EugeneTheSage

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This is an emotion. And it arises because of my wiring of a brain. Some other people wouldn't feel jealous to her. But I have such a belief system that makes me feel that. I agree competition is not good, but again that is how my brain functions... You know society makes me think that I am a guy and I should be good at making money, I should be macho. And this girl shatters my masculine and self-development and even spiritual ego by showing how she is better at everything at a younger age. But all this is just nonsense. I don't feel much jealousy now, instead, I focus on my life and use a yellow attitude towards my development. I try to shift my paradigm to "what a gift is she to me" because I could learn from her how to become financial independent. She told me we would remain friends i.e we don't continue our relationships. I guess that's because of one meeting when I was really low energy because I masturbated this day before. The first time we met I was really confident and had a lot of energy - she felt like she is under a man's protection and she liked me (she even kissed my cheek). Also, I was calling her too often whereas not having an interesting topic to talk about - so conversations were dull sometimes. And she could sense that I am putting her on a pedestal, I am feeling like shit comparing to her. Girl doesn't like shit guys - she likes when feeling like on a mountain with her man. I wonder if she can start to like me again if I let her go (I often experience when you let girl go after some time she starts to like you again), I will work out jealousy issue, cleanse my body and increase my level of energy. I more researching tension release resources. Among detox protocols I researched only castor oil intestine flush but those articles are in russian, so you need to search for yourself

She is 19 and I am 20. We are both Ukrainians and we are currently locating in Poland. So... At the age of 15 she healed type II arthrosis by raw diet and detox protocols. She has deep knowledge about health and nutrition Since the age of 15, she is financially independent of her parents. From the age of 17, she started importing iPhones from the US/UK and selling them. She was earning enough money to go to different meditation/yoga/detox retreats in Bali and other parts of the world. She visited at least 5 of those and they were costing at least 300$ dollars each. Remember, Ukraine is no rich country, this amount is an average salary there. She has a beautiful body She has a Macbook, she has a motorcycle, she already had 2 cars in her life! Not even to mention she is able to drive a car and motorcycle and I'm not. Even blender: I have a 1000W one and she has 2000W! She had invested 2000$ in cryptocurrencies. She told me a story that once she earned 120$ in 2 hours in front of her friend just to show how it works Her colleague-businessman wants her to invest his 100 000 PLN into cryptocurrencies! Fuck, fuck, fuck! She told me about her mystical experiences: she was doing some Vipassana for 10 mins and she relaxed so deeply that she experienced profound feelings of being infinite (she couldn't describe it very well). I didn't have experiences any close to that without the help of psychedelics And yesterday evening, after a month of acquaintance, she told me we would remain friends because we are too different. And she is right! We have different lifestyles: I am working for a boss, she is a boss; I would sit in a cubicle for 20 years and she would travel all over the world; she has a lot of free time and a very loose schedule and I am bound to work on a nine-to-five job. I was crying so bitter - as so somebody peels me alive I feel shattered. Maybe in my 40s, I would reach her level at 15s Since I've started my self-actualization journey I felt special: that I'd become a president or the richest man on the planet or like Leo. Now I feel humiliated My mum is into astrology and she says that it could be the case I've experienced enough success in previous incarnations and now I just not interested in success a lot. I indeed wasn't interested in selling stuff and doing business for money's sake though I had a lot of chances. I was always returning to my 3d graphic passion. Of course, this incarnation stuff could be just a comfortable delusion - I just use it as a mental trick to calm myself down However there are some cons to her: she is illiterate and has a lot of misspellings; she speaks only Ukrainian and Russian whereas I speak Ukrainian, Russian, Polish, and English - all at a master level. Also, she is into flat earth and COVID conspiracy theories - that's nonsense I also had a chance to sell phones because my dad is into them - but it never interested me. I wanted to do 3d graphics - that's what I am deeply passionate about Maybe it feels that I am deep into jealousy and I am stuck but really it is not - I just write down the extremes of my mood swings If I play in the game of jealousy and competition I am bound to fail - there always would be some guy or girl that is more successful than me. I've already lost this war. I need to search for some other fulfillment than success. Also, I feel how my jealousy is ignorance. And the cure to it is wisdom. Contemplation. Also, I recognize how jealousy is cracking the shell I've imprisoned myself into. Because for the last few years I was into compulsive behavior, working on a construction site, making big debts. This cracking of the old ego makes me remind of my older excellent self that I was at the beginning of the journey When I heard she had 2 cars it was like somebody stroked my spine with a stick. My ego is howling piercingly Jealousy is just a perverted form of love. I sometimes disidentify with it and feel how 'it' is just God fascinating at its own potency If I would go and deep clean my body (she is helping me with detox protocols by the way) and master my mind to the superhuman degree - which is my goal - all this jealousy stuff would be irrelevant. Your greatness is not the ranking on fortune500 but the internal state. As I slowly become more healthier and relaxed I start to enable into this sage-genius-like state of excellence, greatness, unlimitedness - and this is only the beginning I know that growth is not linear and here are examples of this: Leo was studying at University till the age of 24 and haven't success any close to my ex-girlfriend at the age of 19. Steve Jobs found Apple at the age of 21 (I have one more year to outrun him!) Abraham Maslow had hard teenage years and also was studying for a long before he became an actualized human being Yogananda wasn't earning a lot of money, though he is a profound human being Tony Robbins had a period of addictive behavior at the age of 18, a lot of junk food - just like me Sri Yukteshwar Giri was just a simple householder before he became a profound Sage Stephen King - though I don't like his content but I consider him a succesful writer - was fucking looser for the most of his life and was following his passion of writing even during hardest chapters of his life. He was drug and alkohol addict, and yet finally he had become successful. Alber Einstein was a fucking clerk working on the post office for an entire youth Nicola Tesla also was studying in university till the age of 24 and didn't have a business at that age. I doubt my girlfriend would ever come close to the last 2 examples. Anyways it is not about competition. I use those examples just to calm myself down Till the end of writing this post, I feel really OK with it. I know it will return. Maybe she would by the way say that she has some house in a luxury area What I am about to do with this (how will my behaviour change): deep detox of the body. Clean all that crap I've eaten out. I'm not just planning, I've already improved my diet and made the arrangements for the first castor oil detox self-massage all of my muscles so deep that I'm so relaxed that I feel like a superconductor of God. Here I also don't just speak a lot. I'm doing foam roller massage of the calves and quadriceps - and my sleep and mood improved dramatically I don't suppose to avoid her. No. I am about to learn and soak as much of her entrepreneurship spirit as I can I am about to face suffering directly - not to avoid them by masturbation, but ground myself in the unpleasant feelings I am about to buy a life purpose course in this year. Thats because I've started to doubt my current passion of 3D graphic design I'll read Sadhguru book Karma till the end of this year I would like to hear your wisdom and some paradigm shifts and reframes! Thank you!

