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Depression is real. Real depression CANNOT be solved with breathing exercises or going for a jog... It can be solved by radical life changes, though. And I mean radical. So radical, that it needs depression to get you to do it. Depression is no joke, it's actually a life-threatening disorder.

But there's still only YOU.

There's no one else to shape the cosmos around but you.

2C-B definitely the most. Ketamine, obviously, the least.

Bullshit. It's so obvious that that wasn't a prank. How would you know? Granted, I don't either 100%, but it would very much surprise if that was the case. The theory, that that's a coping strategy makes way more sense. And a breakdown can DEFINITELY look like that.

It's quite hard to make new friends in Germany. But when you do, the relationships are very strong and based on honesty. Germans love to complain. But when they do something, it's really thorough. They really don't half-ass what they do. Germany has a beautiful social security system (though not quite as advanced as, say, Finland). You know that you'll never be homeless or need to be hungry, as long as you're able to deal with the bureaucracy. Bureaucracy is something which Germans really love and hate at the same time. Germans like to follow rules (example: Standing in front of a red light, even when there's no car in sight). Germans are very straight forward and appreciate honesty. But they also don't like to change their ways sometimes, which can halt progress into the future (example: Germans really love their cash). Source: I'm German from birth. I, personally, am really happy to live here. But there are some things that need to be changed (as there are in every country). I'm a passionate critique of a lot of things here, but overall it's one of the most amazing places to live in, in my opinion.

I'm not that new, but I don't post that often I follow Leo for a while now and see many parallels to my own journey. I regularly gain a lot of great impulses especially from the YouTube videos that further me a lot on my own path. This forum is an awesome source of entertainment and some insight, but I feel that you can get lost in it, too, if you aren't careful. That's why I'm not too attached to this place. But I appreciate it for what it is.

NOBODY knows what's up. That's the fucking beauty of it. And I'm not saying you shouldn't explore the deepest possible depths of yourself - quite the contrary. But anybody who thinks they got it is fooling themselves. And that's the deepest beauty. It never fucking ends. But there are depths so deep that no human ever experienced them or has any idea what that could be. I have no idea about Leo. But I know that we humans are still soooooooo deep in the darkness... There are things possible that are so beyond everything known, that no one even DARED to dream about it. It exceeds even your wildest speculations and then some. YOU HAVE NO FUCKING CLUE. And it is fucking sad to think THIS IS IT. Oh boy you're in for quite the surprise let me tell you. We humans tend to think we had understood something. That's the reason for our being in this darkness and the reason we'll not leave it for a very long time. Except... when we finally stop playing these stupid games of pretending that our understanding was anywhere NEAR final.

There's, ultimately, no separation.

Interesting. But I'd say - except for the novelty factor - watching a juggler is entertaining precisely because he is human.

@LSD-Rumi What about Stimulants and Dissociatives? But yeah... contemporary medicine isn't as advanced as doctors want to believe. In fact believing that it was leads to it being stagnant. I myself had various encounters with doctors that sweared something I experienced couldn't possibly be true, because they never learned it that way. Ironically I was the only one that had direct experience of what was talked about in that conversation.

LSA works and I had my first psychedelic experience with it. It was VERY euphoric and opened a lot of doors in my mind. But I used Hawaiian Baby Woodrose Seeds as the plant containing it. AFAIK the concentration there is a lot higher, so you need less plant material. The experience can be ruined due to a lot of nausea, according to a lot of reports and my later experiences. Nowadays I would prefer LSD to LSA, it just feels a lot cleaner.

@GLORY Simply put: You can.

Talking is fun. I love communicating those ideas, it's also a deep desire to do so - even if it doesn't matter at all. When I'm conscious of that it's even more fun, because I'm not dependent on the outcome I had multiple experiences of what I'm talking about - with and without psychedelics - and I continue to have them regularly. Those are the best moments of my life. And it's always from different perspectives and focussing on different aspects of it. Never have two experiences been exactly the same. And I'm excited to know that I didn't nearly reach the deepest depths of it.

You of course ARE the absolute. You just kind of "remember". There are states of consciousness in which it's beyond any doubt clear as day. But later you have to interpret the experience as well to communicate it.

Out of this (our) perspective, God is in the process of Becoming. From its point of view it's eternal and motionless. One interpretation would be: God always and eternally knows what it is. But to experientially explore itself, it had to create time, space & causality.

You can understand infinity, but you can never communicate it. And even if you could it would always be deeply misunderstood. That's the beauty of language: You can describe so so much, but you can't really convey Truth. If you could, everyone would be awake since the dawn of time. Hitler is your own past (but everything is happening at the same time, too). It is real but you're not aware of it right now. There's only love and beauty. Even in the deepest suffering and unconsciousness. That's why there's no reason to eradicate something like the Hitler-Experience out of all-there-is. Even that is deeply loved and accepted by Infinity.

@iboughtleosbooklist You have no idea what you're talking about. If you're not just being unnecessarily negative: The issue is, that you're not aware of God's point of view right now. So nothing you say comes out of direct experience. It's just mental guess-work. Pursue direct knowing and see for yourself.

There are reasons to use alcohol. But - in my mind - for every one of them there's a better substance for it. Alcohol just has a really bad side-effect profile.

But it goes way beyond that, too. Because it's done in such a way that the result is astoundingly beautiful. It is absolutely perfect. All the lying, deception and ugliness is exactly how it must be. Nothing is ever out of place. To realize that is a mindfuck. God is not able to create anything that is not perfect.

Death doesn't exist. It's just the end of this life as we know it. It's pretty obvious that we will return to whatever was before this life. Also that state will be obviously much more conscious. General anaesthesia is (most of the time at least) more like deep dreamless sleep. Whatever happens there you're not able to remember it.

You seem to be very self-conscious and insecure. Your english isn't bad at all, you don't have to excuse yourself. My guess is that you got a lot of trauma to work through (I speak from experience). From that perspective life can seem like hell, but I promise you that it's not. But you got to find that out for yourself. Psychedelics could help with that, but my advice would be to at least stay away from high doses. I wish you the best on your journey!

Thanks for sharing. What happened on the LSD trip you mentioned?

Spirituality eventually leads to the discovery that there is no path. But you have to walk it anyway. Trying not to also won't bring you closer to so-called enlightenment, that's already trying to achieve something. In fact following your desire is already more authentic than not to, and thus more truthful and enlightened.