check

When life spirals out of control before your very eyes Yesterday was one of those days when it feels like everyone and everything had it in for me. "A real test" one might say. It literally was a series of unfortunate events, consisting of cranky, moody family members lashing out, dogs fighting, working in 110 degree heat, a broken lock, and finally, blowing an opportunity to ask a girl out, who i'd neglected to ask out several months ago. This was a tail spin that sent me out of control, emotionally and mentally I was completely aware, as i watched myself eat myself up, fed by the thought stories, the build up of hate, a need to escape, a need for isolation, filled with regret, anger, frustration, and self hate. This is what one might call a depressive episode of bipolar and is the result of taking life a little too seriously, not taking full responsibility for my experience and simply falling back asleep every moment. Recently i read 95% of our lives are lived unconscious, basically on autopilot. Here's a quote from Dr. Nicole LePera, holistic psychologist: "We have lost our ability to think because we spend almost 95% of our lives unconscious. So rather than think, we emotionally react. Over and over again, we continue to be chained to the past. We don’t know how to sit with emotions. If you want mental freedom, you need to learn how to think. Some of you are hearing your mental chatter and saying to yourself: I know how to think! I think all day long. And it’s true. We do. But we are thinking the same thoughts over and over again beyond our awareness. Beyond our control. Beyond choice. Conscious thought is something a person can do only when they’re present. Only when you practice awareness and working through triggers. Our parents don’t teach us this. Our school systems certainly don’t teach this. This is a skill one must teach themselves. We’ve been hearing messages about everything I mentioned from the time we came into the world. Part of healing is releasing those messages and <choosing> what we believe. Not what a professor tells us. Not what our parents believed. Not what a guru tells us is ‘the way.’ What we believe. There’s so much talk about how society holds us back. And I’m open to that discussion. But no one holds us back more than our own inability to think for ourselves" Reflect on my story and this message, share what you'd like, ill try to be open to anything, much love Below is where i got her quote from Instagram

@zeroISinfinity we mustn’t try to live in the absolute perspective, you can bring the absolute into your life to fullfil your needs because that’s what you’re doing here as Aleks, letting source consciousness experience itself through you to continue its expansion as the infinite

@Truth Addict health is largely dependent on one’s system of beliefs... Bipolar or depression is a result of one’s inability to live a “healthy” life, this is true but it doesn’t mean they or ego is solely to blame. Not until they learn how and why they are creating their own shit so they can start taking responsibility my uncle is an ignorant case of someone stoping at their limiting beliefs as well as ignoring their physical health edit: if it’s simply tough love you’re bringing forth, much love ??

@Truth Addict this is very broad, but what you’re saying is not to accept anything less than what makes me happy, so if that means changing my living environment, habits, relationships, career path etc then these changes must be made?

@Truth Addict what do you mean by health? Do you mean physical, mental or emotional, or perhaps all? It’s not what we have going for us but our ability to accept our current situation in order to make the best out of it, wouldn’t you agree?

Yes you are totally right after my first awakening i learned how to suffer consciously, this led to ending an alcohol addiction But also there is trauma that can be triggered in certain situations, this is basically a reality check for the self which often triggers the fight or flight response, which is completely out of my control. Running is resistance = suffering in a sense, and after being aware of this behavior enough times, it can be stopped in it's tracks My friend, suffering is suffering no matter our life situation. I think i understand what you're getting at of course, thanks I have it good, we have it reallll fucking good and there's much to be grateful for...unfortunately when ive attached to a depressed state of mind then judge everything, it does not matter what the world is dealing with...because i am clinging for my own dear life

cheers man! yeah it's all about that self empowerment! Yes we are easily able to sit in our own conditioning, without any desire to change. If you're like me you can be a people pleaser and when it comes to woman, i tend to place them on a pedestal. I actually neglect my own needs and growth for the sake of a girl i simply have interest in, which turns out to be quite needy, insecure and shows low self esteem. I've often disguised my fear of rejection with confidence. Why do i interact from a place of fear when it is possible to act out of abundance with courage and boldness. Mindsets like "i know exactly what i want" "lets see if she meets my standards" "if not at least ill have this experience and maybe ill make her day". I think it would be cool if you told her next time you saw her you really asked for her number because you think she's cute. But that's just my thoughts Appreciate you making me feel better with your similar experiences. I hope for both our sake we start focusing on our own needs before worrying about the needs of others, cuz i think this is the only way we can change out of these limited beliefs. I really blew it with this girl but it's not eating me up anymore because i know my attitude and focus have to change before i can attract more woman into my life. If i don't keep an abundance mindset, ill be creating more toxicity and suffering for myself and others, "aint nobody got time for that!" Thanks again Bill, enjoyed your share, Edit: good luck tomorrow! Don't hesitate to speak your mind, especially about how you're feeling anxious because that's some respectable honesty

Great advice here. Same ? can’t forget a first kiss

@xthebentnecklady her videos aren’t ment to provide the “solution” or “fix” to your problem of addiction but simply to get you to look at it from different angles so you are able to understand it at its root. From here you can easily overcome any addiction with the right amount of will Just started watching the episode and it’s packed with good insights about the psychology and behavior behind this addiction Seems to me you have a lot of self reflection and Emotional work that needs to be done. Maybe she isn’t the right “teacher” for you, doesn’t make her invaluable to others. All the best I can also see you’re reacting to her words instead of setting aside your own bias and beliefs simply to consider her perspective

I did! And also listened to certain types of music to allow emotions to pass through had to let go of everything, today and yesterday are like night and day ?

Awesome! Feel free to share whatever you find and check out her instagram or this journal!

excellent dude! really liked this part Hope youre doing well. What a journey it has been, ive been feeling lost in space lately, my mind fights, kicking and screaming, grabbing anything it can possible attach to, and here i am, afraid to move, to let go, to be free, to be, GOD

This was an excellent reminder, so easy to fall into these thought patterns and lose ourselves in the unconscious. @Mu_ Thanks this video came at a good time for me hearing alan watts is like noticing something new or gaining a deeper meaning in every time I reread a favorite book, which is not something i really do anymore (read)

Simply sharing

@arlin i dont think so... glad you are excited, i love seeing her posts on instagram and i have many to catch up on from the beginning so ill probably just post the ones i like here when i get to them. great short alan watts vid

@zeroISinfinity ”it was just a dream, just a moment ago, I was up so high looking down at the sky, don’t let me fall...” ?

exactly, but only as a tool for making the unconscious, conscious feel free to share your concerns here bud, i support holistic psychology @zeroISinfinity ?

My ego type is the "Labeled Ego", what's yours? mind you this is simply a tool, not something to get attached to but to recognize how and why we think and feel the way we do, created through self reflection and therapy with others honestly I would like to see a thread dedicated to this sort of Instagram page for shadow work

OKay im done playing Joker with you dude. This is simply a tool created through many years of therapy and self reflection to help us become aware of the ego. If you don't like it, toss it

@Truth Addict who’s Cosmo? The only thing that takes ego seriously is ego ???

Yup definitely the “realist” ego...? it’s not about categorizing personality types, it’s about letting go of the identity as having a specific personality type