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Agree. I already used it and continue using jealousy

@Nobody_Here I will check

@nistake Man I see you are a 3d modeler. Mee too!

As I know Arab guys pretty much abusively overuse Germany's welfare system?

@Vision ok, actually this idea of muscle trains weren't discussed in the proposed video. I watched a russian speaking terapist who was talking about this Tom Myer's model but the video I've provided doesn't contain needed information, though it is still useful. The core of the idea is that there are lines of muscles which influence each other. You can have problem with knees because your quadriceps is too tense and chronically contracted, or because your lower back is tense. Lot od combinations could possibly be

Important point: it depends from what do you want from your life I want to become superhuman, including superhuman mastering of my body.

You can't grab her by the pu$$y if you feel like shit in comparison to her. I don't feel any more but this emotion returns sometimes. I better clean myself fully from this feeling (I am not very far from it) and then give it a try. Otherwise, I would be sliding back&forth between normal state and state "I am shit". She started to like me because I was in this super-confident state - I was doing a lot of Shambhavi, eating very healthy - but then I masturbated a few times and she saw completely different guy - who she disliked. Also I recognize how this is a work of increasing your level of integrity because when I experience waves of jealousy and "I'm shit" feeling - those are just divided parts of me. It feel as so I become another personality during these emotions. So I need to integrate this division of me I think conspiracy theories, flat earth, anti-vaccine are toxic excesses of Green. People who are into raw/veganism often buy in this stuff. She is very healthy, and her mind is calm - you can sense that during the conversation. She also has deep knowledge about health - you can see how her advices about health aren't superficial. Also as I mentioned before she pretty easily gets into mystical experiences. She even says she is a bit scared to meditate. Yesterday night I was doing Shambhavi Mahamudra Kriya and was feeling greatness and excellence and self-sufficiency - no jealousy can survive during that state. That is the cure

That hints me not to go into spirituality before I get my basic shit done. I don't want to be an Enlightened one working on a nine-to-five job. He associates with an exaggerated version of me

Absolutely agree with this. I also was feeling/thinking of the same. It is just God wonders at its own excellence. Yes, transmutation is what I do. I'm very grateful for her appearing in my life and I very much appreciate jealousy by itself.

