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  1. Hi everyone, Recently I hv a very good friend of mine, she has paranoid schizophrenia I don’t know why but probably she had some emotional breakdown during his personal life with a guy maybe I guess as she told me something yesterday about her story in short steps... she sent me videos about how she feels and I was completely into her like I could feel how bad she feels... I get triggered too yesterday night as My Mind swirled thoughts of how I have been cheated too by someone... and on the other hand thoughts like my friend has been heart broken by someone and how could someone do this to her cuz she is so beautiful and how she is suffering a lot...Eventually I wasn’t aboe to sleep at night early as my mind was occupied with thoughts about her and also my ex.... the same bad bad very bad feelings when I broke up with my gf... i need some suggestions about the same feelings coming again and being uneasy with them... thanks
  2. @Shin 🙄🙄 So ypu are afraid to face your truth too as do I....
  3. Help me tackle the fear and Ignoring the difficult situation.....! I ignore them all time
  4. 😂😂 how do I made fun of you?
  5. yes yes,,,,,, I am very very very afraid to face my truths and reality,,,,,, I keep on avoiding that fear,...….that scary feeling is so deep,,,,,,Any suggestions on how to deal with that feeling of fear...
  6. Some of my friends usually Will slay bad words or verbal abuse at me when I am with them and other people around, Recently I called one of my friend to play game with me and at the same time one of my friend joined me(girl)... I dont know why but my friend started throwing words at me showing me down and speaking all rubbish like it seems fun for him to insult me in front of her, He was like prooving himself better than me in feont of her and me as an asshole... I noticed how I feel at that moment but i kept quiet but afterwards felt bad... How should I get through such situations ?
  7. FOr the update: Last night the same friend was threatening me About how I dont play online games with him and ignore him when I play with girls as he think... he abused me last night and also threatened me that will fight when I meet him... so I told him to just f off and i dont want to talk and waste my energy and Blocked him....
  8. just feel I can’t, giving up on identity feels like building up a huge amount of resistance that causes headaches and tension around my head areas....I wonder why it is not easy !!!! On the other part I try to force my identity go....and troubles me more and more... because I think if I not force it go it wont go.. 🤥
  9. @Aeris if you ask me.... i feel good at the very moment after I hurt pople and after sometime I regret a lot.
  10. @Shin Today Morning as I was on bed trying to wake up... I heard my Mom yelling about somethings.. and soon all the tension fear very very bad feelings came up and I was there seeing them and I became so confused with them... I hardly was able to differentiate any and A lots of suffering going inside my head that felt so painful to sit beside and watch 🥺
  11. @Ero I get what you saying.... I am worried if that my own darkness ever bring me a psychotic episode...
  12. @Shin there is a constant voice all over the day inside telling me, ‘ its I causing the problems let it go, why wont you let go of yourself’’and I am like stressed cuz Its feels hard to let go...
  13. Two days before while I was meditating (20min session daily) in bw the session I felt like prickling itching sensation all over my skin as I just thoughg that was some Body response, I juat cant handle it so That day I quitted my meditation in bw(14 minutes)...Like allergic response(Seriously i dont have any allergies) and Today: Was just meditating as just rembered I encountered certain anxious feeling type and all of a sudden that same prickling sensation came that was so intense like I need to scratch all my body, like there was lots of needles pricking all over my skin... I don’t know how i managed with that but kept focusing my breath and at the same time there was a slight gag and my mouth was drooling from saliva.... and then after around a period of 3 minutes my sensation of like I need scratching became less and over and then I ended up my complete 20 minutes meditation session...wondering what happened
  14. Nowadays I am contemplating on the thing which claims the identity of speaking ‘I, me,’ in every sentences and Everytime I choose to see what it is, I see it concentrating at a point in my head and then the words stop and then again starts... At some point i feel that I am the body harvesting that thing which is speaking!!!
  15. Yes Maybe I need to get on my beliefs on
  16. @pointessa absolutely to the point... Next day the same girl told me how my friend was being abusive and dont like that behaviour of his... I told my friend that how he was behaving with me... he seems to be same
  17. @Jamie Universe People don’t care about us or anyone, They only think of themselves... I guess we should be more selective in the types of friends we need to have... and stop sticking to hazardous people... I myself have experienced a lot... I give people a lot of love,,, Even if they being bad to me... But people remain who they really are inside...
  18. @Jamie Universe What do you say on the basis of Spiritual knowledge!? I feel like If I run away from me, I am suppressing my feelings and I am doing wrong with me mentally! I am just confused... Should I watch him speak... i actually dont feel enough power inside me to ignore such persons.. 😯
  19. I listen to music whenever I feel low or midst of suffering, Can It be like I am suppressing my emotions and not listening them...cuz Listening to Music is like IM in a flow....! Just thinking
  20. I was just wondering cuz I read it somewhere that people often use music as a source of getting rid of how they feel... -
  21. Nice question though😂 sometimes I am also like Nothing exists, Nothing is real then why do i see them feel themed
  22. Recently I have been trying to explore my emotions but I have been facing difficulties: 1. i cannot find a specific name for that emotion, find difficulty labeling them... 2. As Soon as I stick them a particular label my mind would then question and answer it like, No its a sad feeling oh no maybe broken no its fear..I feel stuck... 3: Emotions seems to be overwhelming sometimes, As I look at them they become quite heavy and heavy... and then I give up... what should I do about them? thanks
  23. Could I just focus on being aware of awareness..meditation.... Leaving all the other types of meditation...