Yeah I don't limit myself to just yoga. I also like strenght exercises That's what I'm about I've read about pandiculation https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/21665102/ and found thing called Muscular Repositioning that technique which effects are reminiscent of pandiculation. Would study it tomorrow

I don't know any specific good videos. You better research by yourself. Those are pictures I wanna add that those poses stretch all the front "muscle train" More about muscle trains: youtube.com/watch?v=FOzsDItW7Bs I suggest you don't just look for a quick solution from us but instead set an investigative approach for yourself. In my experience quick 5mins formula doesn't work well - I get better results when studying topic deeeeeply

That's the point) I think bodybuilding is not a very conscious activity. For example, I've heard the advice: "you wanna eat before bed because you have 8hours without food and you don't want to waste those 8hrs and pack yourself in more calories instead". I think eating before bed is harmful. I am more into fasting, ascetism. Just look: your digestive system is like a conveyor factory - if you never stop for technical maintenance you got some technical failures (such as cancer, stomach ulcers). So when you do intermittent fasting or do a 36hrs (1day) fast every week, or do some water fast for 10days - you regenerate and turn your digestive tract to its natural state Bodybuilding convinces you need those 3000+ cal per day. That's what is good for muscle growth but does it good for your health? The same with the softness/hardness of muscles. Bodybuilding is younger than a century but yoga, acupuncture reach out millennia ago. Since childhood, I am interested and inspired by some ascetic practices. That's just my way. You have another path and both our paths are ok At least you've experienced a new perspective

I agree - it is better to compare to yourself yeasterday and as Buddha said "Do your best". I don't agree she is at red. I think she has strong orange and green. Ok maybe I don't know spiral dynamics that well. She don't seem chasing money. She said that she don't wanna to act with "men's instinct$" of achieving and earning more - connection with people is more interesting to her. Enterprenurity is natural way of thinking. Her brain is just wired that way.

Don't know about fenugreek but spirulina, turmeric, maca increase your libido for sure. I avoid these to succeed at curing my PMO addiction

What do you mean by securing a good rebirth? Do you mean my next incarnation would be nice? Unfortunately it is a slippery topic because I can't check if reincarnation true empyrically. I really wonder of what you talked about Jnana. I am meditating for 3 years and it seems I've lost some big chunk of a Joy puzzle!

stretching. For abdomen and neck, upper dog and cobra pose are very good. General exercising improves your everyday baseline of relaxation. The important rule is that muscles better relax when you tense them and then stretch or tense and intentionally relax

Not yet, but I would like to learn an Angamardana, Surya Kriya and Shoonya

Yesterday evening I was sitting still in my room looking at rainy outdoor. I felt amazing. I felt too nice. And I identified this urge to relapse by masturbating. It is so hard to keep yourself in high-energy state. Life is too intense to tolerate it. It is much easier to remain in zombie-like lethargic state after masturbation. I have a lot of changes in my life: I am doing super-energizing Shambhavi Mahamudra Kriya meditation, eating much healthier - almost just greens and fruits, I am doing foam roller massage for my legs - I feel much more relaxed now. Also today I looked at my old unfinished 3d modeling project (see attachment): it was amazing! Unfortunately I didn't have enough computing power to render it well so I've dropped it. But it gave me an idea: "Hey man, you have lot of creative potential. You just don't know how to control your mind" So because I am not master of my mind It hurts me in the form of depression. As I received the kick of inspiration because of this insight I started to notice tension is acumulating in my calf and thigh - the area I am working on with massage. So another lesson: I don't know how direct my energy so it blocks in the body and creates disease. In order to prevent disease my body tries to release this energy. And guess how? It's nice that I have loose schedule on the current job (cannabis farm) so I can take time and sit and observe the feelings. Because if there would be no time room I would go into unconscious reaction to feelings and relapse. So I was observing the feelings and did not relapse. But still there is more to unaddict yourself than just few times not doing it. Thats the story! Hope these insights would be helpful to someone!

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@OmAhHungVajraGuru one can do shankha prakshalana or other gut flush before fasting. Shankha prakshalana flushes everything from bacteria to waste matter

@Medhansh yeah, my girlfriend had also told me that and you've reminded. Yeasts in stomach emit some acid or so... Shambhavi is highly energetic. You feel like you have a psychological, emotional, energetical skeleton. I would name the feeling "impenetrable". It improves mental peace a lot, however if you think a lot during meditation it kinda energizes your thoughts and you think even more but still you are "impenetrable". It is a lot easier to not do PMO activity and overeat. It works cumulatively so one sessions doesn't change much but if you do it for 40 days twice a day it is really powerful